Gettin' Down and oh-so-DIRTY!

Peekaboo!

2009-12-01T10:31:00.000-08:00

Moved to beachbum988.tumblr.com

Momentarily fucked and then some

2009-08-22T13:05:00.000-07:00

My body clock is so fucked up! I need to get myself together. Sleeping at 5AM and waking up at 1PM is not good, at all for me and my prospecting job!

GOD!

Anyway, I had a fantastic weekend catching up with old friends and made some new ones too. Its funny how things change after such a long time. I'm sure everyone faces good phases in life and this is just another one of those times, I hope everything works out well with all of you. Yes, we may not have spoken for the past few years but I'm glad we did after everything that has happened. I need not mention any names because they know who they are. I missed the lounging and hanging out even if you were too high to remember anything. Know that I care, and I want to be there for the rest of your life cause our friendship means so much more to me how I claim it to be. I've missed you, heart to heart.

And right now I need my baby back cause he's been gone for too long. I need him to whisper nothings by my side instead of listening to crappy cars speeding on that one stretch of road outside. Baby, know that I love you and I wont trade you for anything else is the world.

I know I have been going AWOL but its all for the best.

Internship starts VERY soon. World, make way, cause here I come - all charged up and ready to rumble!

SOME PEOPLE

2009-02-22T21:21:00.000-08:00

Oh god this is so pissing off.

I cant believe she can be so immature and ungrateful!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

I wish I could just dig out where she stays, go up to her, scream and confront her, then nicely go to sleep.

What have we ever done to make you feel unwanted and unhappy? Just because of one simple thing which you put upon yourself, no thanks to us.

GOD.

Why do I feel like just slapping her back to reality? And someone was telling me that this is hitting me so hard and bothering me because she is blood-related.

I dont think it's that, I just think that any normal-functioning human being would think and act everything out rationally instead of jumping to conclusions like what she did. All she ever cared about was the limelight being held on her, how she used to seek all the attention and try to impress people with her rebellious ways when in fact nobody was really looking at her at all. What she never knew was that everyone found her to be odd and rather knocked up silly. So funny when I think back about it. It was like a message sent down from God how she just took us to her advantage and wanted to cling around only if it was any benefit to her without thinking about other people's feelings. How selfish and self-centered!

If she thinks any sort of harm is going to come upon ANY OF US, she has to think twice because we were not raised like her, nor do our parents think any less of us no matter what we ever do. I'm no angel myself but at least I have enough compassion and empathy, not to mention I do function normally as a human being. I would never ever think about doing any of the things that she has done! Always jumping to conclusions thinking every single bloody thing is about her when it actually is not, nobody really gave a hoot about her only because they had no other choice because they pitied her. And to think everyone pitied her for no apparent reason, that's just daft! Well at least we can all see her for the person she really is now and what she has done tell's so much about her and what life she wants to lead.

Always a compulsive liar, lying about everything she has ever done and who she knows. That's just sad. And also to think that she would stoop so low like debris from a burnt down building makes it even worst. Now I feel sorry for her and I dont even want to feel this way.

THE END.

Okaiiiz, sorry people for updating in such an all of a sudden manner by putting it off about someone who was ONCE close to me. Yes, she's someone who I'm related to which makes it even worst. Anyway, I hope everyone has a fantastic week and hope no one feels as down the way I do right now because this is such horseshit.

Orgasmic

2009-01-27T04:23:00.000-08:00

I have a newfound LOVE!

In the form of OldTown's Assam Laksa. Since I've been missing Mama's Laksa Sarawak this is my best bet.

I EFFIN MISS HOME.

I wanna go back and sit on Stesha!

GRRRRRRRRRR.

I know I havent been updating much, just been pretty busy.

I promise I'll be back very soon though, since I'm not a bum anymore with a vision, I suppose things have been changing, not much, still feels the same on occasion though.

The only thing I cannot stand is waking up early in the mornings cause I am such a grouch, like Oscar. That way I shout at everyone around me. And my room is so god damn cosy I can just hibernate throughout all my days here.

I also just realized that I havent been posting pictures AT ALL as of late. So I'll work that out soon, cross my heart hope to die.

I hope everyone has a prosperous New Year ahead of them, especially to my Chinese friends, Gong Xi Fa Cai.

THE HORROR!

2009-01-03T05:38:00.000-08:00

I am heartbroken! :(

Just landed in KL about 2 hours ago, trying to unpack but I cant set my mind to do it. I really cannot be ARSED. I am in pain, stupid flu, stupid fever, stupid sore throat. All this is NOT making things any better.

I wish I was at home in my dark and messy room. Scary is what Stesha would say. I MISS STESHA ALREADY! I tried to hold my tears back when I saw her waving to me but I could not. I cried the moment I reached the smoking room and Ali had to console me. Oooooooh. The plane ride was horrible, I hated it. My body ached all over and the pressure in my ears was unbearable! I literally had to blow my nose a thousand times.

Can anyone say homesick much? And it's not even been a day. Ha ha. I crack myself up!

I dont feel like shopping when I should be feeling like shopping.

I dont feel like getting my ass up from the sofa.

I dont feel like doing anything at all but wait on this damn dull thing you call a couch.

I JUST WANNA GO HOME AND HUG STESHA. AND KISS TOOTSIE SO I DONT HAVE TO GIVE HER AWAY TO ANYONE.

AAAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHHHH.

Help me :(

But on the other hand, I'm sure everything will be alright tomorrow and I'll be the jolly old me in no time once this sore throat goes away.

Give me any other pain in the world and I will still take it, like a man even, give me a sore throat and you take away everything from me, God. I feel handicapped! Even my wisdom teeth growing out never did this sort of pain to me. I HATE BLAND PAINS. It is so very alang-alang! Grrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Have I told anyone how much I hate sore throats enough yet?

And another reason why is because I have to limit my nicotine intake! I HATE IT WHEN I CANNOT LET ALL MY ANGER OUT ON CIGARETTES!

Everything seems to be so WRONG.

But then again, Ali is on his way with my Lee Stafford hair prods, Soap&Glory body prods and Too Faced self-tanners. I'm so happy. I LOVE BOOTS!

Heehee.

Now I have something to smile on about.

I LOVE YOU ALI!

*kiss*kiss* baby's big round filled-with-joy cheeks.

You are the bestest boyfriend a girl can ever have.

And thank you for the Sobranie Cocktails, my love. You are indeed the bomb, big boy.

I'm sorry for making shitloads of fuss about every single thing. I think I'm turning into that OCD perfectionist I've always had nightmares about being. I am so sorry. You know I still love you and you're the only one for me.

;)

So here's to being a nonstop spoiled brat again!

Happy New Year!

2009-01-02T18:04:00.000-08:00

A bit late, but better late than never. I ALWAYS SAY. Tardiness has always gotten the best out of me. And today, I'm flying off to KL :(

So sad!!!!!!!!

I'm going to miss Mummy and Daddy, Stesha, Shereen, Shereena and Sabrina so very much.

And I will also miss our maid because she makes the bestest food in the whole wide world!

I just wanna tear up all over again.

Hmph.

I aint that hard of an egg-shell to crack, what!

But then again, leaving home pretty much leaves me independent. And I guess that's what everyone wants of me.

I dont have any resolutions for this year, because who cares anyway? Screw resolutions and mind-blow the future spontaneously. As long as I have a strong head on balanced shoulders, I know things will go through, so as the same for anyone else.

And I've been exceptionally addicted to Akon's Freedom.

Speaking of which, I LOVE PENANG! It's the only place in the world where you can get DVDs and CDs for RM4 per piece, and being the haggle-master that I was born to be, all of the roadside stalls are going to go bankrupt from pirating because they sold their goods to me for RM1 a piece. Ha ha ha. I bought at least about 300 pieces worth. And I am so happy with my pirated DVD collection, other people would absolutely DIE.

So here's a toast to the new year - get rid of the bad and on with the new, may 2009 be one hell of a roller coaster ride for all of you.

Just saying, because I know mine will be.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2008-12-24T10:00:00.000-08:00

Aaaaah. I have not been updating very much and I'm sure everyone who used to read my blog does not even bother to check anymore, but hey, better late than never, right?

I just got home from the airport about 2 minutes too late for Xmas eve. My bloody flight got delayed and I was practically celebrating Xmas in the plane rather than on the ground with my family.

I hope everyone else had a better Eve, though.

Maxis is also being a very big bitch-itch for charging for calls on Xmas! I remember birthday bonuses where calls were all free! :(

And I wish Ali was right next to me to cuddle up to me. Oh, I hope he has fun in Paris. It feels so long since I last hugged him and that was to bid adieu. I miss him ever so dearly.

Speaking of Xmas, the only possible thing I look forward to are the presents and spending good time with la familia, especially with Pepe since he's constantly traveling and Xmas is the only time he comes to visit to spend time with Mama.

And guess what arm candy I just got for Xmas?

Okay, maybe not so. I did not get him for Xmas but I wish I did. It was just a thought because he is to die for - with the accent and everything. Aaaaaah, Jason Statham, please come to the ends of the Earth to marry me!

On a serious-er note, this is what I got for Xmas instead.

The Tod's Pashmy Bauletto.

The next closest thing to Rebecca Minkoff's Morning After Bag, but even better!

Heehee.

And now for New Year's present, well that's a whole different story. Wink, *Gucci Tattoo Heart*, wink, wink.

WTF.

2008-10-17T10:25:00.000-07:00

I cannot even begin to explain how much I hate getting the Crimson Wave every month. This month has been the worst, my cramps are getting more and more intense as I sit here smoking on a fag, patiently, willingly waiting for the dull, bland pain to subside. I wish I had a masseus to do the job, but I hate it when people massage me so that will not be an option. I just wish I could do something about this uncomfortable feeling.

Apart from that, life has been equally good. I'm having my topsy turvies but I'm ironing things out and hopefully it will come to an end, pretty soon. I wish I could jet off on a permanent vacation and live on an island filled with sun canopies or hugeass beach umbrellas, sit in the sun, tan day and night. Suffice to say, my tan just got very even and decent, I'm glad I'm not just a block of shady brown anymore! I'm all smiles :D

I need to lose weight quick before I get depressed. Dropping from a size 10 to a size 8 within a month has been magnificent, I just need to work on my thighs and buttocks, maybe flatten the tummy a little and I'm good to go. So, shopping, here I come! Organic food (so much BLERGH)
has been very nice to me too, I'm trying to drink 3 cups of green tea every day, as much as I like it with sugar, I'm skipping the whole sweet tooth thing. God damn, those things make my tums cramp up even more just by thinking about it. I am fucking determined to lose weight by end of this year so I'll just keep my fingers crossed.

I wish everyone a very happy weekend, I hope everything goes swell because I know mine will!

MMMM. Heavenly Bliss!

2008-09-28T09:08:00.000-07:00

Holidays are here, I'm glad I dont have to work for the next week. Ha ha ha. I have never ever appreciated holidays and sleep-ins as much as I do right this instant!

Daddy gave me a box of Kent Nanotek Neos a few days ago and they are so cool! The cigarettes are so compact, the size is 1/4 of a normal cigarette but just as long. I only smoked 2 cause I dont want to waste them all, I have this urge of even tucking the box away in my drawer so I wont smoke on them since you cant get them in Asia just yet. I was also thinking of getting a few cartons of Lady Rose cigarettes online but I'm not sure whether I need a license to actually do it.

I've been shopping since I got my pay, I know it is not much but then again I earned all of it on my own - that way no one can put any limits to what I want or do not want to do. Heeeee. Okay, fine the only shopping I did was to get myself 4 bottles of Evian spray, lip balm and deodorant. Apart from that, the shoes I just got was a gift from Ali because I decided not to get any DVDs this month.

Speaking of shoes, I dont know how I managed to get such giganormous feet, both my parents have normal-sized feet, and here I am stuck with size 9 feet for no apparent reason. And I hate how local shops do not have my size. I remember walking into a very chink-like store in Times Square and saw a pair of red slingbacks and brown dotted pair of wedges which I absolutely fell in love with. I tried them on and decided to purchase them, I even got them to expand the shoe width at the back of the store and to come home realizing that they got me the wrong size. They got me a bloody size 39, half of my foot could not go in! The nerve. I was a paying customer! I never found myself arsed to go back to the place because obviously, I could not even remember which chinky store it was seeing so many of them around. See, that's why I stick ever so strong like glue to Pedder Red, Shuz and my ever loyal Birkenstock or Japanese slippers. Because I know wherever I go, they have my size in stock, ready to wear as well.

The Contender Asia Season 2 has started! I am soooooo happy. And The Postal Service's Such Great Heights have been very nice to accompany me day in, day out when I feel the blues. Bless Britpop Indie and it's natural wonders!

Until the next, next, next time I decide to update, which might be in a reasonably good time, I bid everyone adieu!

Days have definitely been better.

2008-09-21T09:14:00.000-07:00

I have a little bug going around my immune system. I think I may have got the virus from one of the kids at school. SO IRRITATING.

My nose is stuffed, my throat is playing an orchestra and my body temp has gone up to 100 degrees (okay okay, a little exaggeration wont hurt) but still. I feel like a walking corpse. I've been drinking tea non stop and it helps my esophagus cool off. Mmmmmm.

A goodnight's sleep shall help a lot (or so I hope) so I can enjoy the rest of the day tomorrow!

Finally, it's the weekend!

2008-09-05T21:42:00.000-07:00

Aaaaaaah. Now this is a relief. Never have I looked forward to weekends as much as I do now. Before this every other day was a Saturday or Sunday for me and I just realized how much lack of sleep I've been getting. Now I know why people say working 9 to 5 is tiring, for which in my case is 730 to 6 Monday until Friday.

I feel like a donkey's bottom. Work has been good, knowing that I'll get extra pocket money every month makes it a worthwhile thing as well. I absolutely hate Fridays since it's "Cleaning Day". And I was bullied into cleaning all the toys and apparatus! I have an addiction to sharpening pencils, too!

And the kids, oh the kids, have been wonderful except one boy who gets on my nerves pretty easily, I was tempted to slap him and dump his head in a rubbish bin. Not only is he dumb, he's annoying as well. Every single time I tell him to do his work, he whines like a baby. Everyone in his age group can at least count until 100 or read most of the words in their books. All he wants to do is colour his way through and he gets so far left behind when the other children are doing their work, it's impossible. And to think he's already 6 years old. His silly father wants to send him to a Chinese school next year and I wanted to laugh in his face cause there is no way any of the teachers, no matter how strict or good they are can manage to control their temper with him! That particular kid needs A LOT of help, I think. I'm patient with all the other ones but he, he just pisses me off every single time I look at his face!

I dont know why parents send their children to daycares. Okay, more money for us but still, I dont agree with the concept of daycares. They come in un-showered and sleepy and a total stranger has to give them baths. They whine and cry and suck on their bottles as if they cling on to it for dear life. There has to be at least one parent who earns a steady income and another parent who stays at home with their children (preferably female cause I'm conservative in that sense). Otherwise, dont make babies! I pity the look on the kids faces when their parents come to pick them up after work and they just run and jump for joy, innocently not knowing that they have to come back again the next day. It's alright if they only come in the mornings to learn, but staying with other people, complete strangers as they know, every single day until 5PM is absurd! What if the people at the daycare do not wash them up properly? What if the only thing they do is sit in front of a TV all the time, getting brainwashed with cartoons and most cartoons are violent? What if they do not getfed properly and they do not get their daily nutritions? Oooooh. Just for the record, I do not give the kids their baths and I do not feed them. I put their diapers and clothes on, comb their hair and organise their studies in the morning. In the afternoon, I'm in charge of tuition. And the place I work at cleans AND feeds the kids properly. If you know my employer, I'm sure you're bound to agree with me. Anyone who knows her knows how fussy she is, and the fussy sort where she gets what she wants and sticks to it. Let's just say she likes discipline and drastic disciplinary measures equals to drastic changes for the education system.

On a side note, I talked to my dad about getting a degree in child care and he disagreed. I was a little disappointed but I was not worried or anything. He wants me to go for something high-rank. I had question marks on the inside of my head. Lol. Okay, so it's between Architecture, Entrepreneurship and International Business. I have until next year to decide and I'm going in head first into a big pile of shit, well literally.

So there it is, another short update. I hope everyone enjoys their weekends cause I'm appreciating mine!

Hiatus

2008-08-30T11:00:00.000-07:00

Been pretty busy with my mundane life, helping out at a family friend's place for a bit until I get everything sorted out.

I was actually thinking of cancelling makeup school and go forth with Mum's brilliant idea of getting a childcare/child psychology degree in Australia. It should be promising since I've been given the green light to set up my own day care close to home!

I LOVE KIDS.

And now my passion for kids have grown so much more intense than it did the last time. I was also thinking of continuing my studies and if things go as well as I plan, I would definitely take the chance of getting a Masters in Philosophy. Now how awesome would that be?

Then my dreams of visiting Africa and doing voluntary English teaching would come to life! And first thing first, I'd have to start from the root of everything which makes sense - back home. To the homeless children, the less-fortunate ones and those staying far away from civilisation.

I'm getting pretty impatient.

I miss Farhad and Faisal already. The twins definitely do NOT get on my nerves since they're so cute and they insist on calling me Habibi. So cute, so adorable, I want to bite their cheeks off and never ever spit he remains out. Nyeeeeeeee.

Providing cute little children is not so hard after all. I was expecting the worst when I started helping out at the center. Even when they put on their most annoying behaviour seems tolerable for me.

Now, see, who said I had an attention span of a squirrel? And that I was not patient enough to see to children? Bollocks!

Oh Happy Days!

2008-08-19T08:09:00.000-07:00

Where has it all gone to?

Not to say that there aren't any happy days in a relationship but it gets pretty darn boring when he's in class all the time. And here I am as jobless as I've always been. People now deem me ketua kampung. Lol. I personally think it's funny but very offensive at the same time.

I also notice I've got a million drafts saved on my dashboard and I'm not ever going to publish any of the drafted posts because it's either about something silly/stupid or really philosophical and half done to the point I forgot what I was philosophically typing about. I am not about to make a fool out of myself anytime yet. Unless someone decides to hack into my Blogger account and find all my very "clever" drafts about breast augmentation, politics and corruption at the same time. Oops. You must be thinking I did a little poopsie, after all everyone thinks I'm a little she-bimbo with no brains, which is as they say, is worth nothing up there. And really, I don't mind because I know what my brains are worth. I'd also like the idea of someone paying me shitloads of money to just talk for hours about a single topic without stopping until they get so bored with me they'd rather give me money to stop dwindling about it.

I kid you not.

No wonder most of the people I know tell me I should be working in the Public Relations industry. Which is, of course, the road I'm not taking.

Today was spent with Hafiz for a few hours because he's flying to Vietnam tomorrow morning. And the fact that Ali had class until 4PM does no justice. Initially we were supposed to go get his baju melayu done at Sparkman Shop but they were closed and I read the signs all wrong and started swearing. It said Open on Monday, Wednesday - Friday 10AM - 730PM and somehow my brain was not functioning properly and thought they opened on weekdays every day without being able to fathom that Tuesday was not on the list. Oh woe is me. I'm sorry to whoever is in charge, I really did not mean to hope you go out of business.

Next agenda on the list was to have a proper loose/hangout session and he opted for Coffee Bean, but I was reluctant so he brought me to Delifrance instead. I love the French sodas and I've only had that sort since I've been there, thrice. Such a loser, I know. Making such a big fuss about a place I've only been to three times! Money talks, what. And I have none of the evil paper they call money nowadays. Such a sad, miserable life I lead. Suffice to say, I walked around in Japanese-army-style dirty brown apek shorts, a very quaint organic cotton T-shirt and ruffled, almost-coming-apart fuschia Birkenstock sandals, which mind you, are the most comfortable pair of slip-ons ever discovered (apart from the big hoo-ha about Crocs, I'm pussy enough to not try them on in case I get laughed at and the fact I find them hideous, so let's not make me a believer out of that). See? Nothing gets any better than a bum like me.

So there we were, in the midst of talking about everything until I got a text from someone at the workshop saying my car was all done. My heart skipped two beats faster, at least, and I was just going through the two puffs of my third stick of the day! I am amazed by how my body functions. I was especially happy that my car was done and ready to let me come pick it up. We left for the workshop and right there in front of my eyes (all the other cars were blurred out) was my lovely sweetheart. Got the keys from the front workplace where all the keys were hung out (he gave me these really ugly pair of Hilux car keys which I scorned at cause it was rotting only to find they were not MINE, cause I dont remember ever keeping my car keys in such bad condition) and skipped back into Hafiz's car to go pick my baby down the road. He left right after I stepped out of his car, very ungentleman-like, only to find myself sitting in a car with a flat battery with no fuel in it. I was fucking stranded and fucking pissed off by the time I got hold of Hafiz again and told him to immediately rush back to my aid.

See, the stupid thing was, I was not thinking straight. I was merely 10 feet away from a bloody workshop and to no avail never thought of the idea of them being able to get all that done for me. So he rushed back, this time very gentleman-like and waited with me while they got everything fixed, battery and fuel included. It took them at least about 45 minutes to get everything in tip-top condition again. And before I knew it, I was out cruising behind the wheels fit for a King! (If they prefer low-riders and mean pimped-like pickups, then, why not)
And to think, the last time I drove it was 4 months ago when the oil price was still at bay. RM50 of diesel only fills in a fucking less-than-half-tank! I remember just not so long ago when RM30 was half a tank on the meter. Now I understand the anguish from people who own cars. Because now I have to fork up my own allowance money to pay for that stupid car's tank. Uuuugh. The agony and horror. How I wish I got a Viva for my birthday instead.

But then again, if anyone is nice enough to give me a Bentley Continental GT or a Cadillac Escalade, I would never say no. That would be too much of a good offer to pass on.

AND I TAKE BACK ABOUT WHAT I SAID ABOUT THE VIVA FOR MY BIRTHDAY. I changed my mind. Because I want a pair of killer pumps from Prada, a brand new Gucci hobo and a white strapped Franck Muller Crazy Times. The whole concoction, please and thank you.

Aaaaaah, the dreams of a becoming 21-year-old in 3 months.

HA HA

2008-08-16T02:17:00.000-07:00

Right.

So she thinks she's all that plus a bag of chips.

(Hey, everyone likes a bag of chips every now and then)

If I deserved any of the things she said about me to my face, well, that now would be a different story because I would stand up to it with open arms. But going behind me saying everything which is not true? Yo, facts need to be ironed out as well.

I don't have a lot of anger pent up inside me since I can remember. Petty things have now rendered to not set my wick on fire anymore. Too bad she thinks otherwise.

Here I am typing this out, smiling without a doubt, laughing even to think of the initiatives she has set up to turn everyone against me. I bet my bottom dollar (or ringgit, for this matter) she's waiting for me to combust.

No, I shall not resort to violence or little shrieking because I wont stoop that low to any shit-shaped head's level. Only because I learn from my mistakes and I wont be afraid to admit it. Nor do I bitch or say anything bad about anyone anymore for I have learned the consequences and karma does turn back around, it kicks in the ass and I don't think I want to put up with having tantrums all the time the way I used to. It makes energy levels drop to an all-time record!

Who said being firm and a come-off-strong-attitude is rude can go to hell. I'd rather have all that than be a wimp, act all dainty or suck up to everybody until the only pose I have is of me smiling with too-straight teeth and a pout. Thank you very much, but no.

*shies in the corner* I think she knows who she is cause I bet just about now she's thinking of wrapping her tiny hands around my more-than-her-fingers-can-reach-neck and push down so hard she wishes I could die or for my brains to pop out! Teehee.

I don't think I would die THAT easily. Or at least wipe myself off the face of the Earth.

I can imagine Tony Montana in Scarface getting shot at the end with all the bullets "killing" him but does not die. So what if he died in the end. It took shitloads of bullets from that stupid machine gun to kill him anyway!

And that's EXACTLY how I feel right now.

I should wipe this silly grin off my face before I start thinking of the inevitable. Only cause I'm good at day-dreaming like that.

I could feel the adrenaline rushing through my veins watching Fracture. Ooh is Anthony Hopkins the best or the best? I shall give you no other choice. It's either the former or the latter! I loved him in Hannibal and I love him in any other movie I've ever seen him play. Even if he always played the philosophical, modern day Confucius with his cigars and cool hats villain, I never wanted any of his characters to be locked up in jail. Unfair, I know, but if O.J. can walk free then all his characters should walk free too!

I'm thinking of having a really nice weekend with more DVD-bunking in the arms of the loved one, probably a day out for swimming and sun-roasting too.

I'm sorry Aunty Bibi and family for not checking your recently opened place yet. But I'm sure my head WOULD POP OUT of nowhere as soon as I give you the good word. I miss their Chef's food! Lol. Until next, I bid everyone adieu (except for shit-shaped head girl who thinks she's mighty fine all the guys would swoon at me and my butterfly head, yeeeeeheee!) because I have to put up with her and I absolutely wish I could strike the magic wand, guffaw and make myself stupid so she'd think she's stupid-er than me. Hmph! Always talking about her rich friends yet have failed to show how chummy she really is with them otherwise they would pick her up in their fancy ago-go cars and go cruising!

Really.

The world and it's tremendous wonders. I hope God has something in store for me to be able to keep my sanity and put up with minor bullshit like this every single fucking day. Just you wait and see! *jumps and skips of in anticipation and excitement!*

FRED

2008-08-14T09:31:00.000-07:00

I love FRED!

I don't know why people think he's annoying. Nor do I think that other guy, Josh is cuter or funnier. I probably have the wit and humour of a 3-year old hence the sudden craze for FRED.

Season 2 of the angry 6-year old will be out soon. Oooooh cant wait.

Check his videos and official video page here.
My favourite episode was Fred Goes Swimming

"I love swimming, I love swimming, I LOVE SWIM-MING"

"This pool is big enough for me beccaaauseee ...... I don't ask for lots!"

Enjoy the short update and of course, check his official YouTube page. Such an awesome ickle fella!

P/S: I've been putting his videos on play since a week ago and I can hear his voice ringing in my head. I take whatever I said back on the first line of this post because he clearly is annoying and I can see why now. That does not mean I love him any less!

I Miss Teshie!

2008-08-02T11:11:00.000-07:00

2.11AM in the morning and here I am typing out how much I miss my baby sister. It's only been, what, 12 hours since she's been gone. I know, it's not like she's anywhere far, after all she is only in Brunei overnight but I miss her so!

Watched Hidalgo with Ali just now and I must admit, the movie was awesome. Pretty old, but awesome. Viggo Mortenson comes off gay to me but his characters show off how much of a hero he is. E.g: Lord Of The Rings. I still cringe whenever I watch the stupid 2, was it 3 hour "epic trilogy" movie. It was alright when Fellowship Of The Ring came out but after that it got annoying I pretty much fell asleep every time I attempted to feast my eyes on the movie made out from the books I love. Hidalgo gets a 5/5 star rating, even if that was the second time I watched the movie, only this time I watched it properly without leaving half way or getting distracted.

Before that after dins of Siamese Secrets takeaway, Ali did the cinnamon challenge and failed! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH.

I can still imagine the crooked look on his face.

And somehow I believe the look was telling me "You better run away quick before I snort all the contents in my mouth onto your bloody face"

Instead, I dropped on the floor and laughed so hard my tums started belching. I swear, cinnamon dust came out of his nose when he was trying to breathe. Classic, really coming from all the cinnamon challenges I've seen. I knew I should have recorded it! It was hilarious.

Okay, enough of whatever I was going on about. Time for me to hit the sack and TRY to wake up early so I can continue my long awaited days of jogging on the treadmill. My waist seems to have gotten back to it's original size and my whole body feels bloated, forgive the fact my period just ended.

Happy fun-filled weekend, people.

Love/Birthday Dedication

2008-08-01T09:42:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to Kalysa, my dearest cousin. And Shereena, my cute model-like-legs sister.

Both of them are respectively 20 and 14 this year, on the same day! How nice to remember both their birthdays at the same time, knowing how bad I can be with dates. And I hope everyone else whose birthdays I forgot may forgive me.

With a widespread series of pictures especially for my loved ones and what in the world I really think.

I miss the times you would act silly with me and pose silly with the camera in hand chasing me around to camwhore with you :(

I miss the times we would soak in the sun rays just to get that little bit of tan for prom knowing it would rain in about half an hour

I miss the times I would be able to kiss you on the cheeks the way Rob does everyday now!

And most of all I miss how I would talk to you as if I were looking into a mirror, reflecting my own image and thinking to myself how remotely alike we look

I miss all the little things we do together as a family. I miss the late night chats we used to have bunked in my old crappy bed. I miss telling you every single thing in detail and listening to you squeal on the spill. I miss having you right next to me so I know everything will be okay. I miss having you to carry me when I fainted after piercing my belly. I miss how you're always so protective over me even if I am older than you but you know you had the brawn to do it. I miss the little snorts you give out when you laugh too much even if you do it unconsciously. I miss you slapping me on the arm and leaving me bruises. All in all, I just miss you terribly. I dont even know how it came to be not seeing you for over two years. But I dont think I'd worry much about it because we're always making amends. Sometimes I get so scared not recognizing you, but then knowing I'd walk into a life-size mirror takes the fear away. I still have all those pictures we took stuck on my vanity mirror and it's there to stay.

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY KALYSA HADIAN.

I LOVE YOU.

P/S: I know I stole these pictures of your Facebook and you will forgive me either way. But I dont see why Rob has to be in every single good one! Haha. Robby Rob, you know we love you. But you have to stop interframing Kaly's good shots! All the other ones of Kaly going solo are silly looking with her nostrils either enflamed or engorged.

The Don's Back!

2008-07-20T10:29:00.000-07:00

Oh yay! Ali's back from KL and his classes will be starting soon. I can have him AAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLL to myself now. Lol.

He came back on Friday at 3:15PM but then had to rush back to KL via the 6:15PM flight which was delayed to 7:30PM because his maternal grandfather passed away. I feel sorry for him, and his family too. I hope his Atok rests in peace and may Allah bless his soul in Heaven.

So now, he's back in good old Miri and back to the old times of spending endless, quality, nothing-to-it time together. (Until his classes commence, that is) I'm pretty content for the time being. Been helping Mum out with the house chores and I have to wash/iron my own clothes for the time being until Mum gets new maids. Oh I cannot wait. Call me a spoiled brat like that but we've always been used to having a little too much "help" in the house. Since most of our previous maids have complained about our house being too big for their liking, we had to send all of them back. Heh! I wonder how some of them stayed on with us for such a long time. I don't see what there is to complain about since they have their own privacy of a Maids' Quarters at the back of our house, we provide them with food (extra as well) and we even take them out shopping (well, me, anyway). So how? Even that, they feel the urge to have to run away and complain about us beating them (which we never have!) and we never even gave them verbal abuse either. Our last two maids, the first one which lasted for a year managed to coax the second one which we've had for about a month to run away. I was even so gullible as to bring the first one out to buy her gold! And then, someone told me the only reason maids buy gold is because they want to leave or go home. What the fuck. If I knew earlier on, I would NOT have let Mum give her the remaining balance of her pay to get the stupid gold. At least I know she spent more than she could afford and I bet my bottom dollar she has no money right now, serves her right. Their passports are still in Mum's cabinet drawer. Lol. Now they're really illegal immigrants! Which I'm sure does not make a difference because there's always ways for them to get new passports done, change their name and identities and use this jalan tikus to run away from cops. Cunning!

On a lighter note, I have to blurt out how much I love my new Baby Pink Nintendo DS Lite! I've been wanting one for ages and finally today me and Ali went to get it. Thank you, baby ;) (even if I did pay more than half!) Haha. He always gets like that, telling me not to spend my money on gadgets and getting me to spend more on clothes or makeup, since he knows how much I have an ultimate passion for both. Come to think of it, I've managed to get my hands on 3 gadgets within 3 months! The Sony Ericsson W960i which I got early June, the iPod Touch which I got from Mama end of June and the NDSL which I got today. No woes! I dont know which gadget I might want next but then I'm not so tech-like so I dont think I've got much to complain about. All 3 gadgets seem to be touch screen, coincidently! I swear I had nothing to do with it. But then again, everything seems to be touch screen, even the last air-walker machine I was on was touch screen and I got a bit pissed off because the buttons were not functioning right and the alignment was off. So much for expensive exercise/workout machines.

I've been downloading all sort of different ROMs for my NDSL and I havent gotten a chance to play them properly yet because I get distracted by the new games I see online. Damn these advertisements! The 2GB I've got on the memory stick seems to be shrinking and I dont think I've got anymore space to put anything else in. I need a new memory card because I wont have the heart to delete any of the games I've saved on it already even if I know for a fact that they're all stuck and crammed into the hard drive! Aaaaaah.

I cant wait to get myself enrolled in makeup school. I need to do something, and QUICK.

DAMNIT!

2008-07-07T08:46:00.000-07:00

Facebook is being a SOB site.

Maybe it's because of all the applications and advertisements on it.

Even Friendster takes less time to load.

And I remember people complaining about Friendster being over-rated.

Big fat HAHAHAHAHA.

I'm sure the people on Friendster are laughing at the Facebook-ers.

God damn, even logging into Facebook takes an awfully long time. Or maybe my browser is playing silly, cruel jokes on me. It's not funny.

And I cannot stand all the friend requests I've had. My Mac does not like Facebook for me to either deny or accept the requests whenever I click on the requests link, Firefox shuts down. Annnnddd, the other application requests are damn annoying!

Can I sue Facebook?

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Okay, so I managed to login to Facebook but it's still running really slow I can smoke a whole cigarette while waiting for the Home page to load.

Lol. Not that I smoke very fast, see. I like to indulge. Especially when it comes to vices.

I love how my bed is repositioned in my room and I feel a better aura surrounding me, even if I now sleep next to the windows. I love how the sun shines on my face when I wake up. I can sleep in a hammock all night directly under the stars to wake up in the AM by the sun rising on my face. Aaaaaaaaah. Heaven on Earth at it's best, see! And I dont think it'll take shitloads of $$$ to build one anyway. The ones at Marriott are so cozy even if it's just made out of plain canvas and rope. The one we have at the house was so useless and we had to pay shitloads for it from British India, what a waste! The hammock part is all gone and the stand is completely bare standing against the wall next to Mum's orchid bicycle - I'm sure, for what it's worth, she'll come up with some brilliant plan to dangle her orchids on the hammock stand if she decides never to get a hammock again.

I was thinking of also painting my room a different colour when I get the time to do it. I was opting for red but then my lamps have green stained glass on them so my second choice would have to be turquoise and gold, after that thinking of recolouring the woodware in my room a darker shade of brown instead of the pale brown I have now, it's sickly.

I hate my checked Roman-blinds and it's disgusting now cause it's faded awfully. I guess I'll have to get new curtains as well and I was hoping for transparent, turquoise ones which will brighten my room up nicely! Dont worry, they wont be fully transparent, I'll make sure I get extra lining as well. I also have a whole wall to paint whatever I want on since my bed is not stuck there anymore. I cant stand how I spend so much time in my room yet have no interest whatsoever in cleaning or sprucing it up. I dont think I've been one for the routine chores but since our maids ran away, I suppose it's a must.

People get pretty shocked when I tell them I'm putting my clothes in the washing machine or if I iron them. Hahahah. I suck at it anyway you hear complaints all the time, it's necessary. I hope my Mum gets new maids soon, at least I dont have to clean my bathroom on my own.

But who am I to complain? Life's been good as of late.

I cant seem to think of anything else to type. So I'll just end it here. Trying to maintain the blog and update whenever I can. This is today's dose!

Until next post, dear readers, I hope you have a fantastic week ahead!

A Post For Oman

2008-07-04T05:13:00.000-07:00

The most disgusting picture I could get my hands on!

And still, a post for the one I find close to my heart.

I still have no idea how his nickname came to be.

His real name is so easy to pronounce. See, even I can say it - Suhail Ezzat Ameen Al-Busaidy (no, Oman, I have not forgotten how your name sounds or spells like).

I can't wait to see him end of this month and I'm sure he'll be just as excited to see me as well. It's been ages since we last talked about absolutely nothing.

Let me reminisce. I met him one and a half years ago at the old, lame Curtin football field. I remember people telling me what an asshole he was. I remember people referring to him as Blondie because of his gold-dyed hair. And how it used to sparkle so ugly in the sun it turned out a rusty shit-yellow colour instead. He came up to talk to me being the so-called socialite that he was, chatting strangers up (especially the girls) and how the guys would call him gatal because of that. I never saw it that way ever since the first time I talked to him about football. I knew he knew his stuff and I knew he had limits on trying to woo any chick or getting into their pants (everyone has this general misconception that Arabs only want to get into a girl's pants when they chat them up) I still beg to differ even if most of the time, it's true. And the reason of me thinking that way is because I've been friends with Oman. That tiny retrospect of misled ideas makes me believe that Arabs are truly, unbelievably nice people.

Although I never really liked any of his other friends, he was always special to me. I still hold him dear to my heart, even if he never told me that he was going to leave Miri for good. I would still like to believe that the only reason he never told me was because he did not want to hurt me seeing a brother go right after we've managed to maintain our friendship for so long.

I know we've had our ups and downs. I'm sure he felt torn after my last relationship blew up in flames. Him being both our friends and the place he bunked daily was next door to the ex's. But he never failed to let it go to show that he would always stand tall beside me (HAHAHAH he's short, mind you) figuratively speaking. And that he was going to support me no matter what I do or say. He was always doing things to amaze me like come all the way from Senadin to my house in the middle of the night just for 20 minutes to see if I was alright and then going all the way back by bus or cab (if there was any available) and I disappoint myself by being such a bad friend whenever he needed to talk to me about his problems, I would neglect him and concentrate more on myself when I know that he was the only one who was still sincere.

I remember my second bus ride with him when we finished class cause he needed to get money out all the way at HSBC (I told you setting up an account there would be a hassle). I fell asleep on the bus ride and when I woke up, I remember his jacket wrapped around me because he said I was shivering from the cold. I remember all those nights we would just sit outside his Village balcony and smoke non-stop without saying a word to each other, except for the occasional snorting and "Yo Bodoh, why you quiet!". I also remember sneaking out to his place cause I had a fight with the ex and I walked all the way to his place, he greeted me with a big hug and me, being proportionately strong in front of other people, tried to keep my head in one piece and act as if everything was alright. He knew though and we did not even have to talk about it because he knew I would be uncomfortable if I did. He just changed his bedsheets, pillow case and lay out a new comforter for me to laze around in while he laid on the other bed while we watched The Simpsons and Kill Bill over and over again.

I miss the times of meeting him up at Coffee Bean just because he felt like buying me a drink. I'd insist on paying but he would just push me out of his way and tell me to "Fuck off". I also remember the time we met Airul and he told me that Airul was interested in him. Lol. Me and Airul still talk about it until today. And to think I did not know him at the time makes it more hilarious to put into words.

Then there was Oman's father, who came to Miri to visit Oman and I had to bring him out to the PBC where they had their dosage of beers, to the Grand Old Lady just to watch the sunset and for din-dins at the Seafood place all the way the other end of Miri for yet another one of their dosages. He was such a sweet old man. He even made Oman give me that bottle of Givenchy perfume which I was eying for when he went back to Oman via KL. His next trip consisted of me meeting them up nearby Imperial for dins and I remember him telling one of his friends how I was a daughter to him. I brought him to see my parents and they loved him. Lol.

My Mum still talks about Oman and says that he's the best boy-friend I've had since forever. And she never minds him coming over to the house cause she knows I'd be safe with him (Okay, now, I can say, apart from Ali). I still dont know how my boyfriend got to be alright with our friendship because he had a row with one of Oman's friends way back and they seem all tight now, it's weird. A good thing, though because Ali tends to hold grudges against most of the people he has rows with.

Oman, if you're reading this, I want you to know what an amazing friend you've been.

Otherwise you think I'd really dedicate one stupid post about you, Bodoh?

Sometimes you don't even deserve it cause you insult me like I'm not already the worst person you've met!

And then when I think again about all the times you've been there for me and paying for just about anything cause you wanted me to spend all my money on my phone credit and shopping for clothes, I thank you.

I still owe you. And you know it.

I love you, OMAN! You're the bestest wanna-be-bitch-friend a girl like me can have.

And you know our friendship wont go down in the ruins because we're Steph & Oman like that.

Not just the Paris Hilton and her puppy, see.
(I still think that was an insult, but I've forgiven her sincerely with all my heart)

No matter how far you are, all the way from this end of the world, you know I still think you're lovely. No matter how many measly times you drive me up the wall with your annoyingness, Old Man, you're always the one I try to bug when I'm bored (no, not in terms whatsoever with a scapegoat). And no matter how many times you call me a bodoh Bimbo, you never fail to make me smile, at least once a day with your childishness and stupendour.

My friend, the very hideous looking Omani, Oman, I wish you all the riches, beauty and love in the world. Only because I know you deserve that much!

The Smallest and Biggest Things in Life I Adore

2008-07-01T20:45:00.000-07:00

I just realized how I dont put much effort listing down all the things I love in life, so here's a tribute for all things lovely I can think of!

The sun - Oh no one knows how much I love the sun! If anyone has known me well enough, they would know how much I hate being in the dark and how I do not like to be confined in a little space without enough light. I can only imagine sitting in a maximum security cell, I even watched Prison Break, where Lincoln Burrows was confined in that medium and I felt sick, almost claustrophobic by just watching it I almost cried!
Beaches! - Hence the nickname Beach Bum. I know I hardly take pictures enough to show how much I love the beach but that does not mean that I cant bum around on a beach enough to show everyone how much I love beaches. Confused yet? Cause I am!
Makeup - Of all heavenly things created, I love makeup the most! I can play around with makeup on my face all day long without budging in front of a mirror. I love makeup so much it's impossible for anyone to love anything else. People also tell me I look different without makeup on and I dont care, my parents tell me I put too much "war paint" on and I still dont care. I have not been wearing any makeup since last week when my eyes got infected but hey, there's always time ahead.
My family - I love my Ampa (God bless his soul), I love my Mummy & Daddy, I love my Mama, I love my Big Nenek & Small Nenek, I love my 5 sisters, I love my aunties and my uncles and I love my cousins! Have I said enough I love(s) yet?
The Don - I love Ali! What more can I say? I love him like how the sun rises everyday (even if I'm not awake most of the time to see the sun rise) but just in comparison to know how much I love him the way the sun rises everyday makes it utterly routine and without it, it feels like nothing. Can you imagine a day without the sun? Peh!
The colour turquoise - I've always been such a big fan of the shade ever since I can remember how to pronounce it! It always sounded very cool and uncheesy compared to colours like pink (see, even saying it sounds corny!) I try to buy almost everything in turquoise and I never get bored of it. People tell me I wear too much of green. But green is not turquoise at all! As Stesha would put it "Turquoise is a shade of blue and green at the same time" so how on earth can it be only green?!
Sunglasses - I love how it protects my eyes from the sun (my eyes can get pretty sensitive, see so dont you think I can have at least this one on my list of loves?) and I also love how the right pair of shades can make you look so good. They dont necessarily have to be THAT expensive, but hey what would I know. The only pair I've kept for such a long time would have to be my piece of Marc Jacobs aviators which I've had since last year.
MY IPOD - a current love I've had for about 2 days now. Haha. Does that not count? I hated the Classic nor do I like the Shuffle. So, uuh, miserably made! I am in love with the Touch and Ali says it's my new boyfriend cause I spend more time on it than I do with him on the phone.
My Sony Ericsson W960i - I've had the phone for 2 months now and I absolutely adore it. It's so easy to use and I remember how it was like when I had to go down to the phone shop every day just to satisfy my hunger of holding it even if it was the store's display phone. Haha. Now I finally gotten my hands on it, I can hardly keep my hands off! I also remember how I used to nag endlessly about my last phone which was such a hassle to use and I would even not reply any incoming messages because I could not be bothered to scroll type the text one by one. Oh my GOD!
Handbags - Such a convenient creation! For ladies (and men nowadays) to throw their stuff in for the sake of being such animals, I admit I am guilty of the crime. As much as I love my handbags, I never bother to actually clean it on the inside as much as I know I should. Neither do I clean the outside, so I shall admit guilty to both crimes. I love how my handbag matches everything I just slap on be it coincidence or not.
Shopping! - Tell me who can resist retail therapy? No one can, not even the odd bloke down the road who walks down the street without his slippers on (if he had the money to do it) I would wake up in the weeeeee mornings just to show my parents how excited I am about going into a mall and walking out ............. 10 hours from the waking up time and see my hands filled with shopping bags. Oooooh the feeling beats nothing else in the world (okay, so I'm lying, the only feeling which beats going shopping is if you're broke without a single cent in your wallet/purse/bag/pockets - I normally dont use my pockets in case I get pick-pocketed)
Friends - And I mean the genuine ones who stay there forever in your mind and heart! Not the ones who come and go as they please because really, who has time for that? Life's too short to be committed to a bunch of worthless people who have no use whatsoever for you. And of course, the companionship always brings you one step higher when you're just out having a smoke (or not having a smoke), sipping on lattes and gobbling down chocolate cake (at least you know you're not going to go down as a fatty on your own) because they always have your backs no matter the time or place.
Foes - You gotta love them, I always say. They try so hard to bring you down yet they never succeed and that's what brings you forward into life. You learn more from your mistakes they pinpoint (THAT and because they look at your every move from a distance, as much as they hate you, they want to envy you as well!) The enemies you make distance your very own being in every single way possible, if they're bad people, you just have to thank God that they hate you, if they're nice people, then hey, they're the ones who are missing out on something great, anyway!
Showers - Right after I wake up I have to take a shower straight away otherwise I wont be complete or I'd just lie down in bed and doze off to sleep again. I love warm showers and cold ones too. I love how showers can be so refreshing whenever you need to cool off. I take 3 showers a day daily and more if I can whenever possible.
Toothpaste - How can anyone not love toothpaste? Every time after I smoke, I try to brush my teeth when I can. Haha. Such an ironic habit, I know. Toothpaste is so sweet and I know how my parents keep telling me to cut down on sweets and they would hide the stash away, I would just walk up to my room and put toothpaste in my mouth and spit it out once I'm done. Lol. Excess fluoride!
Contact lens - I love wearing clear coloured contact lens! You cant imagine how much. Although I'm prohibited from wearing contact lens now because of my eye condition, I will definitely go back to wearing contact lens the second Dr Azhar gives me the green light. I hate wearing spectacles because they always slide off my face whenever I work up a sweat.
Perfume - Yes, scents are amazing. I've got a variety of perfume and bottles which I've kept since I was 12. I always put an extra bottle of perfume in the bag I'm carrying in case I need a little spritz for when I feel like I stink.
Dunhill Menthol - I'm so hooked on these things it's impossible to quit now. I've had different sort of cigarettes ever since I can recall and Dunhill Menthol is the only I've sticked to for a long period of time. When I'm abroad I like the Menthol Fine Cuts and Dunhill Luxe. So bearably addictive. I've got my vices and people around me put up with it so I dont mind though I dont smoke around people who clearly hates the smell of smoke
Animals - I love animals! Any animal. I'd sleep in the zoo with the tigers and lions if I could. One of the dreams I've always had was to keep a tiger and have a whole reserve for animals of all shapes and sizes. I've never favoured the idea of being a vet or a zoologist though because I think other people would do the job better than I can, as much as I love animals
The Internet - Okay, not as much as I love a whole bunch of things, but I suppose the internet has to be the best source for anything to read! I wont go amiss at home without going on the internet to check my mails, and of course type this out. But I wont miss it if I ever went to a place without an internet connection. Let's just say it's one of the good things in life I wont really mind not having
Swimming pools - I love the water and how pools are just big enough to fit a hundred people in (though it would be a tad bit crowded) I dont think I would even mind. Unlike going to a shopping mall all crowded and rowdy the oxygen content gets lower as well. But when you're in a pool with a hundred people it wont even matter because there's enough air circulation and oxygen to go around to please everyone!
Tearing up when it's that time of month - I dont know why, but I love getting my period. It's the only time of month where I have an excuse to shout and be moody to just about anyone and usually The Don gets the back side of it all. Hahaha. I love how I can just cry my eyes out as if being happy was not the best thing on Earth. Don't worry, my periods are never painful, just bearable. I know how other people whine and complain about getting PMSes and periods but I dont mind at all! See, I AM a happy child!
Music - I love music, who doesnt? (Okaaaaay, my dad hates music, he doesnt mind it if it's there but if he's driving he's always the one in charge of the volume and most of the time he mutes it) I love how music can make you feel all sorts of things at one time. And I love listening to the lyrics in a song just to understand what the singer is singing about and feel the way he/she feels about singing it
Cars, cars, cars! Hahahah. My guy friends always tell me that I know more about cars than they do. Maybe not Ali though because we love cars the equal same way! None of my ex boyfriends were such car fanatics and I recall how I could talk about cars nonstop and they would have to put a halt to it because they say it gets boring. I never feel that way with Ali because we can talk about one car for 3 hours and talk about the next car for another 3 hours. See how enjoyable our relationship is? Lol. It's always either about cars, football or any other guy thing down the road. Although I pitch in my fashion/makeup/clothes talk in and he doesnt mind either, I know he does it only because he knows it makes me all jittery and hippy-like.
Mother Nature - Who doesnt like staring at a blank canvas of anything nature-y, tell me and I shall cut your arms off! Unless you're goth or the really dark, mysterious kind who likes to stare at bands like Kiss or Marilyn Manson then I forgive you wholeheartedly.
Smooches - Because they're the first best thing next to hugs. You can always hug just about anyone but you cant smooch just anyone, you're always limited to save your kisses just for one person! And no, I dont like to greet people with hugs and kisses because I like my comfort zone and my Mum taught me great lessons on sticking to my roots where some parts of life are not meant to be Westernized. I only hug and air-kiss cheeks when I meet family members, even then the first gesture I do is to kiss their hands first if their older than me! I find it more appropriate like that.
Lazing around - On a couch, on the carpet, on a large pillow. You name it. I can laze around just about anywhere because it feels mighty good to not be doing anything else but lie about.

I suppose I've listed most of the things that I love and everything above is not in alphabetical order! Priority is never given in my case. Who needs priority when you have a whole bunch of things to love at one time!

Oh, life is beautiful. I feel good things coming my way hence the lovely lovey dovey post. Lol. I hope everyone else feels as happy as I do now!

Until next.

Small, small world, the wonders and disasters.

2008-06-30T07:09:00.000-07:00

YES! I just read the news.

I overheard my Mum and Dad talking about it on the living room couch and to think something of the like can even happen. Well, it should be normal this time around after the elections and release of Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim, right? Correct me if I'm wrong, after all, he did make those statements. He even publicly showed himself up for a CNN interview where the allegations were made worldwide. I have respect for the leaders of my country, namely the government itself and also the de facto, mind you. I may not be political-minded nor would I ever participate in politics because it would be too much intellect and dishonesty at the same time, generally speaking. I dont know how I would be able to live with myself from all the brain-racking or decision-making politics would have to offer.

The impossible thing is that I actually knew the guy! I went to motivational camp with him back when I was in Form 4 in Port Dickson. Yes, the accuser, Saiful Bukhari, was a fellow camp-mate of mine. I was shocked to see his face plastered all over the place the moment I opened Google News up. The horror! I did not want to believe it was him when I first saw his pictures but more pictures of him, his wife and his sister came up and I had to believe otherwise.

Regardless of what the press or anyone else has to say about him, I would still like to think of him as the sweet, caring older brother everyone had at camp. He was always the one leading us doing all the tasks and giving us moral support - the camp was grueling! Dr Muruga can be quite a handful if anyone comes about his ways. I remember my sisters giving up before it even started because Dr Muruga was so strict and we had to be everywhere on time, on the dot, not even one second short. Saiful was also always the one who pushed us into doing everything correct and when we made mistakes he would just smile and tell us that it was alright and he would take the blame for most of the mistakes we did! I remember one night when all of us went out to the beach after dinner and chilled, talked unprofessionally without formalities about our lives and come to think of it, he was always the one who said nothing about himself. I suppose he just liked to keep to himself rather than blurting everything out in front of a bunch of strangers. His sister, Saidati was a wonderful girl as well as she was beautiful on the outside. She was assigned as my room mate and at night when both of us couldn't sleep she would talk endlessly about her life, the expectations her brother would put upon her and the boundaries she was entitled to. I even remember the smell of her perfume because the only reason I bought it after the motivational camp was because of her!

After the whole motivational thing was over, we still kept in contact. Unfortunately now, I have no idea what the both of them are doing, despite what the tabloids say.

I have no say in the whole sodomy matter as I would like to think of myself as someone who respects him and his family. A bit biased, I know, but then again, no one really knows what happened and investigations are still running.

Until then, I wish Saiful and his family the best in all their future undertakings. I hope the matter will be at rest to avoid controversies going throughout the whole of Malaysia. People all over the world are starting to look down on the country and I still believe Malaysia is a potential country to live in unlike third world countries bordering around us. Being a potential money-making country definitely has it's flaws and this sort of thing comes along with it whether anyone likes it or not. There are bound to be shit happening and this is just one of those things.

The reason this post being here is to reminisce on the people you've met throughout your life and some who you would remember forever like having their pictures etched at the back of your skull, and some, well, some you just want to forget about.

Nisa/Hazwan/Kaly - If you're reading this, I'm sure all of you still remember him cause I did the moment I saw his pictures plastered everywhere on the Internet. Such a small world.

I LIED!

2008-06-30T00:11:00.000-07:00

Remember when I said I would lay off on the iPods in my past post about Apple VS Microsoft?

I failed and miserably at that.

I am now a proud owner of an iPod Touch.

It was just too good to resist.

HAHAHA.

Thank goodness I cut my nails off otherwise there would be no way I would be able to use the iTouch with such simplicity.

Speaking of iPods, my old 30GB one (which was with Aisha/Nisa/Hazel) for a pretty long time since 2007 has been passed on down to The Don. Haha. So much for getting him an iShuffle for his birthday present, hmph.

I've never had any other MP3 player besides the iPod. If I cant have an iPod, I dont want to have anything else. I'd rather just listen to music on my bummed out iBook with my Altecs inserted. I remember my first pink iPod mini which I lost (rather, someone else lost while they were out swimming at Marriott) and if only I could get my hands back on that one! It was so cute and I would still say yes to the digital monotone screen.

I'm not complaining though because the iTouch has done wonders for me for the past, uuh, 12 hours or so. I can even surf the net! And no, please dont tell me to jailbreak my iTouch because I do not want to. Thank you very much. I'd be too busy on my phone at the same time anyway. No wonder people get iPhones! HAHAHAH.

What a lousy hypocrite.

I still believe Apple products suck the life out of you by the way! So friggin expensive yet tempting at the same time.

If anyone wants my opinion on getting the iTouch, go ahead and do it! Dont if you have only one computer which runs on Windows XP SP1 or a less-than-10.4-Panther platform because it obviously will not work. I'm still stuck on Panther and I'm downloading the Tiger Retail CD via torrent. So bad, so bad! To sum it all up, BUY THE IPOD TOUCH if you have a Windows Vista and Tiger/Leopard operating system!

HAH!

2008-06-28T09:23:00.000-07:00

So much for self-repention. I've not done shit to ruin anyone's lives in eons and I think it's about time for me to actually come up with something which I definitely have up my sleeve. I have to live up to expectations as well, right? Instead of just being a nice person who tends to keep quiet when she has nothing nice to say (it's on the inside with the whispers from the Devil which needs to be heard, see!)

HAHAHAH.

Being an evil bitch, or so they always say, I prefer the term "chick-always-getting-her-way".

And everyone knows how I never accept the word NO as in it has never ever existed in my dictionary.

Just you wait and see ;)

I'll be the last one laughing and last one standing. I'm sorry it's hard for me to shed unnecessary tears when it comes to so-called outsiders who has no idea what my life is about. I suppose all those years being a spoiled brat has turned me stone cold inside and out especially towards a certain someone who thinks she knows everything about me, yet fails to know the truth.

After all, I always get my way, anyway!

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TEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Okay all of the above was typed out 2 hours ago and I saved it in my draft cause I needed to loo so bad but here I am, back again. How ironic is it that I feel so mellow and calmed down after only 2 bloody hours?

I dont think I would like to reveal who it was I was referring to because I suppose her dignity is still at stake and if she calls herself meat, I politely decline. Didnt I say so much for self-repention? Pah! Always making hasty remarks about everything, isnt it? I'd like to stick to self-repention people so bear with me. Everything else after the paragraph is absolutely 100% true though I would like to see myself improving over the next few years.

I dont think it's a problem for anyone to NOT have education because I, for once, have never looked down on someone without education so I dont really mind myself being education-less for the next 5 years or so. It would be nice to live life the hard way and learn from mistakes. People tell me I'm street smart anyway, that way theories and books have no adverse effects on me whatsoever. I used to get mad when they would say that, but then think again, (note generalization) that street smart makes it all the way to the top of the world. Anyone else here crazy about The Apprentice as much as I am? HAHA. Is it just me, or are the ones who are street smart always end up being better entrepreneurs then the ones who are stuck on theories? Street smarts also end up NOT getting the job from Sir Trump himself, but hey, who needs Trump when you're on your way to becoming your own bloody billionaire? Aww, shucks, Trump sold out too much of his secrets on the show backstage. Now the street smarts will be taking over the world!I can even get married to a super-duper rich man and no one would mind me being education-less at all. HAH! How about that? As long as money pays, that's what keeps people happy.

When I was young, everything was about how big anyone else's playhouse would be. That's exactly how everything is now at 21. Only the playhouses dont exist anymore and other things take place, like how much better my gadget(s) are than yours, and how much $$$ I have in my bank account in order for me to get better cars and a bigger house than you. I was even surprised when my youngest sister was telling me how "My friends would all be so jealous of my new Nintendo DS Lite!" And she hasnt even got it yet :O See what I mean? The world is blooming into a bigger portion, in what way, I cant be so sure. Good or bad thing? You tell me.

I can be pretty competitive if I want to, but I suppose it subjects to what I like to be competitive about. I've never been competitive with my classmates over who gets Number 1 in class every term, even if I should have been. But it never bothered me. I'm told that if I do all the other things I do with such passion, I would succeed in my studies. But why have I never bothered?

A fellow friend's Mum of mine was telling me that if I really do not like the idea of studying then I should not do it nor should I let my parents force me into doing it. She even advised me that there are so many other things a person who is not interested in studying can do! Like all the fun I would have at the same time having the passion for it. It differs from someone else who is forced into doing it and wants to do it on their own will. She has been, after all, the best advice master I have known. And I trust her whole heartedly! Not that anyone else does not support what I plan to do, but I suppose she saw me grow up throughout the years and knows what I'm like hence saying all the things she said to me while meaning it without flinching and feeling uncomfortable telling me that I dont need the education to succeed and climb the ladder in life, yet I scorn thinking what kind of woman does that to anyone else's child! And then I think otherwise because her children are just like me, all interested in everything else concerning the fashion industry and never having the interest for exam-based education (This comes to a sensitive topic another one of my fellow friend's Daddy dearest told me right after I finished SPM and he said that "Having a degree nowadays is like having a roll of toilet paper. You go for an interview right after you graduate and no one wants you! It's either cause they think you bought the degree off or they dont think you're good enough to be working for them - and to think they only sell Scotts Tissue Paper!). She even calls me her very own Kimora Lee Simmons. Bless her soul!

I would not like to read the above paragraph in fear that I'll just have to bite back on my own tongue.

Just a piece of my mind, scattered, I know. Piece of mind, nonetheless.

For Sale!

2008-06-26T05:00:00.000-07:00

I have so many things to get my hands off and I've decided to hold a boot sale (well, considering the fact that I'll be holding it at home does not justify the term) but I'm still looking for a date to set and I dont know when, yet. I'll probably wait until Ali comes back so I have more help and he can do the dirty work while I sit and watch him do it. Haha.

I'd also like to see the response of my readers and just for a sneak preview, I currently have :-

Clothes, clothes, clothes in all shapes and sizes! (I have so many unused clothes with labels still on it and I have yet to remove them. I sort of bought them without thinking, the way I always do so I'll be looking forward to handing them to someone else!)
Bags - in general! Handbags, backpacks, sling bags, you name it, all for a reasonable price
Shoes - slippers, flip flops, sandals, sneakers (sizes vary though since some are really old and the last time I remember I was a size 7, all the other shoes are of that size as well)
Jewelery - Greek, Egyptian, Beach inspired jewelery which might as well just blow your heads off. A wide bevy of earrings, bracelets and necklaces.
Trinkets - so many to choose from. I have this wide variety of collectables which consists of minis from scented candles to porcelain pets

Exclusive deals!

A 7 month old Nokia 7380 going for RM1900 inclusive of the metal box it came in, earphones, charger and PC Suite - the phone is a luxury to even don on the outside, definite stares from everyone, some might even ask you if you're talking into an MP3 player
Nokia N95 1GB going for RM1200 inclusive of box, charger, earphones, cable and PC Suite - in mint condition, pretty old since it's the first batch of N95 going around since 2007.

The exclusive deals are COD only and I dont think I would like to entertain people who come up and ask for installment paying. Sounds harsh, I know but I suppose I've had too much an experience of the sort and they start owing money, when you catch them down the street - they flee with so much guilt. Prices for the two sets of phones are definitely negotiable though I would appreciate it if no one haggles it off for half the price. Otherwise, say bye bye and you can run off.

Whoever is interested can give me a holler and I'll make sure the whole boot sale thing happens. If no one responds, then hey, I might as well dump everything in a charity box and feel the love of generosity from the homeless.

Anyone else interested in joining ventures? If you have used/unused stuff to sell, most preferably the stuff you hide behind your closet and never notice there until you decide to wake up one morning and pull these strings of things out, then refer below!

RSVP in advanced via 0128059994 (Stephanie)

Damn these eyes

2008-06-25T03:24:00.000-07:00

I hate it when I get eye infections every bloody year.

I got it this year, I got it last year and I got it the year before last.

My eyes have been bloodshot for almost a week now!

Went to the hospital this morning and they dont have any eye specialists around at all. What the fuck? So the receptionist sent me to the GP - I wanted the bloody Ophthalmologist can or not? Aah! Well too bad they tell me "Beause he will not be around until Saturday and Sunday and he comes back every weekend from 8.30AM-1PM." I snorted my mints down my throat and asked them what on earth for. And they told me to read the bloody board next to the waiting station and I screened down on the Visiting Specialists side. The horror of it all! I asked her again where I could find an eye specialist outside and they wanted to refer me to the General Hospital.

?????????????????

No effin' way was I going to drive all the way on that side of the world. People always complain about how harga minyak naik so yes, count me in this time around. I had RM150 in my pockets specifically for the treatment and there was no way I was going to fill in more than half of the money for a full tank (I drove back home with an empty tank yes) so I went in and took a number to see the GP.

Guess what she told me? She confirmed it was Conjunctivitis or better known as pink-eye and I was not allowed to wear contact lens for at least 2 weeks until the redness subsided. Ooooooh, I was exhilarated out of my fucking wit's end. Hahaha. I've been wearing lens for 6 years of my life and I was shocked I even looked at her funny she thought I was mocking her. Well I wasnt. She told me it was contagious and I should not rub my eyes and touch people with it. I honestly thought touch them with what, my eyes?

Hahahahahahahah.

Now why would I do that. Only cats rub people with their eyes but they are too short to reach your eyes to make it contagious. Unless they rub on your feet and you touch your eyes with your feet like those twisting acrobats? I suppose not.

So dear gentle readers, please dont come near me or I shall rub my eyes on your eyes and you can feel the wrath of my pink eye (or pink eye(s) cause both eyes are infected)

Thank goodness for the eye drops which I have to apply 3 times a day and ointment (which I'm sure will hurt like hell when I go to sleep at night) cause it definitely makes it feel better, FEEL not look. I still think I look so utterly disgusting and unattractive with red dollops for eyes - I honestly thought I would have gone blind if I didnt visit the doctor.

So speccy and geeky looking with my stupid purple Dior glasses - I know I should have chosen a darker colour! I should have known this sort of thing would have come up! Damn astigmatism why cant I wear normal shaped lens like other people. All my Mum's fault for having such disproportioned shaped eyes!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Dr Nik, seriously, if the eye drops and ointment does not work I shall kill myself. HAHAHAH. Do you take suicide calls, too? :D If the pink eye does not go away by Friday I am so seeing your "Visiting Specialist" and I shall pour my heart out to him!

Thank you for reading anyway, even if I exaggerated throughout most of the parts.

To everyone else on the message board:-
Iris - I miss you too darling! Ali's in KL now and he should be working. HAHAHA. While I be a lazy bum here goyang kaki. Makeup school in October baby!
Rachel - Happy holidays to you too! Balik Brunei or not? If so come down to Miri and we can meet up! (Wait for my eyes to recover first ok)
Izzah - We will definitely have a better New Year's this year, I promise I wont run off before the countdown started though the countdown that night started waaaayyy early than the counting itself. Come to Miri whenever you want, you know I'm here for you love.
Liss - You know, if you read this, I shall cut your head off because I wanted to relink you and then I saw your new blog was removed AGAIN? Get your priorities straight and by that I mean ME. Lol. Text me, call me, whatever, bye, love youse!
Nariza - I'll relink you when I get the time to actually edit all the nonsense on that side. Such a hassle you know Blogger does not make it easier for any of us like that.

Too much time, too little to elaborate

2008-06-13T10:41:00.000-07:00

I know, I'm as free as a bird on wheels but hey, at least I do have a life and it's not always about me being online. Haha!

I have been skinning my ass off silly to the gym daily since 3 weeks ago when I was forced into doing it by Dad at the apartment in KL. Come to think about it, I've been enjoying it for routines.

I keep going back to the one at Marriott cause somehow all of a sudden, I decided to put Mum's recreation membership to full use, even if I'm not supposed to seeing how I'm over 18. Ha and ha. I love the stairwalker, too bad they dont have it because it does wonders for my legs and arms. Been trying to shed off a few kilos and jogging it is, well, pretty soon anyway. I HATE THE TREADMILL WE HAVE AT HOME - I JUST WANNA UNPLUG IT AND THROW IT IN THE FISHPOND SO IT CAN ROT LIKE A SUNKEN SHIP.

I know how people are stressed with exams and all that this time of the year and I'm glad to say I dont have to feel it (nor have I ever felt the need to) so I'm sort of feeling bad for everyone else who has to endure it. Nonetheless I wish them the best of luck and hope they ace it with flying colours!

Prison Break Season 3 up for viewing - I know it's kind of late but at least I know the whole box set was worth buying instead of the whole season being cut into half. I saw the Gossip Girls Season 1 & 2 for sale and it was only RM15 per box set. I dont know why people would want to watch Gossip Girls on telly - I read almost half of the books (I never personally bought them, they were just lying around everywhere) and I'm guessing everything including the storyline could have been better. How depressing!

I also wish some people would just grow up and stop acting like they've got a tit stuck in their gobs. Such idiocracy and hypocrisy are going about I can hardly keep it in. I chuffed when I saw this girl who had a bandage on her foot exaggerating about how she fell of the staircases and when a friend of hers asked if it was plaster and cement, she replied "No, just an old bandage cause my foot's not broken, it's sprained". Lol. Not that I've ever broken anything but I don't think one should brag so much about their accidents. I, on the other hand would have been ashamed to even go out of the house in case people think I am temporarily handicapped, which I would be if ever it happened. "Touch wood, say it!" My mom would say.

I reckon that's it for the night. Should head to bed early so I can feed on the early worm as to how an early bird does? (I've got this weird fascination for birds lately and I think it's sort of getting on everyone's last nerves)

Until the next update, I bid everyone adieu!

Back to Business!

2008-06-08T09:03:00.000-07:00

I have been away for a very, very long time. Or so I think, if two or so whole weeks is a long time.

KL was alright, shopping was so and so, everything else was pretty much boring. The Cleo Bachelor Party I attended at Maison really did suck no matter how much anyone tells me that I was so lucky to have set eyes on all the Cleo Bachelors (more like boys, no?) Ugh. I did not expect much anyway after throwing on a little beach number on instead of the usual dolling up in heels when I just walked around nicely in my lovely, cheap turquoise sandals. (I think one or more of the girls who were so clean cut in sparkling sequin dresses that night thought I was weird and pretty selekeh) Haha.

The most interesting part though was this random Syrian guy (whom I did not bother to catch names with, what more exchange numbers with) whipped out his phone and started chatting me up as we were using the same Sony Ericsson W960i. He did not even know it was a touch-screen. Maybe he was just drunk or maybe he was just pulling something out of his not-so-deep pockets (after all, if you chat a girl up, you offer her a drink, right? Even if she does not consume alcohol? And he of course did not, maybe I'm just old fashioned like that) I was feeling all awkward and needed an excuse to get out of the convo, thank goodness I was there to only accompany my cousin and she saved me from the wretch! (Nana, if you are reading this - I hope you never bring me to any of your parties ever again be it VIP or not!)

One good thing came up though - I managed to talk to a few of her friends and they were pretty nice. Probably the only highlight of the party for me, see how boring I am? Conversations are the only thing I do best (and also buying Tequila Shots for whoever who needed the little jolt to excite and ignite) I was pretty surprised that some of them were pretty easy going too, I always expect these blank stares from people telling each other how I'm so intimidating and could not strike a convo with me for shit. But this time was different, I should have expected more because Nisa's friends were really nice as well the last time I was around! Lol. Maybe that's how people in bigger cities are? I dont know, you tell me.

Another concern would have to be how people outside of Miri come up to you and ask you for a fag ever so nicely even if they dont know you. There were these two girls, who I suspect to be Westies from their accents (like duh, you dont say) and asked me for a light when I was at Dome. They even sat at my table, uninvited and all, stroke up a conversation with me and started asking me if I was Hindi. Good God, no one knows how hard I laughed inside (I snorted on the outside) cause I was thinking, have they seen Hindi/Bollywood movies ever? Has anyone seen a Hindi with a short, small, stubby snout? OMG. That was hilarious! I even had people asking me if I was Latino or Singaporean. Before the trip, the only concern I had was "I EVER SO HOPE PEOPLE DONT SUSPECT I'M NOT FROM AROUND HERE!" and I even turned on my best West Malaysian lepeh tongue with all the practice I could talking to Ali that way. I failed completely and miserably because they still asked! Next time no more talking to strangers.

People can tell me that no matter how far they chuck me to, I always blend in even if I'm still your stereotypical dark-sort Asian girl. I beg to differ with every being of my heart. I hate it when people wonder where I'm from only to let me know that I look weird and not Malaysian like. So what DO I look like? Malaysians, honestly - I'd rather someone telling me about the weather not knowing what else to say than asking me where I'm from. I'm Malaysian and proud of it, nonetheless. People always have this border between being East Malaysian and West Malaysian where I dont see the difference at all when we are part of Malaysia anyway. I remember a cabbie even asking me if Sarawak was a part of Indonesia. No wonder he resorted to being a cabbie! So silly.

No, I'm not mad or anything, don't tell me to relax or chill. The post was pretty neutral.

On a far brighter note though, I was happy to meet up with family members who hardly come back home and upset I won't be seeing Kaly or Nisa anytime yet. I miss all of them, badly!

I hope they're okay and fine wherever life takes them to (even on those short holiday vacs to Italy or Spain). How I miss them so!

So there you go, a little to and fro.

Hardcore Film Addict

2008-05-20T07:53:00.000-07:00

I pronounce myself a couch potato. I have been going on a killing spree! (Technically only because of all the brainwash rampage movies I've been watching)

I always thought life in the ghetto was how they portrayed it in fictional movies, I was wrong. I always had a love/hate relationship with the idea of terrorism, now I'm just confused. I always imagined myself being stuck in a war between "conflictees" of interests (this, meaning drug lords of the sort, yes?). I never knew the CSI series was all just a bunch of bullshit, after all, which supervisor like Horatio Caine, Gilbert Grissom and Mac Taylor let's their so-called lab rats do experiments and tests with their hair let down in that manner! (Don't get me wrong, I still love watching CSI be it horse shit or not)

Now, I can hardly bare the fact that the world is coming to an end. Real-life stories and documentaries tell it all. No wonder I've always been such a fan. I can sit for hours and hours watching the Crime and Investigation Channel without budging no matter what they have on, be it sophisticated crimes or those without motive from arson to grand larceny.

If anyone feels the need to question me on the above post, please check out:-

City Of God
A Mighty Heart
Road To Guantanamo
Skid Row
The St. Valentine's Day Massacre
Black Dahlia
Monster
The French Connection
Henry : Portrait Of A Serial Killer
In Cold Blood
The Stranger Beside Me
Proof Of Life
Casino
Eastern Promises
Munich
United 93

There, one whole list of new and old movies to grab on. While we're at it, if you like sophisticated thrillers - also check out my all time favourite quadtology Hannibal. Start off from Hannibal Rising, Silence Of The Lambs, Red Dragon and Hannibal. You know what I'm talking about when I say that a person is not really complete without one hell of a DVD collection stacked up in shelves!

Enjoy, now!

The lamest post I've had since forever

2008-05-19T18:16:00.000-07:00

Bleh! I have not been updating for a while. Is that why the silent readers are all running off in different directions? It's been 10 days since my last post - 10 days! I didnt know time flied by so fast.

So what has been up, you ask? Let's see . . . . Still seeing . . . Hmm . . . Nothing I can think of . . .

Look how mundane my life has become.

Entertain me. Please. No more Euro Trip, Road Trip back to back Trip(s) movies please! Come to think about it, I was so excited when I heard that Narnia's Prince Caspian was coming out in theatres soon end of last year. Now, I just can't seem arsed to even carry my heavy butt out to the cinema. I was even disappointed when I watched the exclusive trailer on Disney's Movie Surfers - is that what it's called? Therefore, I shall not watch it! I shall become a loyal supporter of pirated DVDs and buy it once it's out, not even sure if it would be worth my RM5.80.

Ohhhhhhh. I am so bored. Have I told anyone yet? Cause if I haven't then everyone should know. Everyone should be as bored as me because I'm such a bum! All my diets are not working because people tell me I've grown so big and round. Thank goodness I'm still taller than most. The weird thing is, even fat people tell me that I'm fat. Lol. Have they even looked at themselves in the mirror yet? Or are they too scared to even stand in front of a mirror, afraid that they might commit suicide? I like my weight (okay, no, not really) but I dont think I have a problem with it either. I love my body for what it's worth. Period.

Shopping trip in 4 more days!

I cannot wait. M.A.C here I come. Have I told anyone how much I love makeup? Hahahahah. I'm shivering cause I'm so ecstatic! The only thing I would NOT be looking forward to is leaving the Don behind while I enjoy my life away. Poor baby. I'll miss you - I hope you read!

And and and my W960i would be on it's way into my hands on the 23rd! Ohhhh. For the love of all phones nice and delectable. I shall love you forever and ever until I die (I've said this many of times to all my phones, but this time it's true love, yeah)

Just my two cents worth for the day - I don't even know if I might make it on time to update next time around.

Happy holidays!

Makeup Tag (Updated!)

2008-05-10T09:40:00.000-07:00

The last makeup tag was ages ago and somehow my makeup bag has upgraded itself since last. Thanks Reyna for two tags in a row and I shall do the other one right after I finish this one. News flash though - I ain't tagging anyone below this so don't search for names or links ;) because I know how much of a hassle it is to keep people happy. If anyone feels the need to splurge thoughts on their makeup feel free to do it - I encourage you full-heartedly! It shows how girls shall always be girls and makeup does everyone's heads in a bit, I suppose.

How long does it take you to put on your makeup anytime of the day?
About an hour or two. Does not matter cause I have all the time in the world to slap makeup on. I'm even thinking of doing it for a living and charge people ridiculous invisible tags like RM650 for a makeover sessh like the one by Matahari in Harper's Bazaar two months ago! Suckers.

Brand Me: What is your favourite brand for .... (in particular order!)
Lipstick?
M.A.C - an all-time favourite, Estee Lauder and Chanel in the lovely nude hues.

Lipgloss?
M.A.C, Dior, Stila, Molton Brown and Chanel

Blush?
BeneFit, Stila and M.A.C

Foundation?
Dior, Laura Mercier and BeneFit

Eyeliner?
M.A.C, Dior, Mary Kay and Smashbox

Eyeshadow?
M.A.C, Stila and NARS

Bronzer?
Stila, BeneFit and Body Shop

In Your Makeup Bag : Do you have .... if so, what kind of .... Lipstick?

The LE Viva Glam three-way palette which I've been saving up forever in Viva Glam V and VI inclusive of Viva Glam V lip gloss! It comes in an uber cute-sort-of-grotesque package as well. Too bad M.A.C comes up with collections like these once in a lifetime.

Sweet Seductions from M.A.C Ornamentalism Holiday 2005 Collection which I sort of stole off my Mummy cause she does not fancy it anymore.

All my Viva Glam collection in single sticks - the colours are so divine. I hope they never discontinue the making otherwise I'd have a hard time trying to look for substitute colours!

Of course the Bobbi Brown Nude Lip Palette is a must have for my makeup bag though the colours dont stay on for long and I have to re-apply throughout the day and I get so sick of it hence less holes in the mini boxes!

An add to my collection after Mum got back from hols - the M.A.C Fafi Lipstick in Fun N' Sexy, not really my colour and I was pretty shocked when I opened the package cause it was so bright and sassy. I dont use it at all but I carry it around everywhere, beats you? Beats me too!

Lipgloss?

The famous vavavoom Stila Lip Glaze in assorted colours! I've managed to collect these random few ever since it was first launched in 2003 : Berry, Strawberry, Black Cherry, Watermelon, Sugar Plum, Praline, Fruit Punch, Guava, Banana, Mocha and Cinnamon. I've lost a few but the rest are still neatly tucked away in my makeup case.

The Dior Kiss Mini Trio which I got from Mum last 3 years or so ago? And yes, I still have them in Red Currant, Cotton Candy and Lemon Sherbet. I've never used the full-on tubes since I still have these teeny weeny ones, will try to get some when I remember cause we, after all, have a Dior cosmetic counter around. Notice the little Dior charm on top - to die for!

The infamous Dior necklace cum lip gloss. Also a birthday present from Mum in Bronze. I know some people who dont use it but since my youngest sister punctured a hole in mine I decided to just use and wear it at the same time. The colour doesn't stay on long though but I guess having the case itself is worth it.

M.A.C Lipglass! Heavenly in everything lip worthy. I've collected these babies in Avarice, 24k Gold, C-thru, Coral, Full On Lust, Nico Now, Spirited, Be Seen and Real Desire. More to come definitely since I've been putting on wads of gloss on for the past few months and I'm afraid the ones I have left can barely make it throughout the year.

Mascara?

BeneFit's Bad Gal Lash which I mentioned in a tag earlier on before this one. I swear this is the best mascara made (THAT or my lashes really seem to be longer than it should be) cause it gives this extra, extra long lasting feel - it goes off easily with makeup remover and remover alone!

Dior Show Water-proof (sweat, love, fire proof too) in Black Out Noir. Extending seems to be such a hassle and this one works just as well!

Bobbi Brown Everything Mascara in Black. So divine if it was in a candy coated package I would have eaten it up already.

Then, there's always the semi-professional sort of mascara in all my makeup bags - some I get for free after purchasing so many and of course in the little starter-intro packs. M.A.C Pro Lash has been a favourite since the second I laid eyes on mascara. (Not that I need help in the Lash department but it just does not feel as bulky and spidery like the cheap ones)

Urban Decay's Big Fatty Mascara - the new package is wicked and revamped! I was down to my last tube which I bought pretty cheap in Australia, cost me only AUD$6 or so from a local convenient store. Lol. And I think mine was expired cause the package I bought it in was pink and black, hardly noticeable at all!

Eyeliner?

Typically I would say any kind as long as it's black but right now I've had this sudden craze for coloured liquid eyeliner too and I'm bound to get my hands on some soon when I jet off for hols end of this month. I wont post pictures of eyeliners because I've got one kind in assorted colours - so you imagine. If you still have the urge to know, my very starting-to-get-short-and-stubby eye pencils/kohl recent addition includes M.A.C Powerpoint Eye Pencil in Light As Air (a very light, smooth sky blue); Industry (somehow I regretted buying this one because it does not compliment my eyes AT ALL - a very shady hue of gray); Bordeauxline (a fun deep fuschia which seems much more lighter than the actual colour on the pencil); Forever Green (does the name say it all? It's sort of a disgusting poo colour but when applied with gold shimmer eyeshadow it leaves a really nice mixture of dark marine on the lids) and Engraved (obviously a very dark goth black shade for daily wear!), M.A.C Eye Kohl in Phone Number (a dark gray almost black shimmer hue); Minted (a dark, cool aqua teal) and Smolder (shouts black, black, black) and Dior Show Waterproof Eye Liner in Noir (Black, need I say more?). When I grow short of eyeshadow (or get bored) I normally just colour my upper lids with eye kohl - a nifty trick I taught myself since I started using coloured eye pencils! The colours seem deeper, brighter and more intense too especially when shadows and pigments really dont work and the colours look so dull at times without primer on.

P/S to self: Need to get hands on the new M.A.C Dual-Edge Eye Pencils before they run out of stock AGAIN!

Powder?

Currently I've only got the M.A.C Fafi Iridescent Pressed Powder in Verve-acious. I was not even there to choose it because Mum bought the set for me and the lady at the counter told her that if I had a tan skin tone this colour would be best (an intense yellow gold with gold pearl). It makes my face shimmer too much in the sun so I try not to apply powder to my face during the day time nor do I at night (because I am such a bore and I dont do night outings!)

Money Matters
How much do you spend a month on makeup?
I dont spend on makeup every month! That's absurd. I wish I could though cause life would be so much more colourful with 10 makeup bags full! (Wanders off in glee)

How much would you pay for lipstick?
Oh well that depends. If the lipstick is really expensive and I have wads of dough with me then why not spend? And logically if I have no money at all to spend on, I just sit at home quietly until someone brings the matter of shopping up. But then again, what's there to shop in Miri for makeup when everytime you visit the makeup counters, you see the same thing day in, day out! Better no need!

How much do you think all your makeup is worth?
I dont know! Probably more than what it is. I've come across individuals who don't touch their makeup at all and save it up for a rainy day, or so they claim. And I, I just down them all as soon as I get my hands on new colours! Why save when in the end they just turn out to be yucky, expired and colourless?

Is makeup what you spend most of your money on?
Absolutely yes and no. I spend on makeup when I'm out of town and I buy maybe one or two lip glosses/lip sticks around town when I find rare finds (like my Dior Spy Shadow Palette) but other than that, I think I invest all my money on DVDs, cheap quality ones.

Would you ever consider plastic surgery if it was free?
Lol of course. I would even spend on plastic surgery if I had the money to! Why not? There's this saying "The other girl who says shit about you says you're fake, from your necklaces down to your boots. You top her though cause she can't even afford fake boobs!". Dont that seem nice? YET AGAIN, I WOULD PAY FOR PLASTIC SURGERY, like it or not. Everyone wants to change at least something with their physical appearance and if it's a crime, go run a protest against plastic surgeons. On a different note, I dont think plastic surgery in Malaysia is illegal anymore because everyone seems to be going to Dr _______ all the time and his office seems to be occupied with celebrities :s BIG YAY!

And the truth under makeup ....
Do you think makeup makes you look prettier?
Why of course otherwise I wont bother taking up so much of my time just applying makeup on. I would have not even posted this up if I had nothing in my makeup bag! Makeup makes everyone look prettier and surreal. I disagree with anyone saying that makeup makes a person look fake or unnatural. Everyone is beautiful naturally, it just takes really talented ones to know how to enhance, play and slap on makeup!

What is the one makeup accessory you could not live without?
What if I say EVERY SINGLE MAKEUP ACCESSORY? Makes sense? I cannot possibly imagine life without everything in my makeup bag. Okay I change my mind. I cannot imagine life without concealer and mattifiers.

There you go. No tough questions, nothing! Easy peasy and I surfed through it pretty well this time around too. Haha. I hope everyone who loves makeup enjoyed reading the post because if you haven't then you would not have reached this part on the bottom unless you skipped really boring parts where pictures dont exist. How dyslexic is that!

Mac vs. Windows

2008-04-29T19:10:00.001-07:00

To anyone on Windows right now who thinks that Mac should be a better choice - DONT even think about it. This one's more of a techy post compared to the other bitch cum bimbo posts. Click the left-hand side red X (for Safari users), silver X (for Firefox) if you do not wish to read any of the gross facts about your beloved Apple.

The Mac has a better design compared to Windows-based computers
Yes, I agree. But does the look of your laptop have anything to do with the durability and quality of your work/pleasure? Remember the colourful, transparent iMacs back in the day? Well they dont make them anymore instead the new iMacs are coated in white, if you're lucky you might be able to get your hands on a black one which I heard are quite a rare find. Has anyone actually used the iMac mouse? It causes brain damage, literally. The small round curves annoy the hell out of me when I stay a wee bit too long causing my fingers and arm to ache, oh so terribly. Most optical mouses are NOT compatible with the Mac OSX system - imagine purchasing an uber cute turquoise mouse from your local computer store only to find out when you reach home that it does not do shit for your Mac when you plug it in. And then there's the Mac Air which recently got launched this year. Look at how thin it is, you would say. It's just as fragile as it looks! There are reported complaints about the Mac Air and how unstable the design is.

Mac does not CRASH
Mother of all holy craps alive - really, you ask? I'd like to think of it as a plus but most of the time I seem to think that my iBook is overtaking the viruses - I think twice when something goes wrong with my laptop applications and why they shut down automatically, so expectantly. Then I try sniffing out the culprit and realize that there is no cure nor a resolution to it. The Mac has a faulty operation system therefore it does crash as well as how Windows does only without an explanation to why it decided to do so.

The best in digital entertainment (ie movies, media etc)
Oh fine so Apple developed all these useless applications, not to mention VERY mediocre like iDVD, iMovie, Garage Band and the lot. Who on earth uses them? I know I never touched it on the floating dashboard. I remember one particular Media student who was exhilarated to use all the programs on the Mac and I was thinking to myself what an idiot he was.

Mac is VERY user-friendly, HONEST!
Huh? Who? What? When? Haha. I beg to differ. Mac is NOT user friendly. The first time I set eyes upon it I thought what a lovely gadget to let other people set eyes on! And I was wrong. It may look good on the outside but on the inside, God knows. It took me a whole month to figure out which was which especially since the only reason why I got the Mac handed down to me was because it was from some road show my Dad needed to do and all these Macs were practically promoted on the stands of his booth. I'm actually proud to say that I mastered the Mac basics and non-basics now after forever.

Only the best in digital music
Right now, is anyone thinking of the iPod? Well yes, I was referring to the iPod. The iPod's a legend when it comes to music. As long as someone talks about the music they have on their computers, they talk about loading it onto their iPods. I've never heard complaints about the iPod probably because it's eye candy. But has anyone who owns an iPod ever think about how expensive it really is? And how the Classics tend to not have a protective cover on it and how you cant clip it on anywhere when you bring it around? Not to mention it's just as bulky as a high-tech cell too. The accessories are mighty expensive when you want to get the ones which cater for Apple instead of the very cheap ones which might spoil your iPod. I've not had my iPod with me for almost a year now and I dont miss it at all!

Third-party software and applications - a must have!
A must have for game freaks and what not. Windows users are lucky that most software are compatible with their platform. Ever thought how Mac users download their software? You wont be able to find free software for Mac unless it's really crappy sort of on the Internet. The only thing I've downloaded via uTorrent is Office for Mac. And that's about it. I would not bother to pay RM300 for the Office software at my nearest Mac store when I can just download, sit and wait ............. for about 2 weeks until I can work on my assignments. No matter how long a person waits, in the end they just get very very bored. And that's exactly how I feel about my stupid iBook. Downloading anything on a Mac takes time no matter what they say about the ultra Internet speed and how powerful a Mac is. The weakest link to anything concerning a Mac has got to be the Mac itself. Full stop.

Boot Camp is to HOW as to WHICH you switch
Umph? I hate boot camp! It's not even compatible for OSX 10.3 and below! So how? Chris installed this virtual thing on my iBook to let me switch from Mac to Windows anytime and it took ages just for me to press the Start button. I'm sure it's easy for the PowerBook users on Boot Camp. But what about people like me who has not gotten a laptop upgrade in ages?

What else is there to say? I can list out all the things I hate about Apple and yet I'll still be stuck in the Apple world where my homepage is still on default for the www.apple.com homepage. And everytime I load Safari or Firefox on it gives me the shivers to check out all the nice things Mac decides to create like the Apple TV, the iPhone and the new iPod nanos of the like. Screw Apple, really! (As soon as my Dad let's me switch to Windows, I'm most likely to run at the pace instead of hesitating like I did eons ago when to own an Apple laptop was the in thing)

Never-Ending Tag Business

2008-04-24T08:58:00.000-07:00

Yes, I dont want to disappoint the tagger so, Jack - this one's for you!

1. What are you doing?
Being bored, being a bum - that counts as doing something. Catching Israel's Somewhere Over The Rainbow on iMeem.com and it's pure bliss.

2. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
- Listiari, have I not said enough? Only because she is the best soul mate I've encountered upon. We have too much in common it's scary. Like everything which happens to her eventually gets passed down onto me and vice versa. She knows how much I love her anyway!
- Maria Izzah, because I've never felt more comfortable with another human being of the opposite sex the way I do with her! We can talk all night without ever stopping being the chatterboxes we are. Mind you, no bitching sesshes because Izzah is not one to procrastinate when she can do everything else better than everyone I know.
- Maybe, just maybe, Adrian Sim - okay fine! Definitely Adrian Sim. So we can rendezvous and chill in the moonlight. Hahaha. I kid. He is the best critique EVER, this future fashion designer only caters to the best.
Come to think of it, none of these people are just blog buddies because I see them all the time (when they're around a 50 miles radius from me). Oh let's just say I wanna carry everyone along on our little island getaway seeing there's no way I can leave my cousins out of all the fun we're going to have be it a deserted island or not.

3. If there's something you have to say to someone, who will it be and what?
Miss Dee "Come back soon or I will shoot you! Me misses you much :("

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
BECAUSE there are loads of places I want to travel THE MOST to, I will entitle myself to the list.
-Maui, Kauai and Oahu right and has anyone seen the beautiful landscape with the wooden huts and silver sand? Three words - heaven on earth, much!
-Grand Bahama Island of the Bahamas
-Cozumel of Quintana Roo

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Become a fashion mogul by the end of this month. Bwahahahah!

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Not really, I suppose that passed on when I decided to grow older. Though there are times when I catch the rainbow after a rainy day I'd think aloud and say that it just(logically) showered a few minutes ago.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
Nothing really cause I lose THINGS all the time. Like my lighters and some of the tools in my makeup kit when I stuff them in my extra-enormous Quinn.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Spend it all in one day! I shall deem myself capable of that. And the things I would buy! Only makes a person wonder what goes on in this head of mine.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Not at that very moment, no. It takes time to realize how much you love someone so the question is sort of hazy. You cannot love a person you've just met. You can most definitely lust after a person you've just met. Get it?

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Jack is:
- role model for anything or anyone fit!
- biceps made of iron. lol.
- friendly, definitely.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
I dont set my standards so high because that way it would work on just one side of the relationship. Although they are some inner preferences as to which I want him to be honest and faithful, smart looking and being able to take care of my needs.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
I dont have a type which I hate the most but I do dislike people who have split personalities and behavioral problems.

13. What is your ambition?
Right now I dont really know. I've lost track on the things I'd like to do. I've always wanted to be a Public Relations Guru or a really famous Makeup Artist.

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
Point it out when I dont find it misdemeaning. Shut up and mind their own business when I dont give a shit.

15. What do you think is the most important in your life?
Being able to have fun and enjoy it while it lasts. After all, we only live once. Whoever believes in life after death on Earth can go suck my toes.

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
Is this, like, a trick question? I try not to be but I admit that I am. Who does not spend on things they don't need?

17. What is the thing that you really want now?
For the time being, the W960i, a new pair of shades preferably Thakoon's Dead Flyaways and a built-in closet(my old closet is being attacked by the demon and he thinks it's polite to mess my things up)

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
None, zero, zip, nada! I dont wish to change any part of my character. This is how I am, like it or not. No one is perfect even if they try their level best to be.

19. Is there anything that you have done which you regret?
I try not to regret anything I've done especially when it comes to purchases. I take a mighty long time to choose out things especially when they have more than one colour or design available. In the end I ask myself why and answer myself, yet again, by telling myself that it was just for the time being.

20. Have you any secrets you would like to tell the whole world? (This is your only chance!)
Haha. What were you thinking? That I'd reveal my deepest darkest secrets where everyone can set eyes upon? Nooooo. On the other hand, I dont have any secrets to tell. I have memories which I bask in!

I have also decided not to tag anyone because this tagging makes everyone a little bit grouchy when they have to. So feel free to do yourselves to anyone on my right hand-side of the holes.

Hooked!

2008-04-20T10:14:00.000-07:00

I've been bumming around so much I forgot the day and date. So much that days have been passing by without me even realizing it until the clock struck 12.30 in the AM only for me to find out it was the 21st of the month and it's Daddy's birthday today. He has not been around for 3 weeks already and I miss him! I miss the rest of them too especially Mummy and Stesha cause they've been away for too long. Initially they were supposed to come back right after a week of holidays in KL only to my demise Stesha got an attack of pneumonia and the Doctor recommended not to let her fly back on the plane in case her condition gets worst. I hope she's alright now though and I have not managed to speak to her on the phone because I don't think it would be wise for me to start tearing up when I hear her voice and start missing her so much, after all it's only been a couple of weeks and I'm still standing ground. Shereen, Shereena and Sabrina got shipped off to KL last week because I personally think my parents could not stand the idea of them being all alone at home without them to scrutinize. Lol.
I just recently caught a whiff off David Cook's version of Mariah Carey's Always Be My Baby which was aired on American Idol via Star World last Wednesday and I admit, I was chuffed! The dude has got extra talent and it was worth the wait watching him come out of his shell - though I know he is known for clinching covers and turning them into top billboard charts. The moment I heard him sing, it intrigued me and I was in a state so heavenly I thought the world just stopped revolving. I personally preferred the Studio version when I heard it cause it sounded so much better without the minor pitch problems on stage and the fans roaring to his choon in the background. In my blissful state of listening to Cook's version of Always Be My Baby, David Archuleta won hearts as usual and yes, I haven't gone to the dark side because Archuleta is still my number one male-diva of all time! The weeny teen can really woo and I was, to top it all off, WOOED. Archuleta owned Mariah and Whitney's duet When You Believe from the Prince of Egypt soundtrack and I did not even bother to download the studio version cause he did so well for the stage version. Now we all know who Simon's top guy would be on American Idol, dont we? He hated David Cook's version of the cover but then it's just old Simon Cowell - he's just THAT brutally honest and being human we try to conceal the truth by convincing ourselves a lot of things whereas Simon just plucks out all the reality checks and sums it into one whole bundle of love. (I heard the Brits threw loads of junk at him during Princess Diana's funeral anniversary concert - hey ho!) Don't get me wrong, I love Simon but I think the guy deserves a kick in the nuts for being so vague - I wish he would get a new less-boring wardrobe for the nights on AI because his good-old-geezer looks just clash with the wardrobe malfunction! I can't start to imagine if he even changes his shirts cause he seems to be wearing the plain, old, boring white-gray-black combo all the time I watch AI. (He dresses more appropriately for the Idol Gives Back days though, so, I suppose he shall be forgiven!)
So much for being pissed off in one of my recent last posts about Michael Johns leaving. This week I seeked revenge and just laughed when Kristy Lee Cook had to go. How I love the way the world spins in order for karma to come back around. Yes, all the Kristy supporters can go wank off to the images of her spreading and shutting her legs on national TV because she is so gone. No, I don't even agree that she can sing. She's just one of them off-the-mill sort of girls who were just lucky to have made it to where she did. Yes, I dislike her that much to say such things. I'm just glad she was gone because she never deserved it in the first place when I saw her auditioning. Boohoo.
There's these downloads which everyone should deserve to check out. This includes the new LimeWire Pro which makes downloading videos and songs super super lightning (imagine Flash) fast! I've been downloading MP3s for days now and I've got a total of 2159 songs up to date just for the past few days before. That does not even include the ones I already have on the hard drive partition! So yes, Google it up or something and the torrent should appear somewhere and make sure to use any sort of torrent client in order for you to enjoy the timeless, endless pleasure of beats. I would not like to sell external links in case anything happens to anyone else's computer so I will just stick to the norm of having Google by my side and being yours and my bestfriend, capish? There's also this really cool phone tool which enables you to make free phone calls and it's called Jaxtr. All you have to do is go to the site, sign up and hotwire your phone to the site. That simple. You get up to 100 Jax per month and the going rate on phone calls are 4 Jax per minute. How's that for Skype? The reason why Skype never made it into the hearts of us Malaysians is because of the raw hassle of having to purchase a VoIP phone instead of being able to use your own cellie. Yeah fine you can attempt to signup for Skype and talk through the built-in microphone you have on your laptop or desktop but the experience of talking on the phone itself makes it all worth while and Jaxtr let's you do JUST THAT. So screw Skype and welcome yourselves to the world of Jaxtr! No, I am not getting paid to advertise the product here either and for all I know, it might have been illegal to have done so.
Not a surprise either that my blog user hit and ratings went up another notch for the last bitch-post that was on. Well, today's a new don and tomorrow, well, I might be up for that. In the meantime, let's just say no one has rendered to piss me off quite a bit yet. I won't be looking forward to it either because people have been telling me that I sound so angry. Well I don't think I sounded angry when I was typing any of it, I was just pretty tense and disgusted by the fact that such beings surface and inhabit Earth, therefore they deserved just that slight bit of my time and what a waste because none of them ever responded - probably too dumbfounded to know what resided on the other side of their nasty personalities, eh?
People have been asking me if the car I was seen using the other day was mine, or rented and I shall answer by saying that it is none of their business. So what if I rent even a Bentley Continental GT and roam around town with it? I don't think it concerns anyone else but myself. So please, spare me the thoughts and keep them to yourselves because I'm done with the hoard of horse crap. On the other hand, I don't know anyone else who collects the license plates I was donned with apart from my Dad. You get the drift, in plain sarcasm, I have just answered all your questions! So if anyone sees me in a car without the similar plates then yes, you can as kindly question my authority whether the car was rented, borrowed or stolen.
There you go - another post on the house by me, get bored or get lost - your choice, I say! Til next post, pipol, enjoy the rest of the week while it lasts!

Woooopsies.

2008-04-13T16:54:00.000-07:00

I noticed the only time my hits go up to 50+ is when I have a bitch-post right up the front of my page and comments just flood in like nobody's business. (I get hate mail as well considering the fact people think it's them I'm typing about when nothing at all concerns them - always being paranoid of themselves when they have no idea whatsoever is making the world spin) or on the lines of that.
Well, news flash - I dont need to spend my time typing out something which is so time consuming when I can find better things to do, yes, you read that correct - FIND. If I definitely think you're worth something to write about and publish all the attention out to you then why not, of course I think you're special - in your very own way, that is.
Still want to call me a bitch?
That would be the last of my worries! Like the saying goes, it takes one to know one. I would not stoop to anyone's level just to fit myself into a particular group - who needs that shit? By the end of the day, you're just going to have to forget all your little once was friends anyway when you lead separate lives. I have a standard of my own and compared to yours, it's pretty significant. I shall not be sorry for the things I say or do because at least I take a grip on where I stand and plant my two feet firmly in the ground. You can try to pluck me out and hammer me back in, but who are you kidding darling? I'm still around and having fun, laughing at the things you do, what you wear and while you are too "busy" being in denial, you dont hear us and think we're talking behind your back. Oh woe, stupid skank. Next time, read between the lines. Or in other words, take your god damn eyes and ears out of their plugs because they don't do crap for you.
While my personal life has not always been stories I've liked posting about, you seem to know a whole lot about me which I have not known eh? I have not spoken a word to you and all of a sudden, you seem to know me better than I know myself! Of course there are things I'm ashamed of committing in my past, I have no excuse but am I not human just as well as you are? I cannot seem to find myself superior compared to other people but I am definitely on a higher pedestal than you and your whole army of wannabes are. So please, if I have something to judge about, that would only have to be because of the things I've heard (and the things you have been trying to weasel out from a fellow friend, too). If I ain't important as you want everyone else to think I'm not, then why even bother trying? Not once has your name come up in our conversations only to appear when you have asked about me and worst yet, ask how am I doing. That should not be any of your concern, start concentrating on your own life for pity's sake instead of trying so hard to butt into mine. I don't need you to know how am I doing when all you want to see is lady-luck going against me. And no, lady luck is not going against me because I have it locked where I always hoped it would be.
If you can take someone else's tissue handkerchief with snot and grime on it, I'm sure you would not have a problem knowing that you and me, we're not the same. So don't even attempt to put me through that head of yours. I feel guilty just thinking about the things you have said about me, but then again, when did it ever end? Deep down inside, secretly, you probably want to make love to me and have all these lesbian fantasies, don't you? Sure seems like it because you pay less attention to your scruffy boyfriend since Day 1.
The reason why I would not like to post your name out here is because I know a lot of busy bees who would be delighted about gossip as to which they feed and depend on. So yes, I still regard your dignity as something someone should always have. You are, after all, mortal - have I not said enough? Having said that, the busy bees also need bits of entertainment just for them to figure out which flower to buzz on.
So thank you for your time and thank you for the concern, I just don't need it, nor do I give 10 holy fucks. And that's the first and last thing you will ever need to know!

WTF

2008-04-12T04:53:00.000-07:00

I AM ENRAGED!
How in bloody tarnation did Michael Johns get voted off last night? He was definitely one of the few who was still in with amazing talent. (I still have my mouth gaped at the sudden combustion of nerves)
The rest of them (apart from David Archuleta, David Cook and Syesha Mercado) are all so........ mediocre. Whichever American person thinks the show is only for Americans can go burn in hell. Is that the reason why everyone decided to sabotage Johns votes? By the way, the American Idol as you call it were infested on the top 12 by Mexican, Australian, Filipino, Nigerian and Irish individuals if you don't seem to keep your eyes focused on the screen. It should be called International or Global Idol.
Now, where, shall I ask, have all the talent-ful Americans get swept off to? I hope the next Titanic does not take the Celine Dion(s) away because honestly America, when you see talent, you push it off your doorstep! And try to take pride in yourselves with such time wasting entertainment like "My Heart Will Go On".
AAAAAAAAAAH!

MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

2008-04-05T22:27:00.000-07:00

People tell me I have a cheeky laugh. I'd like to think of it as an evil one because behind it there's always something in my head. It's either thinking of the impossible or the mean things I have to say. Then, there's the saying "If you do not have anything nice to say about someone, just keep quiet" - I, on the other hand, like laughing about it because keeping quiet means holding it in. And when you laugh, it can mean a lot of things, like how amusing you find a person to be, how the person has no sense of humour and how you hide the things in your head - just for the time being when you dont want to upset a person. Issues in life can be regarded as the ones below.
It's a wonder how some people can be so.. um.. naive, let's say. Standing your ground based on pure knowledge alone is one thing, acting stupid is another and being just plain retarded is rather mind-boggling.
Then it comes to the question of money. Like how a person can be impressed by another just because this person comes from a billion-dollar household and start asking for gifts nonstop as if they're not thick faced enough already being friends with another person's money. And I do not mean in the joking sort of way of asking. I knew a person once who has no shame at all when it came to asking for things. Then she claims her father is a bigshot back home, well, if that's the case then why not ask him for things instead of rubbing it in. And she can go on and on. I remember when I was on holiday, she asked me where I was. Initially I did not want to tell her but she bugged me from the wee mornings to the late nights and I was pretty disturbed by the nonsense. After she found out I was not back home, she started asking me for a pair of shades. Just after that she messaged The Don and asked him for a pair of shades as well. Or was it perfume? I cant seem to recall because it was so unforgettable, obviously the both of us did not get her anything. Now that was a laugh out loud moment. At first I thought she did that for jokes, or to gain one's affection. I was wrong. People have been saying the same thing and she asks for expensive things as well, like why should one bother with her when they do not even like her and put up with her bullshit for the sake of it. Come to think of it, she was a stalker. And until today, I'm sure she does not know that the only reason why I put up with her was because she was my friend's girlfriend. After they broke up, we said our "Hallelujah!"'s and ran off giggling. Unfortunately, her boyfriend still thinks she is not over him and it's a sad case being cried over by something that giganormous. She even blamed him for what has become of her, I heard from the man himself. No one else to blame but herself, I suppose. I hope he gets through the spurs of being chased around by a loony bin - mind you, a very very big one.
Life can be sad if you want it to be. Then if you have lemons, make lemonade. It's not hard to conceive happy thoughts and just because being optimistic means thinking positive, it does not have to mean that no one experiences the ups and downs in life. Some choose to ignore it because they can be strong-willed enough to do so, some whine and grind about it, and some just like to be in the dark about it where it does not matter, right now that last phrase spreads emo all over it. I've never wondered why people can be so happy when they want to be regardless of what or who's been haunting them. It puts a smile on my face to know that they cannot be bothered with the things which collide with their journey through life. They certainly know how to take it easy without worries on the top of their heads. Then, there's the sad grumpy ones who make their own lives a living hell and blame it on their parents. Such sad, pathetic losers.
Then there's the issue of religion. I suppose some people think it's right to put their religion forth and be radical about it when it was never stated in any of the holy books to live on religion alone. I, myself do not practice so I would not preach what's right and what's wrong coming from the holy Qu'ran. I know where I stand and it's a matter of opinion whether to believe in God, or not. I have seen a lot of Muslims nowadays who are very Westernized and know how to stand their ground and another half who claim to be what they're not. This may or may not include people from other religious backgrounds as well. I live in a multi-religion household - my grandmother is Christian and we have adapted to the in's and out's of Christianity. My siblings and I were brought up as Muslims and also brought up to respect other people from different religions. It does not matter whether you're Muslim, Christian, Atheist or a Jew. We are human beings after all and the only thing which barricades us from it all is the different prospects of self-belief through one's heart and soul. This particular paragraph has no profanity nor does it contain any vulgarity so anyone who finds it disturbing can just piss off.
The world is round and shall always be that way. Some fascists refuse to let their kids know about the facts of life and that's a mighty shame. I've come across parents who refuse their kids to write with their left hand because of some man-made rule since ancient times that left-handers are the devil's spawn. I've also come across religious preachers who are extreme enough to blurt out to Christian kids studying in Brunei back in the 90's that if they do not learn how to write in Arabic, they will be taken by the Devil himself and dragged into the very depths of hell. Brainwashing does all the talk, now, doesnt it? Some kids are smart enough to just ignore whatever it is they are told by such extremists but some decide to commit self-sacrifice just to please their leaders.
What, honestly has the world come to where such people exist? Is it because the world is moving too fast for everyone to catch up or is because the world is moving too slow and that's the reason why everyone tries to move faster? We should all just move at the speed we were taught and accelerate at our own advance instead of trying so hard to blend in with other people just to keep them happy and sane. People have adapted the lives of radical groups into their everyday cliques. Some may not think it is the same, but it's exactly what it has come to. Men separate themselves from other men who are weak and fit themselves into a group where they think their strengths would be useful and utilized. Is that human nature or is that what we were told to do since birth, growing up with adult guidance around us?
All in all, I suppose people can be the way they are for lots of reasons (or excuses). I would not like to find out what it is because I would rather stick to whatever it is I know for the time being.

Then there was ONE.

2008-04-03T20:41:00.000-07:00

Referring to Nisa's post on her blog and Deena's on hers;
There's this girl who has been verbally harassing my cousin Nisa, all the way in KL (my cousin is currently in Australia, see) and I'm surprised to see she hasnt been getting tired of the same shit since my cousin was in KL, like, last year around. Yes, this skank is giving her all the treatments and putting her on top of a pedestal. She might as well worship Nisa like no tomorrow instead of giving her all that TLC, if you know what I mean. To make matters worst, she gathers up all her little "high class" friends and tries to make Nisa into the laughing stock but what she doesn't know is that people have never been real friends with her. Stupid, stupid whore! I'm mighty glad her so-called "we're going to get married so leave us alone" boyfriend did crap behind her back because, well, honestly, she deserved it. And right now, her boyfriend thinks my cousin is trying to ruin their relationship. Oh please, come on, get a life! This guy with no balls is only trying to cover up his tracks because he's - woe and behold - as guilty as a bear can bee. Yes, he gave my cousin a shot at love, or was it lust? Well, that never got anyone fooled! Have you never heard of the term "Friends With Benefits"? So I heard the term takes two to tango, instead of clapping on one hand.
Regarding the skank, or better referred to as J.L, she does not know the A to Z's of what has been going on in anybody's life and acts like a parasite just to gain information from other people around. My cousin's friends dont talk shit behind her back see, just because this ho needs to believe it on her own, she would go to lengths and lengths to make it sound true. And apparently, she has been trying to ruin relationships with other people too while she's at it! Just recently she told someone else whom my cousin heard from that they were going to "torment" Nisa. HAHA. Yes, very big word for a very small girl isnt it? Why she bothers to even attempt to torment this cousin of mine is beyond my knowledge because what she does not know is that, my cousin's higher luxe bottom does not get tormented by anyone! Poor thing. She thinks everyone is like her, being disturbed and insane just because her dumb boyfriend cheated on her. Like I said once, what we all know will make her double-chin do somersaults at the thought of it! Maybe it's the feeling of guilt which she's getting and wants to let people tell her the truth. As far as I'm concerned, she has never heard the truth from anyone (let alone her boyfriend telling her). She is in denial about what she has heard! Right now, what she needs to do is pull it together and stop the bullshit because nobody cares. Does she think just because she resides in KL and my cousin isn't from there, meaning to say she has all the right in the world to harass? She should most definitely get her facts right because what she knows will hurt her, incredibly. I suppose for such a fragile being like herself, she might end up committing suicide if she ever found out.
Nisa does not need her boyfriend's companionship nor does she need his friendship. She's been going out with a hotter guy compared to her droop of a boyfriend. This other guy is way worth it if you ask me. He has got to be on my top list for the people I would allow my cousin to date. Just because J.L. is stuck in KL and her boyfriend is all the way in Australia means she's intimidated that my cousin has the hots for him? Well, too bad if it's the other way round instead. She should get her trust issues ironed out first and settle things out with her boyfriend instead of attempting torments to an innocent party. Yes, a lot of people are involved in this because she thinks she should pull all her friends together to give it a shot. If she can do it, then why cant other people do the same?
Referring to J.L.'s boyfriend, that dude needs to get a life. My cousin gave him the thumbs down and now he's so upset about it he has to act so ruffian about it in public. Talk about major PDA people, in an opposite humour. Did he ever think that, probably, deep down inside, my cousin despises the way he looks and the way he lies himself around just to gain the amount of friends he has? Which I have no doubt about being the friends whom snitched on him to his lonely girlfriend back home. Come on, if the two of them want to get hitched and need to tell the whole world how "in love" they are, he should most certainly paint a clearer picture on where he stands with his future wife. I get it with the whole, our families are friends and they arranged our meeting, our wedding is going to come up next, our babies need to keep our post-royal front names enchilada but I'm not sure if the rest of the world cares much because if they have not heard, it's already the 21st Century where none of that bullshit matters be it sacred or not. That and the fact that he admits his flaws being a player and tries to get into other people's faces makes him lose 100 points up front. The least he could do was try to be efficient and work himself out of the mess instead of making things go haywire. Fine, the mess is between two girls (more like one girl, one germ) but it does not take away the fact that he is the major cause of the spill.
Especially for J.L - please hang on to your so-called principles in life because you're going to need it when everything comes crashing down on you like an asbestos ceiling filled with maggots. If you don't know what really went down, just assume that nothing happened. In this case, something did happen and you might want to confront your boyfriend first. The more he denies, the more you know he's lying. We all know what happened and you should too. We might not be the ones to tell you because we decided that it's better for you to stay in the shadows and not get yourself hurt. Someone else might be nice enough to tell you one day so right now, think about it.

YAY!

2008-04-02T09:37:00.000-07:00

New perfume for me thanks to the Don who was rushing his way through the airport and finally found the RL Pure Turquoise which I have long anticipated for. Initially I wanted the Armani Diamonds which I find to be exhilarating! It smells divine but I've heard people saying the first time you sniff it out, it smells gross - another second it smells good. Eh, the first time I whiffed it out, it was perfectly okay, okay? Lol.
Took Lucy out for a ride today because she was neglected at home with the Camry (I dont have a name for the Camry - think Kamri, pronounced "Kah-m-ry" would be lovely) Haha. Dear dear Lucy, I shall bring you for another spin tomorrow when I am free! And ohh my Lo-Rida is back from the workshop after fixing the drive shaft and what not. The drive shaft and the steering wheel did not go together so the peeps at the workshop had to do something about it. And right now, it's in wonderful condition, except the part where I have to bring it in for alignment purposes and cleaning the outside of it - it's got wood shavings all over the front hood. Aaah. No time getting the maid to do it because she does not understand shit. Then again there's always the car-washers but they never do a satisfactory job. Hence, I shall do it myself after sending Mum to the airport tomorrow, I hope.
Such a fine week for me. Minus the snide remarks certain people have been giving out to Ali like "Ooh Stephanie bought him that RL shirt, HAHA" or "Look he's lonely without his girlfriend!". To clear the air, no, my boyfriend does not need me to buy him any sort of apparel because apparently this time around, his beloved Dad can afford to get him clothes, unlike some other people whom I have come across. Nor do I need to shower him with gifts in order for him to smile and be happy because he's fine that way. And yes, his dear girlfriend is still around and looking out for him, so don't you people fret! Lol. Even if I have not made appearances 10 feet away from you, it's only because I've got much better things to do than bump into people whom I despise. Thank you very much. Oh, wait, I dont think these people would even know what RL stands for, because they're so famous with big words plastered all over. And well, shortcuts like RL, LV, MJ, BLV, BRB would have to be for bimbotic idiots like me, right? :D I know, I know, I should give people the opportunity to think that they deserve lots of attention from me isnt it? Only because they think it's so worth it!
There, I got that one off my chest (or breasts, whichever turns you on). I have dued photos of the Don's Fairlady, but I'll make sure I update them soon because his blog is restricted and it shall be my duty to show them off. The car is cute and I fell in love with it the first time I set eyes on it when the first orange one came out in Tone, what, 6 years back? Ah Nissan never fails to surprise. I also just noticed that his Dad may have gotten the car because of the Z on the side next to the fins. Another reason why Dad bought Lucy cause she's got an S on her sides. Sometimes, people scare me and it's not coincidental that the car has their initials on it. Just for the sake of something bearing their initials, they are driven to get it by hook or by crook, I suppose. Unlike me who only thrives to get what's on market and in store for myself even if it has a huge M on it, I wont mind (yes, my first name initial is S) so says the irony of it all.
Anyhoozer, let's put a big ass fullstop to my ranting because I on the other hand, am getting tired of typing out whatever it is I have to entertain anyone with.
Happy week, people, happy week!

Weekend Schmeekend.

2008-03-28T21:43:00.000-07:00

Baby's gone back to KL for the weekend due to his aunty's wedding today. Hope all goes well. And I hope he has fun being away from me, just for a few days. Haha.
Anyway, I've been experiencing the whole "same shit, different day" bazook which other people have been telling me about. The same, day in - day out, another morning (or afternoon) in my case to look forward to and it's been alright. Went out and about with Tha Ms. D last Thursday and we caught up on everything that's been involving ourselves (and other people) as well. We always have such fun even if we just lounge around like bums on a lazy afternoon, chilling with our drinks - D, no cream for me in anything, you know how ditzy I get after :p
Also, thinking of what to do after I publish this post. Either go out with one or two sisters - look, I've got so many to choose from! Or opt for a day out with some other peers which I haven't seen in forever (more like a month) but it still feels equal to forever because we were so tight back when I was still in Curtin. Lol.
But then again, I would feel so bad leaving Stesha for the afternoon. She just recently got chicken pox and her face is covered in little "pimples", even her mouth and ear are affected by it! My other younger sister got chicken pox the week before that so I'm sure Stesha got it from her. Everyone else had chicken pox already when we were younger so no one else is in danger of getting it. Though I'm in doubt if Ali ever got it and he's at our place almost every day. He asked his Mumma if he got it when he was younger and she said she didn't remember. Haha.
Anyhoozers, I've been contemplating on getting the MacBook Air when it gets launched in Brunei, probably in the near future. I've been using this darned iBook G4 ever since I can remember leaving high school and back then, having a Mac was a hassle, for people who got it and a big WOOOOH for people who were watching you use it. It still is now, don't get me wrong. There is not effing way you can crack any of the applications and even if it's merely possible, you have to download it on a torrent provider and still Mac gets fucked up and slow. There is no accelerator either for Mac for the time being. Apart from that, applications all run on the latest Leopard or Tiger. Whilst mine is downgrading to a 10.3.9 version. Damn it! So yes, I wish for a MacBook Air when it gets launched!
I also need a new phone seeing how my Nokia 7380 gives me problems. I hate replying messages on it, so whoever has text messaged me, I'm so sorry for not replying to your messages. Having a fucked up phone which is so not for communicating leads to a tendency of being too lazy to reload on juice. Therefore less commuting with other people who have been calling/texting me left, right and center. I'm opting for the Nokia N82 just because it reminds me of my last N91 and it is so bulky. I love bulky phones, dont ask me why I got the 7380, I only liked it for a period of time and now I'm getting so pissed off with it. I even hate the scrolling button cause bits of plastic have come off. I read about it on a Nokia forum before I bought the phone and now I'm sort of starting to regret it. I still love how the phone is so easy to carry around and accessible whenever I need it, to answer calls, that is. I get so happy when I reach for a phone which has actual buttons on it and start typing out endless messages non-stop. Lol. So much for being practical with a L'amour 7380. Right now I'm technically stuck with it until I persuade Daddy and start reasoning with him on why I should get a new phone. He has never been one to buy gadgets, so called boy toys. He's been with the same phone for a year now and I see other people's father's changing phones every two months, it's absurd! Thing is, the only phones he buys are Sony Ericsson ones and I've been a loyal Nokia user since the first time I've started being hung up on cellphones. He even buys his staff members phones and I dont get to choose, so I go out and buy my own phone with my own hard-saved dough! How miserable cause at the end of the day I start regretting every decision I've made on my purchases and purse.
Speaking of purses, I've spotted a lovely lush one from Gucci and I'm as sure as hell that the next round trip I get to Singapore or KL does not involve it. Everytime I go shopping with Daddy, he'll tell me to buy only things that I need and not things that I want. Oh crap, what is that about? So I tell him that I need practically a whole new wardrobe involving clothes, makeup, shoes, handbags and what not. Then he stares at me in amazement and tells me that I need everything. So why bother? In the end, I still get what I want even if it means nagging at him like crazy. I remember the last time I was in KL and I really wanted the Marc Jacobs Patchwork Stam which was going off for half price due to the season ending. And damn it, last minute I had to walk in with Mummy not being there and being busy with the new condo! Otherwise, I'm sure she would have swapped credits and I'd be a happy kid. On the plus side, I got the Marc by Marc Jacobs Quinn instead, which was a good thing. And Heathrow, oh Heathrow, why do you disappoint me by not having 50% off for Winter Sales when you should have! I would have been a happier kid if I got what I wanted. Nevermind that, cause I'm sure I will get the latest Stam by end of this year just for myself. Lol. (Happy kid mode on once again thinking of the goodies I'm going to land myself upon)
So yes, there's that bit of me being all materialistic again. Pictures of the Don's 350Z will be posted up soon once he gets back from his hometown. I have yet to make out my list of what he needs to get for me there. Pavilion, here I come - literally with another person's help!

Too Soon, Too Late.

2008-03-23T08:57:00.000-07:00

I MANAGED TO FIT THIS IN ON THE 23rd of March! Ngahaha. 2 more minutes to our 10th month anniversary being over. Thank goodness, otherwise he would have shot me for not being concerned about our love life :p
Yes, today was awesome (not just the fact that we've been together for 10 months) but also cause we spent time together - just as long as how we normally do everyday. Lol. So there isnt really a point to anything, right?
Went for din dins at Siamese Secrets, but then the only reason was to watch the Man U - Liverpool match because Ali can't watch it at home when my sisters are hogging the TV away from him. Half way throughout the game, this really cute kid waltzed in with his Thai mummy and Caucasian daddy. I think he was about 8 months old. He was uber cute! He kept pulling faces at Ali and he wouldnt look at me, at all. I didnt get bored though cause it was entertaining whilst I had nothing to do better rather than gluing my eyes on to the TV screen like a lousy Chelsea supporter. I dont even watch their matches anymore, what makes anyone think I will watch any other team's games? Pah! After a while, I guess the parents got bored with the kid interrupting their supper so they let him roam around the grounds. The kid eventually came up to me and touched my handbag, twisted and pulled on the knob and ran off giggling. He left me going "Aaaaaaaaaaah, grrrrrrrrrrrrrr, soooooooooooo cuteeeeeeeeeeeee! I WANT ONE I WANT ONE!" Lol.
Come to think of it, I've always been a sucker for babies. BABIES - not kids. Two different terms for two different sort of beings. I love it when they're at the age between 0-4 years old in the baby - toddler stage. Once they get above that, that's when it gets annoying. I remember when Stesha was a baby and she kept pulling odd faces at me and laugh hysterically like a little hyena. Oh, that was lovely. I know how people get annoyed when babies cry or laugh menacingly but I love the thought of making a child cry (I am so sorry) or making him/her laugh. There's nothing in the world which can beat the sounds of kids - not even Jimi Hendrix on his guitar LIVE. I'd take 10 babies over 10 whole concerts any time of the day or week. I'm not saying that Stesha's annoying NOW, she's really cute and lovable up until today. She's a sweetheart and I wish she was still 3 years old cause that's when I used to have more fun - now it's all about hogging the TV with her Totally Spies and Powerpuff Girls, giving comments on how somebody dresses and the lot. She grew up wayyyy too fast for my liking. Apparently, everyone else finds her to be a little devil just because she worms her way out of everything. This afternoon when she was watching her programs on the big screen (the area where Dad usually bunks), Dad had his F1 program going on and he came all the way in to get me to get Stesha away from the TV just because he couldnt do it, more like being afraid of his youngest daughter, see. The only weakness my Dad has is when it comes to Stesha.
Wait, wasnt I supposed to blog about my 10th month-sary? Lol. Right, so I got carried away on babies.
Anyhoozers, Baby, if you're reading this, I want the whole world to know how much I love you. It's been an incredible 10 months and I'm glad we made it this far. When I look back on the past, I see a troubled girl trying way too hard to get over the shit which happened and you took all that away by sheltering me and giving more companionship to me than anyone can. You took your time to understand me and from there, it developed into what we have now. Both of us know that nothing can separate us - only God and when the time comes, we'll both be ready for it. You've showed me what love really means, in my case, spoiling me too much whenever I nag or burst subtly. I know how I can get to be a rather painful experience in the rear end, but know that no matter what, my heart and soul is always yours.
I love the way you crinkle your nose. I love the way you crack my neck when it gets too stiff. I love the way your eyes become so chink-y when you smile. I love the way you whisper sweet nothings into my ear. I love how we can spend hours and hours talking on the phone in the wee mornings just because we can talk for RM1 per hour on Hotlink. I love how we lie around with nothing to do. I love how you let me nibble on you. I love how after I nibble on you, I get too greedy and start biting you really hard til I leave marks on your arms or fingers. I love how you cuddle me and tell me everything's going to be alright because you're always around when things go the slightest bit wrong. I love how you always try to make me happy when I have the case of nasties going around. I love when you try your best to surprise me but end up telling me instead cause I'm such a nag (and you know how well I hate surprises). I love how you spend time with my sisters and teach Stesha her spelling one on one. I love when you get me to be your alarm clock early in the mornings when you have class. I love how you carry my bag everywhere I go even if I can manage on my own. I love when you crack silly jokes in the car and we would laugh like mad people making people in other cars stare at us in amusement. I love how we can share our dirty little secrets at the end of the day and be so calm about it.
Look, there's just so many things I love about you even if I dont say it at all. You have been an amazing person since the day we met at the G3 staircase for a round of smokes while having our History class.
A big big big big big THANK YOU, dedicated especially for you - the love of my life and soul, Ali Amirul Aliff.

Happy 10th Month-sary, big boi!

Fair, Fair Lady

2008-03-22T06:19:00.001-07:00

Now here's something worth feasting eyes upon.
The Don's new ride - his new born baby. Indulge!

Though I'm am still unfortunate for not being able to ride in it seeing how I am stuck in boring, old Miri. Baby, let's ride away into the sunset in your lovely little lady. The license plate reads AGH77 in case anyone thinks it's a fake. NGAHAHAHAHAHAH. Oh, with 20" off-set rims too just cause it floats better that way.
More pictures to come - check his blog out too, or request access if your email is restricted.
RIGHT HERE and NOW.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Closure? Bullshit!

2008-03-22T05:22:00.000-07:00

When you write about someone and publicly letting them know what's on your mind without asking them what the hell is going on, does not sum it up to being closure.
I dont get how people can be so insecure especially when they do not know what's going down in the first place. So what if I have beef with shit loads of people just because they are in denial about themselves and I can judge a book better with or without the cover? (Okay, so I have been mislead occasionally) but most of the time I'm correct about how people are. E.g; the ones who take advantage and step on your head, the ones who borrow $$$ off you and pretend like your purse is their bank account, the ones who you do favours for and have the courage to say shit about you and the ones who don't like you just because you are dating someone in their social circle - what's with the "Oh, I knew him first, you should stay away from him!" cock?
I prefer to mind my own business, but when someone asks me for advice and ways to get over their own miserable lives, I tend to help them out a bit too much, and then they feel like it's their every right to tell everyone what I think of them, be it right or wrong resulting in me avoiding them for the rest of my life.
Friends? Who needs friends when they make your life a living hell already? No point of going all the way down there if you've experienced it in a class of it's own with you realizing it. A lot of people refer to me as their "friend" but guess what, I don't refer to someone who I've spoken less than a sentence to as my friend. Nor do I refer to someone who thinks I'm a bitch or a slut, theoretically and acts like they're chummy with me as friends. I've got acquaintances, probably more than I can count - and that's what really matters. Cause, see, acquaintances can still be nice to you without ever letting you know how they really feel about you and be okay with it instead of crying to the whole world that this and that person grouped up to pin point bad facts about them. Let's just say, I've always just liked being in the spot where I dont have to commit to anyone by being their friends. At least, I'm not in the dark about it by being a hypocrite and let them know how I really feel about them. I, on the other hand, can never give ten fucks about what someone has to say about how I look/the way I dress/the things I do etc.
Good friends? The word GOOD does not exist in my dictionary because there is no such thing as someone who's a good friend. Either way, they're bound to say something about you whether you like it or not, so there.
People I hold on to dear life for - now there's a term worth looking into. I've got my own digits and they know who they are, these people are both categorized under family and friends, the way I like it to be. I don't like to rank people on how much I love them because my heart is still an ocean of love and care to hand out to. What's the point of liking someone more because they look better, or they speak better English, or they have more money than the other person does? No point at all, if you ask me. Though there's this misdemeaning nature of mine where I protect my family more than others, of course because as the saying goes "Blood is after all thicker than water". People who know me well enough know that the love I have for them has always been unconditional and if they have a problem with it on their side, I'll drop them off in a second, never to speak to them ever again.
People have said that the way I go not being in talking terms with another person is childish and immature. I beg to differ, because I have never seen a point of talking to someone who does not fancy me and vice versa. If we have nothing in common (except for the fact that we show each other how much we hate each other) then why speak to the person? I ignore them the best I can because that is the only thing to do, right? There wont be an end to conflicts of interest and what not because everyone has their own principles and beliefs. Not everyone is meant to like you and I can definitely live with that. The more does not make it all the merrier - it just sucks the life out of you once you know how human beings really are. I dont try to act all goody goody and innocent like because that's not who I am. I rebel and I get too blunt, plus I point out flaws - not something a lot of people can live with. The best thing is, I recognize my personal flaws and that's why I have the mouth to word it out. It never means that I see myself as a perfect person, and I have never tried to be, either. Nor do I see myself as a far superior person compared to anyone else, though I'm sure it'll be pretty hard to find another who's in my league leading the steps I walk in. Whatever I have to say means what it means and it ends there, not because I see so far into the future to make snide remarks for the fun of it. Fullstop.

If anyone has anything to say whatsoever, here's a bitch in her right mind to process everything without having her emotions intact. Chiiaz!

Stolen Pictures from http://iseebutts.blogspot.com

2008-03-21T11:51:00.000-07:00

Ngahahahahahah. I stole pictures off Shereen's blog cause I'm so lazy to take my own pictures. That, and some really top of the rank stupid asshole broke my camera LCD right after I got it for my 18th birthday from the folks so it's pretty disposed (and I have no idea where it is, should be around my messy room, somewhere) and I never got the chance to get the darn thing repaired!

Shereen's room is now officially a kitten pen. That's where all the kittens and mummy cat sleeps in the cupboard so comfortably. Lucky cats! I wish I had a cupboard to sneak into. The last picture of the kittens are of them running around the room because the cupboard door was left wide open for them to roam around in. Imagine them 2 weeks from now when they wobble less :x. Kittens galore! Gucci gave birth end of last month. There are six kittens entwined within the picture. The orange one is called Ginger or Gingerbread for the time being until we find a better name for it cause Stesha obviously cannot decide on what to call it and Mum hates the name, she claims it too common. Think about it, everyone has at least ONE orange cat called Ginger, is it because they are ginger-like? But ginger is NOT orange. Beats me. I hate the taste of ginger, exception towards ginger beer and ginger ale cause it tastes divine. The big, burly, white one is Spencer - I HATE THE NAME, hello it does not look like a Spencer to me, it looks more like a Bulldozer. In fact, that's exactly what it does - it bulldozes the other fellow kittens when anyone else has it's spot on the Mummy's tits. Now, the smallest white one is called Daisy - she's so frail and weak and has scratches all over her head and body. The black one and two gray ones are unnamed because no one has names to call them yet until we find out what their sexes really are. Although my mom thinks the all-gray one is Sweetie and annoys me when she keeps cooing her name. So, we're keeping three of the kittens and we've already found homes for Sweetie and Daisy. Anyone up for grabs on the black one? I'm sure no one wants or needs a black cat due to superstition, they say. Bollocks! (We're not keeping it cause we've already got one silly black cat, Salem plus we're only letting the black one go after a couple of months to trusted cat-owners who can provide them with a proper and decent home). By the way, the pictures are specially uploaded for Aisha because she was so eager to see how the kittens look like, there you go darling! Can't wait to see you when I see you, very soon, I hope :D

That's my hot mommy looking very pretty before her night out with her girls. Doesnt she look lovely, lovely? I love how she picked out an all-black outfit to make her look so much younger than how old she really is (no, I'm not telling how old my mom is). The best Mumma on the planet - always catching us when we fall! NO, she's NOT OLD EITHER!

Now, see I love this picture most cause Ali's car is in it! HAHAHAHAH. Oops. Not really car material with a MyVi when his Dad just got him a brand new Nissan 350Z back home and I know he anticipates the day when he goes back so he can get his armpits in the drivers seat of his new car. Lucky boy. He's not even willing to sell his Baby Swift instead giving it to his second sister, perhaps? He's going to forget his roots when he starts cruising me around in his Fairlady when I get my ass there, I'm triple sure of it. Though it's a downgrade for me cause the first time I was in KL with him, he was driving his lavish pearl white BMW 5-series and I never got to hitch a ride in his Phantom or Bentley! One day, baby, one day - tell your Dad Teffie wants his Phantom and I'm going to own it! Lol.

Right, so if Shereen has anymore pictures to show and tell, I will, with no second thoughts grab them from her especially if she has pictures of me in it so I can show the whole world how entirely fat I've grown!

Get A Life!

2008-03-21T10:44:00.000-07:00

Post note : The title above has nothing to do with offending any party of any sort. Lol.

And it has everything to do with this. I just recently purchased the boxset of CSI:Miami Season 4 - damn these DVD whole selling syndicates - I've got another 2 seasons to watch and I can hardly wait to get my hands on them.
Seeing how I've got so much free time on my hands, I am rather capable of not having a life anymore. I've been brain boozing on the whole of season 4 for 2 days now and I've been dragging my sisters along with me on my little trip to the fabulous shores of Miami. I've got enough CSI knowledge in my head that I think it's going to burst anytime soon. Just before the season finale tonight I remembered saying "If I watch one more episode I swear I'm going to go mad" so yes, I did watch the season finale and I DID NOT GO MAD. I wish I did cause that would stop me blowing money on more DVDs. Aaaah. Have I mentioned that I cannot wait to get my mitts on Season 5 & 6? It is so addictive.
It was less fun though cause my sisters watched most of the episodes on AXN already and they kept spoiling it for me. I was glad I shut them out of my head. Horatio Caine appeared so much in front of my eyes to the point I think I may have nightmares of him tonight. I still cant believe his wife died in the end - sorry for spoiling it for the rest of you (if you havent watched it, that is)
While getting my hands on the CSI:Miami boxset, I also sneaked a boxset of the CSI:Las Vegas Season 5 on the counter. Bwahahahah! It isnt the latest season though. At least I'm still going to pig out and enjoy it. Trust me, all the CSI boxsets are worth getting! Next up has got to be the New York ones cause I swear I hardly watch it on AXN anymore, even if I know for a fact cause I glimpsed on the set that Aiden dies after she left CSI. Spoiler!
I've also developed a major crush on Adam Rodriguez - yes, wasnt that expected - who plays Eric Delko on Miami. Guffawww. I still cant believe how uptight he's become after he got shot, stupid git! He's so swoony and good enough to devour, honestly. Okay, fine so he has a reputation with sleeping with every hot woman in sight on the show, so what. The writers are trying to portray just how good he looks, right?
Hahaaaa, this really possible thought just popped through my head. I want to get a holiday beach house on the shores of Miami and be a stuck up spoilt brat driving my very own Lamborghini Murcielago! Grrrrr. How tempting even if it wont happen just yet. Ohh. United States of America, how I love the ideas you boost up in this over ambitious head of mine! I may not like how the Americans commute themselves, but I would migrate if I had the chance. It has always been a dream of mine to reside in the Hills of L.A. and just settle down with someone I love. Now who says money cant buy everything? (No, that's just the reaaaaallyy materialistic person within me taking charge) I know, no one has to tell me twice - the lifestyles of the rich and famous, really, really is my thing, isnt it? Bwahahahahahahah.
Anyway, if anyone enjoys watching CSI the way I do, grab the boxsets of the seasons you've missed out cause it definitely gives you that extra kick (also ideas on how to get away with murder and concealing your footsteps!)

Now, SHOO! Everyone's got the dirt on what I've been doing for the past few days. Go get a life instead of sticking your eyes on the screen viewing my blog like nobody's business :p

Stupid Navel!

2008-03-19T10:29:00.003-07:00

Referring to the above, I find piercings to be a nuisance and I've been meaning to get rid of my navel piercing but it haunts me to know that I would have a hole in my previously umbilical cord area and it would make no difference otherwise. People have been saying that it would get thinner and I'd end up with a piece of skin flapping around my belly button if I leave the stud dangling on. How stupid! I didnt know it was possible plus I was unsure so I hit panic mode and called my piercer up - he said it was absurd and nothing of the sort would happen because once the area thins up, there's a limit to it and it stays there - being thin (without the flapping part, mind you). I trust my fellow piercer cause he's professional, okay? Dont give me bullcrap saying he aint no doctor or summat. So there, I shall leave it as it is, but then what if I wanted the lower area of my navel to be pierced instead next month? Aaaah. Decisions, decisions! For the time being, I think, I shall just take the stud off and wait for a few weeks - if it doesn't close up by then, I'll squish the stud back in and maybe, I'll be happy. That particular piercing has memories etched to it cause the time I got it when I was 15, I fainted right after and my dear dear cousins carried me! Kaly didnt even want the two professional piercers to touch me cause I remember her saying that she was the only one I trusted! Bwahahahah.
Yes, people. I faint when I get pierced with needles. I overcame the fear only after I got my nose pierced numerous times and I sort of, put it this way, became fearless of needles. Okay, maybe not so cause I still dread doctors and needles altogether. Every time I think about the doctor wording out the word "Injection", I go into a fit of epilepsy. I try my very best NOT to get poked by any of his needles no matter how big or how small. The only time I was alright with a doctor injecting me was when I got my braces done few years back and the dentist had to extract my teeth out. And the only reason for that was because I was lying down and my eyes were closed! The minute I knew he had a needle with him, I jerked around but unfortunate enough, he managed. It was ghastly! The pain was crucifying though it wasnt really the pain which mattered cause it went numb right after. It's the sensation of the needle going through which makes it too horrible to think about.
I was checking out a phobia list, and I've got two phobias up to date! Beats me joining Fear Factor, ever. Though the thought of eating durians for the second challenge would be alright. I'm Aichmophobic and Claustrophobic! Aichmophobic being scared of needles and claustrophobic being scared of confined spaces. I hate needles and I hate closed spaces! The one thing I can never imagine myself doing is getting buried alive. Ugh. The horrrror.
There's loads more of other phobias on the list, everyone should take list of what their phobias are so they wont sound so stupid when they go "I'm scared of this, this, this and this, but I dont know what the term is!". In case this ever happens to you, check the list out. And dont forget to take note!

AI 7 Updates.

2008-03-18T04:44:00.000-07:00

I haven't been keeping up to date with my blog regarding the issue of the American Idol contestants - so here it is. This will be long and winding, for anyone who is anti-Idol, please do not read if you have nothing nice to say. Reality shows are cliche, I get it, everyone has preferences of their own, no one needs to be a sore loser just because they enjoy soap operas like the OC more.
So there are 11 contestants left, 1 more getting voted off this week - David Hernandez left last week prior to his, I believe, scandal being a gay strip dancer, sorta made me have flashbacks about Hunter Daniel ; male model and Chippendale's boychik on the male version of ANTM, Manhunt which aired on TV ages ago. Despite all that, at least Hernandez's fans had no obligations whatsoever with him being a stripper - big thumbs up! Alas, he didnt last long enough for the show to let him flaunt all his stripping/vocal skills.
This part will be about those who left AI within the last 2 weeks. First off, the Americans pissed me off by not voting for Asia'h Epperson leaving her no choice but to make a beautiful stage exit - I still stand my ground by saying Kristy Lee Cook should have been shooed off, long time ago when the only song she could sing was Amazing Grace - bollocks! She had a pretty face on stage, they say. I say Asia'h looked better on and off stage no matter what. Poor thing did an awesome job and represented for the mixed heritages everywhere and they had to just cut her off from the show. Rumours be told, the only reason why Cook made it through was because she's from Oregon, where most AT&T subscribers come from and poor Epperson resides in southern Jasper County of Missouri. Not really fair though - they still had a chance of voting and blew it all off on some blonde headed country bumpkin who only knows how to spread her legs real wide for the camera - word has it she's a hooker back home as well. Not that I would know, but then again, the media says all kinds of shit to attract people.
I was relieved when Danny Noriega left though I know a handful of people who loved him like poo. I still dont know why. The show is, after all, called American Idol. America being one of the largest countries in the world and also most influential. American Idol being the most watched show all over the globe. That sums it all up to the question "Do you want your little boys growing up into a queer like Noriega?". I hope the answer is no, if it's the latter then cut your pubes up - if you have the moolah, get an operation done so you can never give birth, really. And that's why he didnt make it - I mean it's fine being a little weird but being too publicly flamboyant when you're a guy, might as well join Queer Eye for the Straight Guy and not try to be everyone's idol, it's disgusting. There are homosexuals at every turn of a corner you make and know that for instance, they don't need to flaunt their sexualities in absurd manners to please or displease anyone. For the record, I do not look down on homosexuals nor do I have anything against them. I just dont think it's healthy for young kids to have to look up to someone who goes against the natural being of mankind during their phases of growing up. Once they become full grown adults and prefer sausages to tacos, then hey, it's their problem - not anyone else's. So let's just leave it at that.
And this part here, will be about those who are still in and going. Amanda Overmyer got a little bit sloppy after her second performance. She was shrieky, whiny and I just wanted the whole thing to end after watching her perform last week. I loved her the first time around but now I just think she's annoying - fun to watch, good to listen to especially when it comes to rock music but then again, not everyone listens to rock and she is definitely not versatile either when it comes to choosing songs. The producers should really do something about her hair and makeup, her wardrobe is a malfunction and her whole image just blows the top off in a really bad way. Fine, so she has the rocker chick attitude and needs the same style to match it with - they can do better for her. One time, Simon Cowell made a remark about her hair and outfit, I think he was in his right mind. Because she really did resemble a very blah clown.
Then there's Brooke White - very simple looking. Her voice doesn't stand out much, don't get me wrong - her voice is lovely. But then a lot of new and different people are coming up who sounds the same and it's becoming a trend to sound very mellow and down. E.g: Colbie Caillat, Norah Jones etc. And that's exactly how Brooke White is. She'll do great with a singing career and she won't disappoint either.
Carly Smithson - wooh. Look at her. From being almost deported after her last audition to Season 7. She's doing pretty well, isnt she? She's got rather piercing eyes which mesmerizes everyone watching her sing her lungs out. Good voice, good looks, impressive tattoo sleeve - all the best to her getting up to the finals!
Chikezie Ezie still reminds me of Icecube! And he is cute. He has an incredible voice - though his sense of style makes me cringe just for a bit cause I dont think it's THAT important for the show - come on, look at Randy's red sandals. So why not the red suit for his first performance Simon? Old fashion, I have to admit but it was on target for the theme, no? Well whatever Simon said about the first time Chikezie appeared on stage hasnt helped out much whether anyone likes it or not. And I thought African-American males should have at least a better sense of style!
The cutie, and hell, I'm being biased, my favourite who I'm sure is going to win American Idol Season 7, David Archuleta - I love him! What else can I say? I'm a sucker for cute boys with perfect everythings. Archuleta woos everyone who sets eyes on him. I am 120% sure that he's got the title in his grasp cause if he doesnt I swear American Idol is fucked up. Fine, he may have had it made for him already being the champion of Hollywood's Star Search at the age of 10 onwards but he really deserves being an Idol and I'm sure a lot of people agree as well - too bad the voting system only enables Americans to do it, otherwise all my hard-spent cash would definitely go to filling up mobile credit so AT&T can get richer by the second.
David Cook. What's with the contestants having same first and last names altogether round up on one show? It works though, cause now no one can forget who and who cause someone's bound to like this guy (and the rest of the Davids + the Cook girl) I dont know but the ex-bartender charade makes him look unpresentable, and the doorag he sticks on his back pockets shows just as much. I cant conceal the fact that he's pretty good though, compared to the rest of the guys who left. Cook's versatile and turns classics into newborn breed genres. The judges certainly enjoyed all his performances and so did the fans! I would like to see him move on towards the final even if he isnt one of my favourites, I just think he has absolute genuine talent and probably the most realistic contestant on the show who's just doing it for the sake of being on American Idol.
Who else rocks out on dreadlocks and still manages to woo the crowd apart from Jason Castro? Just him, of course. I've never heard anyone with a more pure and innocent voice. It feels heaven when you listen to the lyrics of the songs he lullabies while looking at his face. He may not be the best looking guy ever, but those eyes - yes, those eyes. Deceiving as it may be, he is utter bliss when he starts singing. The snippets I've gotten off the Internet of his songs just make him look like a baby trying to hold a note at every turn he makes. I wanted to say that I also hope he makes it to the finals, but then if I hope for everyone on the Top 11 to make it, then it wouldnt really be any competition now, would it?
Let's just leave Kristy Lee Cook out of the list because I did express how I felt about her when I two-timed her and Asia'h Epperson earlier on. I still scorn when I think about what happened and I sure as hell won't give and praise Kristy Lee Cook just yet. I repeat, country country country equals to boring boring boring. Fine, an exception for Bo Bice only because he was adorable.
Awwwwwwwwww. And then there's the older guy of the group, originally Aussie Michael Lee Johns. He's the lead singer of the band Film and people who's really into Johns should google the band up. They're based in California and conceive wicked choons! Has anyone else notice the way Michael Johns sing with his two hands all over the place or next to his face? I find it irresistable! It's probably some obsessive compulsive thing but it works, hey. He made it down in history when he sang Bohemian Rhapsody and Light My Fire - burning down the original singers. He did not do so well for the fourth week though but he sure got back up and chased everyone else down. Sometimes, I think, the judges find it hard to hide who they're favourites are. Next to David Archuleta, Michael Lee Johns is the bomb too. I wish there was ever a competition where two people can take home first place :p
Good things come in small packages - the exact thing I thought when Ramiele Malubay opened her mouth for the auditions. She has got to have one of the most powerful voices I've ever heard in my life and she's teeny weeny! Too bad her song choices are always wrong though. She either picks out songs which are too boring or the ones which dont show off her vocals, at all. Her father seems to have more fun than her at her performances too everytime the camera puts him on the line.
Last on the list, Syesha Mercado. I was impressed when she sang Aretha Franklin's Chain of Fools with that sore throat of hers. I guffawed and my jaw practically hung open, and I started thinking "WTF! She does not have a sore throat - aaaaah. No one can sing like that if they have a frog in their throats!" We wont ever know now, will we, if she was faking it to gain sympathy from the judges? Let bygones be bygones because she aced it. She's still acing it now and I vouch for her to be one of the girls in the finals.
There you have it. All the 11 contestants summed up into one post - be it good or bad, I wish the best of luck to all of them and whoever gets voted off this week can always try again the next time around. Come on America - make those votes count, help the rest of us out who can't vote!

This Instant

2008-03-10T21:26:00.000-07:00

I am glad I don't burst out into spontaneous combustion anymore the way I used to throw tantrums and fling everything around. It was once upon a time when things like laptops, phones and remote controls needed to be replaced every now and then. Unfortunately, I still raise my voice and shout when I get aggravated especially for things that I find non sensible.
Controlling my temper has been a hard thing to do and I am wiser by the second regarding everything it's worth. I just wish though that I don't automatically scowl and frown when I do so. Luckily, there's always the blog which keeps me sane and whatever I have in mind goes on dedicated. I tried note, hate, flame books but they don't work so well only because my hand gets tired after a while of gripping the pen so hard the tip normally breaks when I press it down. What more pencils - I would not like to think of the outcome. Thank God for technology and with one tap of the keyboard, it works wonders. Plus, you get to jot down everything much more accurately without an eraser or correction pen (I personally hate erasing stuff, even with the backspace, I occasionally don't press it and just let typos go on hanging).
See. After two paragraphs, my blood pressure has gone on a full down low and I can't think of any angry thoughts - at all! Hurrah for me, really. In the past, anyone who knows me a little bit too well knows how my mood swings can be a little too much but honestly, I think I've changed a lot since that certain period where it happened oh so often my energy level used to hit ZERO as soon as the adrenaline stopped pumping.
I miss my cousins like poop. The only time I don't (I mean cannot, at all) get mad is when they're around. We have so much on common grounds that whenever we feel the urge to hyper ventilate at something or rather someone, we calm ourselves down by having bitching sessions, hell, think of it as a sin, at least it makes us feel so much better. After all, everyone does it anyway. One way or another, try not to procrastinate or in harsher words turn out to be a hypocrite and think of yourselves as such angels just because you read the word bitch and instead thinking of whores and sluts. Not very nice, now, are we?
See where I'm going? Not very nice when I always like things to be hassle-free and shooed in whenever I want it to. To sum everything up, I'm sure everyone had a good read and some, can I say some? Just want to dip my head in a bowl of toilet water, grin and run away in glee. Hurrah!

Soundtrack of My Life

2008-03-04T19:43:00.000-08:00

Nothing interesting going around lately, so minus all that I've found some interesting tags which I can put up without tagging anybody.

here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...just type it in man!

Opening Credits:
John Legend - Live It Up

Waking Up:
Janet Jackson featuring Nelly - Call On Me (I do not want to know the significance to this)

First Day At School:
Audioslave - Your Time Has Come (Now, this I can relate to!)

Falling In Love:
Richard Ashcroft - Break The Night With Colour

"The Relationship":
Suede - Beautiful Ones

Fight Song:
Jamelia - Superstar

Breaking Up:
Steven Tyler - Misery

Prom:
Barry White - Let's Get It On

Life:
John Mayer - Waiting On The World To Change

Mental Breakdown:
Bob Sinclar - Together

Driving:
The Rolling Stones - Sympathy For The Devil

Flashback:
Buju Banton - I Dont' Know Why

Getting Back Together:
Whitesnake - Is This Love

Wedding:
Ja Rule - Always On Time

Birth of Child:
Macy Gray - Finally Made Me Happy

Final Battle:
The Rolling Stones - Wild Horses

Death Scene:
Stevie Wonder - Signed, Sealed, Delivered

Funeral Song:
Kid Rock - You Never Met A Mofo Like Me

End credits:
Godsmack - I'm Doing The Best That I Can

Anyone who feels like doing this can go ahead and be my guess, everything is coincidental - it made me scorn and think of the possibilities! T'was fun while it lasted.

What goes up, must come down, or off in this post.

2008-02-28T09:10:00.000-08:00

SKIN CARE

What facial cleanser do you use?

At the moment, it's Kiehl's Brightening Botanical Cleansing Cream

What toner do you use?

Kiehl's Calendula Herbal Toner

What moisturizer do you use?

Kiehl's Brightening Botanical Moisture Fluid for both day and night

What mask do you use?

Crabtree & Evelyn's La Source Peel Off Mask

How many times a day do you wash your face?
Everytime I shower, which would be 3 times a day.

Do you use eye makeup remover?
Of course.

If so, What kind?

BeneFit's Gee...That Was Quick!

Is your skin oily, dry, or combination
skin?:
I've got a combo of oily and dry skin. Oily in the T-Zone areas and dry on other parts

What is the best part about your skin?
Nothing that I can think of except for being naturally and enhanced tanned

What are your skin problems?
I don't really have skin problems. But the worst I've encountered was acne on my cheeks and back when I was in high school then it all vanished after my hormones started stabling down. Apart from that, I break out during my menstrual cycle and get pimple scars occasionally! Ugh.

Makeup

What foundation do you use?

BeneFit's Non-Fiction Liquid Foundation in Medium

DiorSkin Forever Extreme Wear Flawless Liquid Foundation in Medium

What powder do you use?
Stila Illuminating Powder in Tan

DiorShow Powder in Spotlight Peach

BeneFit's Dr Feelgood

What eyebrow pencil do you use

Paul & Joe Eyebrow Pencil in Translucent

Dior Powder Eyebrow Pencil in Sand

BeneFit's High Brow

What eyeliner do you use?

M.A.C Liquid Eye Liner in Boot Black

M.A.C Powerpoint Eye Pencil in Tealo, Buried Treasure and Engraved.

M.A.C Eye Liner in Phone Number, Ebony and Pale Yellow.

Dior Waterproof Eye Liner in Trinidad Black

Stila Smudge Pots in Brown and Black

What is your favorite eyeshadow?

Diorissime Eye Palette in Brown

M.A.C Royal Assets in Warm Eyes

M.A.C Eye Shadow in Black Tied, Humid, Mystery, White Frost, Aquadisiac and Steamy.

Stila's Smokey Eyes in Classic

What mascara do you use?

M.A.C Plush Lash in Plushblack

BeneFit's Bad Gal Lash in Black

Estee Lauder Projectionist Mascara in Black

Chanel Extracils Mascara in Noir

What are your favorite lip
balms/glosses/sticks?:

BeneFit's California Kissin'

Stila Lip Pots in Rouge and Summer

M.A.C Royal Assets in Coral Lips

M.A.C Viva Glam Range

What highlighter/bronzer/blusher do you use?

BeneFit Moon Beam for highlighting cheeks

YSL Touche Eclat Instant Highlighter for different parts of the face

Stila's Sun Powder Bronzer

The Body Shop Loose Powder/Bronzer in Brazilian Bronze

Stila Convertible Color in Peony

Stil Rouge Pots in Freesia and Lotus

What concealer do you use? And where do you normally purchase brushes from, if so, what kind?

Bobbi Brown Cream Concealer

BeneFit's Lyin' Eyes Concealer for undereye and dark circles

Hair

Do you color your hair?
Proudly, yes!

At home?
Both at the salon and at home.

At the salon?
Refer to the above.

What is your stylists name?
Serina and Paul.

What salon do you go to?
Alan and Serina, Paul and Jennifer.

What is your natural hair color?
Dark brown

What is your hair color now?
Dark Brown with Plum highlights

Do you have straight or curly hair?
Straight when I was younger, wavy now.

Do you use a curling iron?
On occasion, yes.

A straightener?
Every day when possible

What kinds?
Babyliss and some Korean brand.

Do you use a blowdryer?
Unfortunately, no.

Do you use gel and if so, what kind?
No, I dont but I use daily vitamin spray from Bed Head called Health Goddess

Do you use mousse, and if so, what kind?
No, I dont.

What shampoo do you use?
I use Bed Head's Dumb Blonde Shampoo. I used to use Bed Head Manipulator Shampoo and Conditioner but they discontinued the product!

What conditioner do you use?
Bed Head Dumb Blonde Reconstructor

Do you use leave in conditioner?
Bed Head Ego Boost Leave-In

Scents

What deodorant do you use?
Lady Speed Stick

What body wash do you use?
Waitrose Pomegranate and Passion Fruit or Neutrogena Rainbath or Umi Pistachio Shower Mousse

Do you use a loofah, washcloth or soap
to wash?:
Loofah!

What perfumes do you use or like? Name five:
Salvatore Ferragamo Incanto Charms, Ralph Lauren Turquoise, Escada Island Kiss, Burberry Tender Touch, J.Lo Miami Glow

Do you always have to smell good?
Not really, no.

Jewelery

Are diamonds really a girl's best friend?
Yes, I love BLING!

What is your jewelery essential?
Earrings

What jewelery do you wear most?
Personal necklace, earrings, belly ring and nose stud.

What jewelery do you crave most?
Juicy Couture bangles, defo!

Purses and Shoes

How many purses do you own?
I'm not into purses, I like carrying my cash stuffed in the bag.

Which is your favorite?
Probably my white Coach retro one.

How many shoes do you own?
I don't count :s

Which pair is your favorite?
My wedge collection.

Who is your favorite handbag designer?
Marc Jacobs

Who is your favorite shoe designer?
Jimmy Choo, Baby Phat, Marc Jacobs and Manolo Blahnik.

This or that;

Manolos or Jimmy Choos?
Both, I'm having a hard time choosing.

Dolce and Gabbana or Chanel?
Chanel, yes!

Micheal Kors or Bebe?
Micheal Kors

Louis Vuitton or Coach?
Coach

Gucci or Prada?
Can I please have both?

Miscellaneous

Favorite Magazine to read?
Harper's Bazaar

Favorite nail polish?
Sally Hansen and OPI

Favorite Book?
Anything from Dan Brown

Are you high maintenence?
I would like to think not, but facing the fact is I am.

Second Round of AI7

2008-02-27T10:14:00.000-08:00

Everyone else was crap except for David Archuleta who scored big time on John Lennon's Imagine. I almost teared up. And he did so much better than how he did 5 years ago!
Even Michael Lee Johns did not do so well because some of his notes were off pitch - everyone else, pah, everyone else!
I recorded the show only because my kitty kat was already giving birth to her babies - imagine all six of them sucking on her nipples right now. Ugh.
I forwarded all the other performances until I came to David Archuleta and I was amazed the way I was since the audition. YOU GO DAVID, WE LOVE YOU!

All his videos are definitely going on my iPod! I'll be putting them on repeat until it actually brainwashes me :D

Save Who?

2008-02-23T10:19:00.001-08:00

I paused a few seconds before interpreting what she was trying to tell me. Now I feel the gut-feeling you get when you feel nauseas and disgusted.
Call me a hypocrite or a backstabber. I will not mind. Because unlike some other people, I do not wish to have anything to do with a person whom I dislike. Even saying "Hi" or plastering a fake smile does not work me wonders. I guess I have that "fuck off" face which people tell me I have and at least, I benefit from it instead of letting someone step on my head, "just because".
I was not surprised when Person A told me that Person B was giving me a bad rep. I laughed and shrugged it off, no doubt seeing how I know that I cannot be bothered by something which does not affect me. And to think that I have put up with our friendship for 10 years including the time spent where she would continuously tell me how "hot" I am and how no one comes close. I'm sorry but those are not the things I need or want to hear from a girl. I do not even see myself as being a lesbian or a person of dual-sexualities. Come to think of it, those are not even the things I want a guy friend to tell me because it makes me think that he's just an old pervert who takes advantages of his friendships.
Maybe it's just the fact that I've been hanging out with Person A who comes from afar whom I just recently got close to because her boyfriend is like a brother to me. So what if Person A can be demanding and likes me better even if we just got to know each other, right? Maybe we had more chemistry than I ever did with Person B and to be honest, I dont think I've ever liked Person B from the beginning to the end (I have put a halt to our friendship). The things she says just makes me roll my eyes most of the time anyway. The one thing which I still cannot get over is the fact that she said I have forgotten my roots (Back to the first paragraph of the post - this was what I was playing in my head), now how, I wonder have I forgotten my roots? I am still here, living under my parents roof trying to give the best I can being their eldest daughter. And I have not disappointed them in other bits and parts of life where I dont come home drunk or stoned to the point that I drop dead on the floor from the excitement. I would not ever consider myself a person who is "cultured shock" because I've seen and experienced and I didnt like it, so why does it bother her anyway to make a remark of that sort? Does she have no other insult to make up of me? It's pathetic the way people are in denial of how they really are and pin points it on another person just to feel better about themselves.
Wait. That comes to exactly it. I bitch, of course I do, I would be lying if I said I don't enjoy it either. But of course, there is a limit to it, plus I only speak of facts and nothing out of the ordinary like "She tried to commit suicide by jumping off a building" and the next thing you know, that person is still alive and kicking like the jumping part never happened. See?
So coming back to Person B - I would never consider us being friends from the first day she told her mom that she did not like me because "her dad has a lot of cars and they live in a big house". She does not have to make it so utterly obvious that she is jealous of me when she should have just kept that to herself in order for me to actually find out why. Jealousy is a major thing especially when it comes to being friends - I like to think of myself as fortunate and not in the rules of the rich and famous. I get jealous too but I curb it only to encourage myself to do the same and be another's equal. I have not suffered from the green-eyed monster ever since I decided to grow up and get over "the kid in my class who has a new paintball set, with full-faced gear included" mind you. What I still do not understand is why she pushes so much to be nice to me and be my friend when she obviously does not like me the way I do not like her.
So yes, I will stay away from her as much as I possibly can and not reply to her messages or answer her calls even if the idea of her family being a family friend of ours is at stake. I am in my right mind with a sharp tongue to confront her but her face in my head right now smiling so innocently is pulling on my strings and I just want to flush her down the toilet with shit in it. I can be that nasty. So sue me.
I am so fucking done with the fake camaraderie going on since Day 1 and I am bidding adieu. So GOODBYE.

Elimination Night

2008-02-22T09:22:00.000-08:00

I was happy the 3 contestants got shooed out except for Joanne Borgella who had an awesome voice and resembles my cousin, Nisa a lot - probably another reason to like her so much.
Apart from that, it was not worth watching the rest of them sing to their tributes.
PAH.

Laugh Out Loud Hilarious

2008-02-20T06:22:00.000-08:00

I just saw someone or something and it made laugh hysterically and thank God I was not in the "shoes she wore", anymore!
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Now, talk about karma biting back at you like a rabid unspayed dog on your butt.
I shall not comment further because I want to keep it in suspense. Plus, I dont think anyone would have the stomach to eat after seeing what I saw. For a slight second it reminded me of double dipping and I was grossed out as ever - note, not amused!
Then again,
GAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA.

Linky Love Trail

2008-02-18T03:12:00.000-08:00

This linky love trail rules:-When you got tagged, you have to add your name to people who had done the tag and and let the list grow!

Those Who Dunnit
Limadang.com
RamblingMoo.com
blogginginmypyjamas
StylewithPassion
ChinneeqDora-zooropazoo
BabyshernFarah (me
)Bani gundu
Frankensteina
Diyanazman
Najmyhana ni mo naiLindoshSlebetcepoterh
UmmYdayana
ELLE LIZA~
Scarlet Kiss
Sycosuchitra
woobee
ArcAngelD
Baby Jee
Beach Bum

II
First Name - Stephanie
Nickname – Beach Bum
Name you wish you had - Venus or Aphrodite, lol
What do people normally mistake your name as – Step, as in Step by Step?
Birthday – 18 November 1987
Birthplace – Birkenhead, Liverpool
Time of Birth – Never bothered to ask, really
Single or taken – Taken, yo
Zodiac sign - Scorpio

Your Appearance-
How tall are you – 5'6"
Wish you were taller – NO
Eye color – Brown
Eye color you want – GREEN
Natural Hair color - Brown
Current Hair color – Burgundy
Short or long hair – Long
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color – The worst I've did was go blonde
Curly,Straight,Wavy - Straight, defo.
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair – cant recall when
Glasses or contacts – Contact lens, please!
Do you wear make-up – Yes, why not?
Ever had hair extensions – No, but I shall plan on doing so.
Paint your nails – Yeh

-In the opposite gender-
What color eyes – amethyst, green or gray
What color hair – brown
Shy or Outgoing – outgoing!
Looks or personality – A balance of both, no?
Sexy or Cute – Sexy AND cute!
Serious or Fun – Serious
Older or Younger than you – Older, younger, not a biggie - after all, age is only a number
Broke someones heart – I guess, so what. It's the circle of life, you get shot and get over it in a snap.
Wondered what was wrong with you – No, never.
Wish you were a prince/princess – No.
Liked someone who was taken – Yes.
Shaved your head – No.
Been in love – Yes, and I still am.
Used chopsticks – Yes
Sang in the mirror to yourself – Yes

-Favorites
Flower – Orchid, exotic
Candy – Wonka Nerdz!
Song - Rod Stewart's Have You Ever Seen The Rain and Island Roots' Satisfied
Scent – Ferragamo Incanto Charms and RL's Turquoise
Movie - The Matrix, Lord of The Ring trilo and Star Wars
Singer – No one in particular. Wait, Freddie Mercury!
Word - CRAPOLA
Junk food – Ruffles Cheddar and Sour Cream
Website – http://beachbum71.blogspot.com
Lotion - La Mer's Body Collection, Banana Boat Aloe Vera Gel and BeneFit's Bathina Balm
Animal – Dog, snake.
Ever cried over someone - Yes.
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself – At the moment, no.
Do you think you're attractive – Yes, I find myself very attractive. I can look at myself in the mirror for ages without winking.
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose – I don't need a fairytale to relate to my life
Do you play any sports – Yes, tennis; swimming; rock climbing.

III
The rules:-Link to your tagger and post these rules.- List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people.

1) I have an addictive attitude - games, smoking, anything you name it.

2) I wake up late in the afternoons because my body clock is not working anymore

3) I have a crush on Bart Simpson, when I was young I thought he was a real life person. I was devastated when I found out he was fiction.

4) I collect lighters and bejewel them to death til you cant recognize which and which

5) I epilate around the clock even if I dont have any hairs on my legs or arms

6) I like things to be white and pure, demeaning and ironic for a dark creature like myself

7) I tan A LOT. I have been working on my even tan for 5 years now and I finally like the shade that I have on.

8) I want to get engaged this year! Bwahahaha.

I cordially tag:-

Ali Mafia

Raula K

Shereen Jolly

Dzimmo Supremo

San Shan

Suzie

Adrian Sim

Michelle Hee

Results are out for T24, Season 7 is hawt stuff!

2008-02-15T04:42:00.000-08:00

I have been a fan of American Idol ever since it was launched and heard of on Malaysian telly. Last year was good including Jordin Sparks, Melinda Doolittle and Blake Lewis. I never watched the finals though for Season 6 and could not be bothered to catch up with the shows every Wednesday night because honestly, there was nothing good enough for me to look forward to.
But this year, OMG, this year - the talent was off the hook and obviously, shitloads of people turned up for the auditions all over America. I was disappointed by the judges though when they let Josiah, the Tennessee cry baby off during the second round of eliminations in Hollywood - that boy wrecked havoc when it came to being a musician, he even had a really cute British accent when he spoke and sang. He cuckoo-ed The Four Top's Stand By Me acoustically and he could have done better. It was heart-wrenching when he started piping up again after being so confident that he would survive the round and get into the Top 24.
Apart from that, I was disappointed they let other less-talented people in the T24 because some of them can't even hold a note to save their lives. There were some contestants which FOX did not even bother to let the viewers watch audition and we were left gawking by the end of the show. I even had to hold my tongue without screaming "Who in bloody fuck is that?" because Daddy was watching it with us as well (YES, he's been a big fan of Simon Cowell's ever since he mouthed the big "You do not have the X-factor, I deem you a pub singer and you sound retarded like a beauty pageant queen")
I was glad most of the singers I was vouching for got in, namely (according to sequence) David Cook - first lucky boy contemporary singer; Carly Smithson - the Irish Amy Lee lookalike with a gorgeous tattooed sleeve and piercing eyes; Amanda Overmyer - rock, biker cum respiratory nurse who eerily resembles Janice Joplin; David Archuleta - the half-paralysed vocal chord cutie (surprisingly, of course, my favourite); Ramiele Malubay - Asian shorty like Jasmine Trias; Michael Lee Johns - Aussie singer from the band Film who made Freddie Mercury on Bohemian Rhapsody sound CRAP and Queen has been my everlasting love since I was 10, I thought nobody could ever take Mercury's vocal chords out but I was wrong, after another 11 years!; Syesha Mercado - the hoarse sounding new-Lauryn Hill; Alexandrea Lushington - tomboy rapper with one hell of a powerful voice; Chikezie Eze - the name Paula has remembered ever since he auditioned for Season 6 and Mum's all-time favourite (she kept asking me if he was going to get through as if the suspense of not knowing what would happen was not good enough); Asia'h Epperson - her beautiful smile says it all despite losing her father 30 minutes after she spoke to him on the phone before her audition; David Hernandez - the saucy looking dude with a saucy voice to boot and of course, last on the list, Brooke White - sassy and reminds me of Carrie Underwood, a whole lot; Joanne Borgella - plus size model and Beyonce lookalike, only a bigger version with all the confidence in the world. Everyone else, consider me biased, was neutral on my list though personally I think they should have let Josiah Leming through instead of Colton Berry - he looks like a dolphin and he does not even sound half as good as any of the rejected ones. Poo! Other names, or shall I put them being the neutral-I-don't-really-care-what-happens-next are Alaina Whitaker, Amy Jean Davis, Colton David Berry, Danny Noriega, Garrett Haley, Jason Castro, Jason Yeager, Kady Malloy, Kristy Lee Cook, Luke Menard and Robbie Carrico.
This season seems like the best season to just cuddle up to with a cup of hot cocoa enjoying the sounds of America's hottest star-search show and I am definitely looking forward to the First Round of the competition next week.
Actually, I cant wait for it to air because I cannot wait to see David Archuleta giving it his all and just smiling at the camera with his sultry green eyes. Anyway, here are a few shots of the aftermath of the T24 - shootings! - on the runway and tarmac of the Santa Monica Airport. AI fans, indulge and enjoy!

Chikezie Eze posing for the T24 after-shoot and I just realised after rewinding the previous show over and over again on Max, I ask, does he not look like Ice Cube for some reason?

Jason Yeager, David Cook and David Archuleta - ooh two Davids!

The only guy I've heard who sang Queen to their death, Michael Lee Johns. I am still swooning and I cant get over the dude, sue me!

Filipino shorty, Ramiele Malubay

Asia'h Epperson going at the camera and looking fantabulous! A star in the making, I must say - I'm predicting her in the Top 3!

The THIRD David on Idol! Simon did not fancy him, so I'm predicting he'd be gone by the 1st or 2nd week, upcoming loss there.

Amanda Overmyer rocks!

Joanne Borgella - goodies all up in there!

Syesha Mercado cosying up with one of the crew's blankets and Brooke White in the background

YES, I know! The cute wonder boy and yummy enough to eat like cherry pie!

All together now, CHEERS to the Top 24 finalists!

The Motley Crue, thinking who's the bloke on all the card masks? Who else if it's not obnoxious, blunt Simon! A perfect ending for a perfect shoot.

And yes, shall I repeat, that this is BY FAR, the BEST SEASON YET!

5 Presents I Really Want! - Tagged.

2008-02-13T06:56:00.000-08:00

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR:

1. The Rebecca Minkoff Morning After Bag!

2. Clive Christian's LE Imperial Majesty

3. A boxed layered necklace from Juicy Couture

4. The 2006 Cadillac Sixteen

5. The DON!

LIST OUT THE REASONS FOR YOUR CHOICES:
1. Just because I'm into big bulky bags which are so in season! Plus Minkoff is a new on the run designer with incredibly good taste to boot.
2. BECAUSE it is highly impossible to get a hold of those magnificent diamond bottles, so it would be a dream come true if someone actually thought about it *pokepokewinkwink*
3. Because tomorrow is Valentine's and they would go perfect with me.
4. So I have a decent ride to hitch in!
5. At the spur of the moment, I am not so materialistic.

WHO TAGGED YOU:
Silly Shereen with a flower in her brain

5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER:
1. Pretty - why of course, she is after all my sister.
2. A camwhore
3. Brainless
4. Has good taste
5. LOVES chinese music! Haha.

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU:
Being my sister, I suppose?

MOST LOVED INVENTION:
Designer everythings.

WHAT DO YOU DESPISE THE MOST:
People who never get their facts correct, hypocrites and CROCS.

6 PEOPLE YOU WANNA TAG:
Baby Jee, San Shan, Raula, Ali Mafia, Uzair and Nariza.

Fake Or Not?

2008-02-08T22:19:00.000-08:00

In response to Suzie's post regarding makeup and choices, I too, have asked this question a million times. Why do people have to disregard you as being fake when you wear makeup? Even more, I ask myself, why would people label you having no natural beauty whatsoever when you're awfully skillful with the bunch of M.A.C or Bobbi Brown brushes you put to good use?
Sheer jealousy, probably because some people cannot do anything else but to feel helpless when it comes to a makeup kit/toolbox. I've seen makeup catastrophies, and believe me it's an awful sight. I remember when I was 15 and just started rummaging through my Mum's case "just to try all the gooey stuff on" and decided that I enjoyed it. I also remember the time where I first discovered the wonders of eye kohl and the magic it does to your eyes being so tiny (not that I have tiny eyes, see) but of course, I can never forget the time where until today I still feel naked without my signature black kohl rimmed around my eyes to give me an extra jolt of sultriness.
It's things like these which people tend to brush out sudden remarks on how a person is, in all words, fake. Which I find hard to believe. How can one be fake when they enhance themselves and take up the extra effort to make themselves look nice-r instead of just slapping on chapstick on to their already chapped up lips? It's the exact same thing with using shampoo and conditioner. Or washing up with face cleanser to get rid of unwanted sebum and oil. If anyone out there thinks that makeup is "fake" then stop using beauty products, period. Come on, grow up. If makeup is fake, being natural can also mean getting up in the morning without taking a shower at all and not brushing your teeth. Natural, much? Or not shaving your armpits and legs. That would work as well being all natural, right? Right. Then how come I dont see anyone being guilty of the crime? Because all of us do not want to smell nasty, that's what. Maybe we can find a solution to such hypocrites by not letting them eat meat too because it's unnatural to kill anything with a face on it. They should go around walking barefooted and naked as well because clothes are just as unnatural, e.g: wool from sheep, processed cotton from plants. Nothing on Earth is natural, even organic vegetables and fruits do not grow naturally, instead need the implantation of human beings into soil. What makes it natural is the non-existance of chemical products surrounding it. And that's about it.
So why are there still hoards of people discriminating other people who like the look of makeup on their faces? I have come to the reason on which these people have no respect whatsoever towards other human rights. We all do the same things, walk on the same piece of land and even pass out on junk where the sun don't shine. What difference does it make? Of course we made-up people think it's nice if the hypocrites go an extra mile to look better instead of judging us being such bimbos only because we take all the time we need to conceal the spots and lines and colour ourselves wild. We are bevy's of art and we are as human, nonetheless.
Look, there's the people who are categorized as those born with a skill to make themselves up, and there's the ones who learn almost their entire lifetime to master it. Then, there's the ones who can afford to hire personal artists who just go "SMACK" and get the job done. Does it sound that bad? To some it may, because they'll be thinking, why spend so much time and money on petty things when you can do something else, right? Wrong. It's proven that people who wear makeup, definitely has the need to be more confident about themselves compared to people who do not take the effort at all. Maybe that's why we can walk with our heads held high and just "fake" the smiles we plaster onto our faces as if we walk on top soil. Just because we would take a step further into accentuating something that's already good for us as a blank canvas.
If anyone thinks that all beauty products are fake, go hug a tree - and enjoy it!

Finally.

2008-02-05T07:55:00.000-08:00

Just when I thought that I would get bored of waiting, there he was standing in front of me at the arrival hall.
I leaped!
Yes.
BABY'S BACK!

Adult Figures

2008-01-31T08:55:00.000-08:00

How fast time flies. It felt just like yesterday when I was out at a club partying the night away with a couple of close friends for New Year's Eve. It felt just like a few seconds ago the day he kissed me on my forehead and lips to wish me our first New Year celebration together.
And right now, this very second, I actually feel old.
That's just it, I told myself. Every single day passes by and I cannot be more content. I have my family members behind me in anything I wish to do and make account of. I have my boyfriend who is there for me every step of the way knowing that I can succeed in life doing what I do best. I know a lot of people who are not satisfied with what goes in their lives but I'm sure everything has it's ups and downs.
The more we complain, the worse it gets. So, honestly, try to put a stop to it and stand your ground. Be it with such fussy parents or unreliable peers. Of course, everyone gets tired of a little bit of much, but portraying less negativity helps, really.
Plus, it's not like we get younger every single time the clock strikes 12 because by the time we know it, we're just going to be old and rotten anyway. It's what we have experienced which really brings up the best in ourselves, the good and the bad.

I was just looking at my Dad earlier on and I realised how aged he looked with the wrinkles on his forehead and how experienced he is. I have always looked up to him ever since I was a kid and I still have him as a role model now, think someone who only has a diploma who is where he is now. I know a lot of other people who look up to him the way I do, and I do not mean my own sisters. Because all of us look up to him, and there's no doubt about me being proud of him, only because the most important thing at stake is him being my Dad. So dont tell me that I cant be proud of what he has achieved. He was always a father figure to all of us, being the typical man of the house - oops, he is the ONLY man in the house. But that left him no other choice but to love and nurture us without the feeling of being down. He gives us everything we can possibly want even though he can be a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to EVERY single thing. I know for a fact, that I'm one lucky girl to have a Dad as nice as him.
Then, there's my Mum. The woman strong enough to put up with anything you can possibly imagine. I was a rebellious kid, I did not put up with rules and I was downright spoiled to the core - but she put that to test and scared the shit out of me. She still does sometimes. Especially when she screams my full name, chorus included. I can never imagine another woman handling 6 girls the way she does. She's good at her job, so what? I've heard people making remarks about her just being a housewife. But that does not matter. She still holds our house together anyway, better than anyone else can. She was always the only woman I have ever looked up to - I have never seen her giving up on anything even if she tried to.
So there.

Absolutely Hilarious.

2008-01-30T07:49:00.001-08:00

I stumbled upon a blog with sarcastic images of people's most intimate fears and secrets. Here's a preview of pictures from the blog - and you can directly access it at Post Secret.

All the pictures above are real confessions by anonymous people. Join their mailing list for all I care - at least I got a few laughs off it.

Hoorah! And a little extra

2008-01-29T07:11:00.000-08:00

I have finally edited the layout fit to prescription. Links on the corner and everything else is back up for view. I'm sorry I dont have a chatbox either because personally I dont need too much attention from anybody except myself and anyone who has my contacts in full fledge. I may add one once I find out a site which offers something where I can screen my messages and keep an eye out on anything particularly necessary.
Apart from that, I dont know why Chinese New Year "holidays" has to start so early for people taking such short notices of leaves because everything is now postponed to after the actual holidays. For example, Ali's car has to be done only after, his front and rear bumper is falling apart and it saddens me to see The Beast in bad condition, my deepest regret and sympathy goes all out. Honestly, if I had the tools and advanced knowledge on how to repair the exterior of a car, I would be more than glad to work on it as a holiday project. Unfortunately, my brain is at ease knowing nothing about exterior repairs whatsoever (I would service it myself as well), who says I can be such a materialistic bitch? I can be hell of cheap as well when it comes to unnecessary things involved with my wallet.
Well, of all things serious at hand, I just checked out a blog containing information about the abduction of children in Malaysia and I am sad to say it disappoints me to see the state Malaysia is in regarding the issue. I do believe that as a country levitates financial/economy wise, the crimes get more complicated as well. But why, I have to ask, do innocent children become victims for these blood-raged monsters? What, really, has the world come to? I'm sure we're all aware that this is actually a global issue. After the nightmare of the Nurin Jazlin incident, I worked what was really going on through these savage minds and the monstrosity of it all. I'm not a psychologist but generally, I like to think of her killers as people who are insane and have no destination in life. I am not trying to be biased towards these people (seeing how I have a weird fascination and fetish for Hannibal Lecter) but if you think of them as sane and rational enough, we would be killing every child we see in sight, too. Although it is hard for anyone to make out what really goes on in their heads, it is probably a state of mind where criminal acts mean justice to the law and a being far normal than what we were taught since the beginning when our parents mouthed out the word "NO".
Just recently, 5-year old Sharlinie was kidnapped and until today, nothing has came up. Except for the witch-doctor's hallucination of her reuniting with her family which of course, was proved wrong because she did not return. Her elder sister, Sharliena was at the scene when her sister's perpetrator abducted her and I'm sure the only reason why she was not able to give accurate information was because the poor girl was in shock. I would have been as well if any of my sisters were abducted in front of my eyes!
Then, there's the blaming of parents who do not look after their kids well enough. Of course, this plays a significant role - who would let their underaged children go out unguarded? Beats me because I have seen this happening. I have seen this with my own two eyes a few months back when a little boy, probably aged between 4-6 years old running around a shopping mall area barefooted and as loose as a cannon. Everyone was staring at him because he was running around with a pacifier in his tiny little mouth and stopping cars at the road entrance. I tried coaxing him with sweets (NO! I would have not kidnapped him) just to make him stay still so I could ask him where his parents were but he just ogled me from behind the pillars and thought I was playing hide-and-seek with him! After that attempt failed, I interrogated a guard who was around the area and asked him where the boy's parents were and he answered me blatantly that the little boy was there every day in the same clothes and pacifier in mouth. I was shocked. So, really, doesn't anyone else think that parents do play significant roles in the possibilities of their children being abducted? So far, though, no little boys have been kidnapped - just little girls who look as sweet as candy have. Seriously, parents should think twice about letting their children out of the house unguarded by an adult, what more being alone. Letting them out of your sight just "to get rid of them for a while" is not worth the damage that it can bring upon the nation.
All this, in fact can rupture the very depths of our country and well-built reputation. We are fortunate enough to not be in a Third World country where poverty is at large. Should we be such animals? I would like to think not because we are lucky compared to war-ridden countries where mind-boggling sufferings happen. We are developing and crimes like these should be banished. I've heard people going "Oh, must be an illegal immigrant who is desperate enough to rape a little girl like that" when they hear about such news, tell me, why illegal immigrants? Unless of course authorities have confirmed that the victim was raped by an immigrant that does not give anyone an excuse to blame people from bordering countries when we can blame our own kind. Civilians of our country are definitely capable of committing such acts of crime as well. Another thing which just popped up into my head is of course, why people want these monsters to be dead, when they should live a long life of torture and pain. We should not make such statements because we are not playing a fool out of people's lives and try to be God. Forsake the fact "an eye for an eye" when more damage can be inflicted to the point a person realizes the difference between right and wrong. Authorities are human beings the way we are and that does not put them on the spot for taking a person's life away - though this is the way it always has been and I'm sure other people have gotten away with murder as well. Injustice, no?

"When a man wants to murder a tiger, he calls it sport; when the tiger wants to murder him, he calls it ferocity. The distinction between crime and justice is not greater." -George Bernard Shaw

To sum this long post all up, I would like to bid my deepest sympathy to families who have lost their loved ones - keep them in your heart locked and pray for them in their after lives. May hope and peace be yours today and always. You're in our thoughts, please know how much we care and how deeply your loss is felt by all.

The sorrow of the faithful
is not that of permanent loss,
but the tender sense of sadness
that comes in saying good-bye for now
to someone we love.
May today's sorrow give way
to the peace and
comfort of God's love.

Calming Down

2008-01-28T07:37:00.000-08:00

So I aint as pissed as I was 10 minutes ago because I finally managed to change my template though it may be hard to read. I sincerely wish you luck until Blogger manages to fix my problem with the errors for other HTML codes. I was looking for a transparent box but then alas, I am not able to edit HTML at all because some stupid error comes up. Hoooh. Right, I better calm down again before I work myself up and puff on another fag.

The Ultimate Bed Head!

2008-01-26T07:29:00.000-08:00

I have fallen head over heels in love with TiGi - the oh-mighty makers of Bed Head ever since I can remember.

I have definitely tried out a lot of different hair products throughout my entire lifetime including the times when I was a teenager and everything was about HAIR, literally. Long, short, curly, wavy, straight - you name it, I've been there and I've done that.
Alas, it all comes down to one thing and it's the gunk you pile onto your head is what really matters. If anyone has not heard of TiGi, honestly, go kill yourselves with the commercialised products you put on but instead, stuff it in your mouths and see what happens.
:o If anyone has been wondering, yes, Bed Head smells good - good enough to eat, not that I would be dumb enough to though to do so. But I am tempted!
TiGi is a UK-based product and caters all over the world with subs like Catwalk, Bed Head, S Factor and Hardcore. I didnt even know what it was until I caught a glimpse feature of it in 2004's Harper's Bazaar. It was a magnetic chemistry the moment I tried their prods out and I'm glad to say I'm finally satisfied with the gunk I wash my hair with - tad bit pricey though (that's why Mum always cringes at me when I leave her paying for the bill whenever I waltz into the hair store and out)
So far, I've tried out the Manipulator series consisiting of shampoo, conditioner and serum which I think is already cut off on stock because I dont see it anywhere, anymore on the shelves at any Bed Head retailer. The Manipulator is so funky blue and appropriate for daily washes and when you use it, your hair smells wonderful of coconut and bananas!

Sad to say I read somewhere that they really did discontinue the making of the Manipulator Shampoo and Conditioner, they still have the Manipulator wax though.

Then, I dyed my hair and from then onwards I started using the Dumb Blonde series. Haha. They do have something for brunettes as well but I doubt I would like the smell of Burnt Almond on my hair seeing as how I smell enough of fag-smoke already. I opted for these only because it's for coloured hair and it smells of exotic fruits!

Yes, the ultimate in hair products - nothing beats being a Dumb Blonde, I suppose!

I've always been a big fan of after-washes such as serums and vitamin enhancers especially for split ends and dry locks so the ones below are a must try as well.

Specifically for split ends, smells like Wild Fruits.

The spray which works miracles - it detangles and freshens your hair. Contains Vitamin A, B, B5 and E as well.

The Blueberry fragrance adds more zest and fun in big hair! This little baby volumizes and thickens limp hair and gives it an extra oooomph.

Interested? Head out to the closest retailer or salon today and get good-smelling hair. Though I personally think the only reason why I bug Mum so much for the range is because I like the bottles so much being colourful and cute. Haha.

EYE CANDY!!

An Expression of Levy and Tribute to Heath Ledger

2008-01-23T08:09:00.000-08:00

I was gobsmacked the second I heard on the news this morning about his death. He was one of the hottest Australian actors (apart from Hugh Jackman) and nothing ever went wrong behind the scenes of 10 Things I Hate About You the moment it was launched in 1999 when Ledger played Patrick Verona - the bad boy with attitude to kill.
Heath Ledger was born on the 4th April 1979 in Perth, WA. He was a talented actor, a heart throb for most. His name, apparently, was an idea from a romantic character in Emily Bronte's novel, Wuthering Heights. He was also named one of People's magazine as the 50 Most Beautiful People in 2001.
The Irish-Scottish hunk played in flicks such as 10 Things I Hate About You, Two Hands, A Knight's Tale, Monster's Ball, The Four Feathers, Ned Kelly, Lords of Dogtown, Casanova, The Brothers Grimm, Candy, I'm Not There, Brokeback Mountain and just recently played a post-production role of The Joker in The Dark Knight. He was supposed to act out a role for The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus but unfortunately, the role would go to major loss to someone else.

Heath alongside co-star Julia Stiles

Heath Ledger and co-star Rose Byrne

Heath Ledger as Sir William Thatcher or Sir Ulrich von Lichtenstein

Yes, he also played alongside Halle Berry and Billy Bob Thornton - legendary!

Based on the award winning novel, Ledger signifies a role as the war-wuss Harry Faversham

Ledger in Ned Kelly - Public Enemy Numero Uno

Lords of Dogtown or also known as Dogtown Boys - Heath Ledger plays bad boy Skip

The ultimate Casanova

Heath Ledger and Matt Damon in The Brothers Grimm

Ledger plays a Bohemian-style poet in Candy alongside Abbie Cornish

An autobiography of the life and death of Bob Dylan. Ledger plays Robbie Clark.

The all-time favourite publicly gay movie which sparked controversy among Australians the second Ledger agreed to a faggot-role. He rocked it. And why does he look like Matt Damon in the poster?

Too bad this is the last movie Heath will be acting out in - The Dark Knight

Heath Ledger, you shall be missed. From the role-playing to the laughs you have given us. May your soul rest in peace.

Death is nothing, but to live defeated and inglorious is to die daily - Napolean Bonaparte

Re: The New Sexual Orientation

2008-01-17T01:56:00.000-08:00

Referring to Kenneth's blog, he mentioned something about metrosexuals.
Honestly, what is wrong with them? Though I would not date one, I still dont think there's anything literally wrong with them. I've met metrosexual and homosexual men throughout these mere 20 years of my life and they've been great.
Sensitive issue, I know. No one has to tell me twice but I think that most gay men are usually the ones who are eye candy, anyway.
Do not mistake metrosexuals for homosexuals though. Because the word carries two whole different meanings. A homosexual is everything else but straight and a metrosexual is anything but gay. Get it?
Well, it's not a new line of sexual orientation, I beg your pardon Nethy Poo. Metrosexuals have been on earth ever since the get go, it's just that we never actually realized it according to the bullshit that comes up in textbooks (they dont want us to develop anything sexual before the age of 15). Notice the grooming of ancient Greek gods? Remember the part where men are supposed to be highly looked upon for their sharp looks and clean finger nails? That's exactly what being metrosexual is! It's a sexual revolution-orientation.
It does not hurt for a man to put the toilet seat down after he's done with his business nor is it a crime for men to walk into a Nail Salon or SPA. They want to look and feel just as good as we women do. And it is definitely not against nature for men to change their underwear after wearing it, let's see, hmm.. for 2 weeks straight? Metrosexuals nowadays are always adjoined with expensive labels and dressed up in tights (right, I still dont get the whole tight thing though). If they can afford and splurge all of their hard-earned cold cash, then why not? If anyone else had the money, they would do the same thing too, and especially on a new wardrobe.
It's human nature for a man to be disgusting and prude (imagine a couch potato watching this year's football season with chips flying out of his mouth when the team he supports, scores). But with the proper upbringing, do they turn into metrosexuals if they have OCD cleaning sprees every now and then? Or the urge to spruce themselves up in the loo, checking their hair, putting on uncoloured lip balm, etc.? Maybe, just maybe, they depended more on a female figure in their household or the fact that they're clean cut because they went to military school. Yes military school - my Dad was in a military school, he's clean cut, wears nice clothes and uses moisturizer. Does that make him a metrosexual? I thought not.
It's not nice to categorize people who do things out of the norm because basically, men have nasty habits. They fart, burp, scratch their asses and grab their balls in public and it's disgusting. It's the exact same thing with women, if you see a woman doing that in public wouldn't you get disgusted? Well, we women get disgusted by men who do that as well. As far as being in a shallow-minded society has taught me, I notice people saying things like "Aaah, look at him, you know he's gay!" only because the person dresses nice and feels good about how he is, in an artificial materialistic way - the sleek hair, unblemished skin, the lingering Dunhill Desire scent he carries around, Hugo Boss shirt and jeans to match. (Refer to Craig David, Wentworth Miller)
Come to think of it, scratch the part where I said I would not date a metrosexual because I am dating one - minus the spring cleaning (SPOILT BRAT!) - but with the exact details of a metro, clean cut, well dressed, highly pampered image and expensive taste to boot.
The uprising urban figure known as the metrosexual has got to be one of the best terms to happen since the Internet!

Of Raspberry-filled Chocolate Cakes and Aborigine Street Parties - a post dedicated to my baby girl, Maria Izzah Tiama

2008-01-16T20:58:00.000-08:00

"Sometimes I want to shout to the world how lucky I am to have you as my friend, but sometimes I want to hush....afraid that somebody might take you away from me"

I have had the best times with you, for as far as I can recall. We have had nothing but fun and games, though you always nag me to put my brain to good use. You have guided me and showed me how utterly possible life can be good to someone, especially with hopes and dreams. You have become a role model for every youngin which still exists throughout my body, mind and soul. I still look up to you, the way I always have even if I never told you. Secretly, I've admired you for your sense of good will and being and how you always felt sympathetic towards those around you who knew no better than to foul-mouth you. I've admired the way your brain works more accurately than anyone else's ten times better. I've admired how you are so lively and jolly whenever you are around me.
And you have always had a special spot in my heart. Be it with the good and bad times we've had together - you were always there for me when I was down. You were the first person to call me right after you knew something was not right. You were there when "that bastard" thought he could take advantage of me and he was wrong. You. You are the best thing that happened to me, the night we got introduced to by certain so-called peers.
I still feed on the memory of the sleepless nights we had watching ghost movies and The OC bunked in my 4-pole bed ; the never-ending whiny MSN chats we tortured each other with - even though we were 15 minutes drive away from each other and we knew we would meet each other the very next day ; the Coffee Bean hangovers from all the caffeine we consumed ; my first bus ride where I stalled everyone in queue - and you were the one who got change and rolled your eyes as if I was blonde ; the cakes we used to make - Valentine Euphoria, anybody? ; from the unexpected visit to the shopping all around to the "I HATE ANIMALS! YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT STEPHANIE" fiasco to the horse-trotting goober-eyed whatsits to the train-catching-vandalism in Perth to the teary farewell when you got back on the bus to say goodbye ; the "HAAHA i took a picture with you on your graduation and I was sleeping" and the after party of a loved friend's upcoming.
You were always welcomed into our house the way nobody could ever expect - seeing as how I was far too reserved and "intimidating". You, Izzah, you.
And after all the years of our friendship, I am proud to say that you are still my best friend. Probably the most sincere one as well. And now that you've moved up into life, remember that no one can bring you down because you are still on top of this girl's list. They have said good and bad things about us and we have stood up for it. We stood our ground only to make them shut up for that little bit of time where we found peace and vulnerability. You will always be the best and unbearably I still think the world of you.
Thank you for the Christmas call, thank you for the pre-New Year's wake up. I love you Lizzie!

"A true friend is someone who thinks you are a good egg, even though she knows you are slightly cracked" -Bernard Meltzer

Fun Facts

2008-01-14T22:45:00.000-08:00

So, as recalled, I was tagged by my own Delicious, Sexy Baby Jee.
Here goes.

Bold the statements that are true for you.
Italicise the statements that you wish are true.
Leave the fibs alone.
Then, tag 5 people to do the same test.
*******

I miss someone right now.
I do not watch tv these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I have tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I'm totally smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I'm shy about members of the opposite sex
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with girls.
I'm obsessed with boys.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither. -
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I have jazz in my blood.
Climbing trees is a brilliant pastime.
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.

I shall now tag the following people :-

Don Ali
San Shan
Nethy Neth Poo Poo Pants
Sarah Maya
Aaron Mark

I ASSUME.

2008-01-14T21:10:00.000-08:00

Teehee. I assume........... (what a mighty big word) :D Yes, I shall assume that I have the power to say anything I want. After all, it is my blog! I dont see your hands on my keyboard hitting the On and Off switch.
Oh. And she listened about the English part! Poooooo. T'was fun seeing someone try so hard to type in English but can only come up with words like "interfere, notified and assume". She finally mixed up some Malay words in her last entry which I am horrified by. What a shame. She was quite cute actually - QUITE - in between yes and no. I'm still contemplating on which one.
And she also claims to know me. Wow wee. I guessed as much, because I still dont know who in the flying fuck she is. :s
Plus I do not care, I sense defeat anyway.
There are still these sort of people who exist in the world, eh? And if you must know, the someone who I referred to in the "Tips on how to tell if a bag is fake" post was bragging about a fake Chloe Paddington Satchel and a Furla Mini, not any sort of Marc Jacobs. Let's get that clear. I didnt know you would get so grouchy after that particular post if your sister's bag, is, and I hope not, by all means, is a fake? :o
I just made a statement on how I had things against all things imitation! So weak and vulnerable. At least you gave me a few cheap thrills when I went through your blogs, which I have never heard about. Such weird things people do nowadays.
And to top that all off - "You have caused me sad.....................................ness" - NOT. Hahaha.
I am exhilarated to know how one can pass a bar test without the knowledge of any vocabulary at all. You can go become an attorney in the rubbish bin!

Hahaha. Awwwwwwwwww.

2008-01-14T08:11:00.000-08:00

Dont you just think that shit is about you? Lol. I have never been as flabbergasted in my life. Now why would you say I was talking about you? Because, obviously, FYI I have never even heard about you throughout my entire lifetime for me to talk about you.
If your sister had experience before this (AND yes, after you posted that thing up about me, ONLY then I read about it!) because it is not about your sister after all. Boo fucking hoo. Go get a life and try to stay out of people's faces, or hair for instance. And no, I dont think you can even afford quarter let alone anything of what I have because honestly, what makes you think I dont spend my own heritage money, you loser?
Ohh. And it's too bad as well that my parents can ACTUALLY afford me, so dont make that a big deal. You know how it goes. After all, inheritance is inheritance, darling. Dont make a big fool out of yourself. There are people who do not even think much about you and are friends with you - otherwise why on earth do you think I was able to come across your measly blog? Lol. Poor thang. Have you heard of the electronic dictionary? - it's what Intensive English students use for their studies, e.g: big man = giant tree. Because I sense Grandma Grammar is going to shoot you in your uptight little buttock.
But really, come on. Think about it. I dont even know who in tarnation you are, or belong to. At least my boyfriend does not need to buy me a truckload of shit to make me sleep with him. Hahahaha.
CHEAP HYPOCRITE.

P/s: And now you shall rest in peace.

Tidiously Fake

2008-01-13T03:28:00.000-08:00

I've always had a thing against people being fake.
I also have something against people who think they can pull off a fake bag/wallet/accessory but end up just being in denial. (People who loudly claim that their items are fake would most certainly get a thumbs up for me - at least they are brave enough to say they wear fake purse parties)
I read someone's blog saying that her Mum got her a *insert any good brand* sort of tote. She even posted pictures but it was not hers. She described it being bigger without a few of the details according to the picture. I was contemplating whether to pity her, or to laugh at her. Your choice.
Darling, here are tips on how to spot whether your bag is an original, or a god damn fake. Come on. People dont even have to know the price! Plus, this is a good guide for those extra presents you get from someone who claims that the gift is real - to some people, the thought is what counts, though you dont really need someone lying to you - the satisfaction of knowing it personally would be enough.

General Misconceptions!

1. The easiest way is to check out the official website. If it's on there, it's real (though sometimes fake manufacturers tend to copy every single detail to the point you wont know) but usually they forget that the colours of a certain bag only come in the colour that the brand comes up with. So yes, check the colours available too.
2. If you have a Gucci or a Louis Vuitton ; the label INSIDE the bag - on the extra zip pocket , beneath the label has got details and exact serial numbers which you can trace from the website according to item. (Yes, fake manufacturers even have these, though they will add an extra number to the serial code hence spotting a fake right there)
3. The "Made In China" controversy. People have asked, if it says "Made in China" does it mean that the item is fake? No way would have to be my answer. Most exclusive brands have factories in China, thus having the imprints of "Made In China" stamped on the label. People! Get your Economic books out - cheap labour. And China has got to be the main producers for anything necessary. Don't be fooled though, because these brands do NOT make bags in Korea, Taiwan or Thailand - spotted.
4. Stitching can be a dead giveaway as well. Inconsistent stitching and sloppy construction in less visible areas, such as the underside of the bag or inside pockets are details to look for immediately. Authentic designer bags tack on an extra zero on the bloody price tag due to extra, carefully-crafted construction. It costs more because they are built more complex.
5. Zipper pulls can indicate the authenticity of an item as well. For instance, zipper pulls on a Coach bag or wallet tends to be made out of leather or a series of rings. The actual zipper mechanism which pulls the two sides of the zipper together should be embossed with the letters YKK. For anyone who has not noticed, YKK is the highest-quality manufacturer for zippers and Coach uses it. For any other brand though, they have their own title engraved on to the zippers.
6. For single alphabet patterns, such as Louis Vuitton, Chanel, Coach, Fendi and Gucci ; if the outside of the bag or wallet has an alphabet pattern, the lining will NOT have any patterns on it! You will never ever see a bag with a double emblem pattern on the outside and inside - this is a sure sign of a fake.
7. Luxury retailers also put a great deal of care into packaging. This includes the necessary works - tissues, wrapping paper, shopping bags. The boxes which the item comes in should not be too big nor too small and is of the same brand as the purchase. Makers of luxury goods also include dust bags with their items, any flimsy dust bags are a fake signature. Dust bags are made of thicker, soft cotton and flannel.
8. Metal goods on a purse should be solid and scratch-free. Lousy metal which scratches easily would have to mark your fake.

Owwww.

2008-01-12T05:40:00.000-08:00

Someone just recently asked me sheepishly "Do you still think about your exes?".
I reacted melodramatically and blurted out a "What the. HELL NO".
Which was part true, anyway. The only real things I ever remember from the past is the large sums of money my exes borrowed of me. Fine, at the time that sort of shit never mattered. But then it's common courtesy to actually pay someone back when you tumble out of shit with them. Dont you think?
Oh poo, well sucks for me for being such a fool borrowing money to people who act as if they're parents can afford them and splurge on all the alcoholic beverages they can get they're hands on and pockets might as well be as shallow as their empty brains.
Beach Bum 0 - School Of Life 1.
"You can never trust anyone no matter how trustworthy they turn out to be!" -Karan Hemoo. Sometimes Karan, (and I know for a fact you are reading this and trying to dig out gossip!) I hate how you can be so right and wrong at the same time. And OH LORD. The dirt you manage to come up with! Hahaha.
On the topic, I shall bring up matters regarding me having to date someone with shitloads of money. Lol. That is not absolutely necessary. Yes, from certain sources I've heard people asking if I ask for money from my boyfriend. Oh poo. He DOES NOT have to give me money because my parents can definitely still afford me. Otherwise I would not be spotted dead anywhere without goods like mine, anyway. I shall clear this up, and be aware, it is not my fault that my boyfriend shunned himself away from any of his ex-friends, see. It was never me who took advantage of him. Read between the lines - he had the hots for me, and I had the hots for him. So we sort of took advantage of each other, which was mutual enough. At least I was never a friend who stepped on his head most of the time, lending cash from him whenever for food to what nots. And at least, when he dropped me off back home back then, I always offered to pay for fuel unlike some other useless people who think of themselves, otherwise. Or somewhat better than other people for not being able to take the bus from campus and screw my boyfriend's place up like a dump as big as their assholes. Yes, so what if my boyfriend is TOO nice? That does not concern anyone anymore, okay, apart from other people who means a lot to us. And people, you dont have to ask "who and who" if we're still dating - because open them eyes up - we obviously still are. And we're going strong despite everything else!
Right. *insert rolling eye icon here* Enough of that and let's get down to what I initiated. Ex-boyfriends and ex-girlfriends are called that because obviously you have ex-ed them out from your life and want nothing to do with them - unless you're divorced and have kids where alimony is a big thing. Then, that's a whole different matter. But you know, when people are young, we tend to make the wrong choices in life and decide that one person may be good for you and the other vice versa but still make the wrong choice anyway. Well, that's when basic instincts kick in - I developed mine real slow in life - so bear with me. This concerns every other choice anyone has to make in life, be it bad, good or even fatal. That's how human we are anyway.
Life is made to be flunked on, anyway in real time. It's not like how it is in fiction where everything seems quite perfect from one's point of view. Though most movies nowadays tend to exaggerate on how unlucky one person can get. All's fair in love and life, see. But that circles out the most important aspect of everything else essential. Like friends and money as well. It is definitely a fact that if you possess more of the riches in the world, people make friends with your money instead of the person that you are. Having been in a shithole of a so-called University, I would know better. Plus when it comes to friends, I've always believed having a handful of good, genuine, sincere friends are better than having a hundred acquaintances anyway. So go ahead, call me a loner, call me reserved and stuck up (I'm quite well known for this - so 100 acquaintances at stake already) At least I've always knew which ground I've stood on instead of being something that I am not. Out of a hundred of those acquaintances, all of them might not even remember your face, what more name 10 years from now. It's the good ones who stick to you through thick and thin who you can bring to your grave - they might even request to be buried next to you if you leave the world first. So really, which would you rather?
Personally, I'd have the handful over a bowlful any other day, any other time.
Apart from that, I do not believe in the "Do upon others how you want others to do upon you" bollocks. Utter rubbish! Generally, friends are not considered friends because no matter how nice you are to them - they still come back with crap to throw at you. So that does not apply - whoever came up with that is a maniac who is probably stuck in a mental institution now. Yes, I can be very skeptical. But it's the whole truth. Not everyone is pure-hearted anymore. There's always something they want from you, as long as you have it and they want it. I've met people throughout this life. And probably 60% would have to be under that category. And most of them play the part so well, you get blinded by their Academy Award act. These people are considered the two-faced hypocrites. Including the sort who talk bad about you behind and be all nice and, uh, somewhat, stupid in front of you. Something to laugh about. I am glad I eliminated most. There are, still, unfortunately a few lurking on the weed bed though, which I shall attempt to pluck out sooner or later as long as I can find fault.
But to everyone else, who did not take anything to heart - then wahey, we're good.
So there you go. A nice long-winding post to start off with the new year!

New Fab Bag - Out and Tooting.

2008-01-07T07:07:00.000-08:00

Watch out for this space.
Fab bag for the season has got to be the fabulous line of Marc by Marc Jacobs.
I recently managed to get my hands on this lovely Quinn as a Xmas gift from the parents, or Pepe. Whoever really purchased it is beyond my knowledge.
It reminds me of the Morning After bag and I adore!
Spotted by certain people who are "brand enthusiasts". Perfect for a sleazing day and hit on the town in flip flops, chic and not as bold at the same time. Lovely.

The Quinn is also featured on the Purse Blog and it was in Yellow. Oh the horror, I shall never wear a single yellow handbag for as long as I live because I dont think I would be able to handle too much of the brightness! Colours also available in Cordovan, Ocean and Stone.

Tagged!

2007-12-27T16:31:00.000-08:00

-link to your tagger and post these rules
-list 8 random facts about yourself and tag 8 people

So SanShan tagged me for 3 whole things, which I doubt I can answer.

1:: I multi task. A LOT. E.g: Smoking and typing while I do my biz. Lol.
2:: I get hyper when it comes to pain, I freak out when it comes to closed spaces - claustrophobic, no?
3:: I have always stayed in trend but when it comes to nothing to wear out of the closet I just pull out an old beach outfit to make it look new and at least try to always pull it off!
4:: I've got a fetish for makeup bags full of whatever you can think of and before this my old huge case was collecting dust bunnies :s
5:: Super vision when it comes to fashion tads and fabs.
6:: I like biting. I ravage everything I see from the Don's fingers to straws.
7:: I am extremely biased and reserved.
8:: I can twist and fold my tongue! But usually I dont hold it in. ;)

First Name
:: Stephanie

Name you wish you had
:: Something short like Eve. Haha.

Do people normally mistake your name
:: Not that I've seen of.

Birthday
:: 18th November

Birthplace
:: Birkenhead, Liverpool.

Time of Birth
:: I never bothered to know.

Parents together or divorced
:: Together

Opposite Gender.

What color eyes
:: Any colour as long as the other person has eyes

What color hair
:: Dark

Shy or Outgoing
:: Both would work. I'm pretty versatile.

Looks or personality
:: Looks lol. Personality comes way after looks.

Sexy or Cute
:: It doesnt matter, as long as their cute and sexy when things get down.

Serious or Fun
:: fun loving.

Older or Younger than you
:: younger. more meat and quality.

A turn on
:: A cute ass. Haha.

A turn off
:: A guy who talks only about himself and brags about his achievements

This Or That.

Flowers or Chocolate
:: Flowers. Sucker.

Pepsi or Coke
:: None!

Rap or Rock
:: Rock. Contemporary rap.

Relationship or One night stand
:: Relationship if you're really into it. One night stand if you're single and banging.

School or Work
:: None! Ugh.

Love or Money
:: When there's love, there has got to be money made.

Movies or musics
:: Junkie for both.

Country or City
:: country.

Sunny or Rainy day
:: Sun only. Rain can go away.

Friends or Family
:: Blood is thicker than water, so family.

Have you ever lied
:: Yes.

Stole something
:: Oh I used to nick, now I stay away from bad habits.

Smoked
:: Yes.

Hurt someone close to you
:: Yes. to hell with it.

Broke someones heart
:: I dont remember, nor do I care.

Had you heart broken
:: Yes, and let bygones be bygones or stored somewhere in the past.

Wondered what was wrong with you
:: No.

Wish you were a prince/princess
:: I already am. Hahaha.

Liked someone
:: Yes. I like a lot of people. Like Chris Brown and Jon Jonsson. Like Wentworth Miller and Bow Wow.

Liked someone who was taken
:: Oh the horror, but yes and I have him now.

Shaved your head
:: I would if someone paid me RM1000. Lol. Really. Show me the money and we'll get down to business.

Been in love
:: I already am.

Used chopsticks
:: Yes but I prefer my hands.

Sang in the mirror to yourself
:: Uhh. no.

Favourite

Flower
:: Roses, daisies, orchids and gingers.

Song
:: Right now it would have to be anything acoustic with sounds of the waves on the back. House!

Scent
:: Anything fruity and citric.

Color/s
:: Turquoise and gold.

Movie
:: Forrest Gump

Singer
:: Samantha James

Word
:: Oh poo!

The rules:- link to your tagger and post these rules.
- list (8) random facts about your blogging life and tag (8) people.

1:: I let things out on beachbum71.
2:: Although everything is related to material
3:: I like my layout even if it is outdated.
4:: Sometimes I get too lazy to blog because it's pointless.
5:: My blog has not been updated ever since I can remember. This is the first post in weeks.
6:: I try not to be so lopsided like I am in real life on my blog. Haha.
7:: I am a critic and the total opposite of what people have in mind.
8:: I dont give 10 rats asses up your bum if you dont like what you see on this thing!

I am tagging, everyone who finds their links on the right hand side of the navigator.

Seasons Greetings!

2007-12-20T05:09:00.000-08:00

This time of year is around, Christmas time is here! Yuletide joys and mistletoes come to mind. Right, maybe minus the mistletoes because you cant necessarily get any fresh ones within our region of Asia.
Note the very beautiful online Christmas greeting card - we do have Poinsettias in Asia though! They only come to blossom end of the year, mainly during monsoon season and then they turn green as soon as the New Year arrives. They're questionably RED and from afar it looks like a flower, but when up close, it looks all leafy. Pretty, nonetheless.
Christmas this year shall be boring once again because half of the siblings are in London for holidays. I cannot say much because I did not spend Xmas with the whole family either last year. Well, hopefully a dinner and a night out will be fine. Roasted turkey and lamb, yes!
I've gotten craploads of people asking me if I celebrated Christmas - the answer is yes. I've celebrated Christmas as a kid and we still celebrate Christmas now, with the tree and fun lights, not to leave out presents as well! Though as kids, the only presents we got were either big boxes of Lego or collector Barbie editions (be it collectibles - I still ripped the box apart and rough up the dollies) which my baby sister has in her Play Room now! Lucky kid, whoever thought hand-me-downs would be such a bad thing?
And now, the only Christmas presents revolves about getting new laptops or new phones. Possibly a new gadget like the PSP or PS3 would be lovely too. Sorted out the Wii the other day and I think it's crap. Who plays a console with only one side of their hand and a chuck on the other? Complications at it's worst. Nintendo should just shut down after the outburst of the Wii. Yes, I understand it looks cute, but being a serious gamer myself, I dont understand how anyone can love the Wii. I was looking forward to the launching of the PS3 in Miri so I can tell Daddy to get me one - though the norm of questions arising from him would either be "Dont you think your too old for video games?" or "Dont you have better things to do, like studying?" Haha. I can already imagine the arguments I shall put forth. Getting a new phone would be out of the question because I just recently bought myself a new phone, plus I'm the only one who dares trade in all the phones that Daddy presents to me for something according to my own taste.
Last year for Xmas, Daddy got me the Nokia N73 and I dropped it in a bowl of water. Smart thinking, I know. He repaired it and took him about 6 hours to do so before I started whining and hinting about getting a new phone. Believe it or not, I wrecked the phone 2 weeks after he got it for me! Boy, was he pissed. But then I started using it again, though the phone went a bit haywire like the memory being too full - probably a virus infection or something. I traded it in and the stupid people at the shop did not even realise it! Because they took it in for more than half price seeing as how it was still in good condition on the outside and all. Joke on them! And now I have myself a beautiful Nokia 7380 which I swore to myself I shall never neglect and make a fool of by dumping it without it's case in my handbag. I felt guilty after looking at the scratches it has now though that can pass because I know a lot of people who do not have the phone, that being a case of it's own! Haha.
So this year, I shall contemplate on either asking for the new Album T camera - which Shereen already has in Pink or upgrading myself to a Sony Vaio or MacBook Pro. I'm still stuck with this lame cant-do-nothing-craphole of an iBook G4. All the games I play are never compatible and they never have cracks or code generators for Mac! Possibly sad.
So there, Christmas wishlist has been taken into mental notes. Daddy will be lucky person number one to ever find out about it. I hope everyone else has a happy new year and yummy Christmas too! Sales are on, like they say - shop til you drop.

Irresistible Little Coop VS. Bug Eyed Beetle

2007-12-17T09:15:00.000-08:00

Mini Cooper S in Oxygen Blue

VW Beetle in Mellow Yellow

Hence the topic, let's argue on which one would be more irresistible - part specs included! I, myself am a big sucker for compact cars. E.g: Suzuki Swift, Toyota Echo and the Chrysler PT Cruiser. Some people will call me biased, and not because I have a Mini Cooper in the household, mind you, I am not trying to promote it. I would prefer being a minority having such a cute little thing to handle. I've just heard a lot of rants considering the fact that the Mini is a much better car compared to the VW Beetle.
Right now, imagine yourself cruising and strolling along the countryside (without the tops down, mind you - not very decent looking with the wind blowing in your hair rustling all your good looks up!) and maybe, just maybe for a second think about a brand new set of wheels at your fingertips - no one gets luckier than that! Everything around you, the scenic sights of the country just goes blank. The only thing in your head is enjoying the ride with your brand new baby. Now, put yourself behind the wheels of a Mini Cooper S or a Volkswagen Beetle.
I've heard comments about the Cooper and respectfully the Beetle, good and bad ones. Well mostly good ones anyway and bad ones for the ones who speak out of jealousy. Everyone gets that, dont worry. There's a green eyed monster in everyone and no matter how hard you pretend not to envy the lady carrying an emblemed Gucci Indy next to you, you cant hide it from yourself. Fine, go ahead and tell the whole world how pretty darn innocent you are by being all smiley and shit. Screw that.
People have said that the Mini Cooper is overpriced, somehow I agree as well. Not that it's a bad thing, the modern day Mini outlets do cater to the rich and famous in Asia. I've seen hands on a proper Mini One though the torque, dare I say, does not impress me much. Exterior wise, it sucked as well. I mean, hello, for RM400k to let, why not splurge on something more luxurious? Apparently Brunei does not have a Mini dealer, was thinking it would be cheaper if you get it from there. Unfortunately the closest place for you to get it would have to be the Auto Bavaria in KL, which also happens to be the BMW dealer nationwide.
The Mini Cooper S, by the way is adorable and to die for. (Honestly, just looking at it made me want to shoot myself in the butt and bleed to death real slow) The boy toy is packed with 180hp and goes from 0-100km/h in just 7.1 seconds. Do not underestimate! Maximum torque goes 240NM at 1500-5000RPM. Overboost included goes 260NM at 1700-4500RPM. Impressed much?
Though deep down inside, I have this gut instinct that people tend to splurge more on something they dont really need, like these babies here. You can get almost the same horsepower and torque on the 2006 VW Beetle for half the price, give or take. So yes, anyone who gets the Mini Cooper will eye out on a bigger and better brand, and also why would anyone want their car to be named after an insect? The bug-eyes on the beetle makes it rather comprehensive too. I mean, come on, what a turn off having something RATHER cute but ugly at the same time? You'll be seeing it everyday and I can imagine how bored one person can get. The first few years might be tolerable (and the fact that you have a new machine to play with) does not make it reasonable to purchase a Beetle. The Volkswagen Beetle on the other hand, is not packed with so much power. Plus VW has disappointed most of their biggest fans by coming up with the basic and the convertible. No upper hands like the Mini Cooper S or anything! The VW runs on 150hp engine, maximum torque built on 228NM at 3750RPM - the car does NOT come with overboost.
So, Cooper vs. Beetle, you have it right there. Which one would you rather?

P/S: People, if you have money to flaunt, please do not get a car which hurts everyone else's eyes on the road.

Aaaah. Good to be back home!

2007-12-14T09:19:00.001-08:00

Just got back from KL yesterday, although it was a short trip - everything was as expected, the shopping part yes. Minus the nights out with the cousins, I really wanted to but time was too short! Me and Nisa had some fun nights out cruising in their Jaguar XK8 though. And this time no more Z4 cause Aunty Jenon had an accident with a motorcyclist. I even satisfied my craving for Dim Sum at Starhill! Lol.
Went to Forever 21 and got some tops there, including a really nice scarf sort dress, it's so satiny and soft. Visited Roxy to get some tops, which are not so loud seeing as how I hate tops which look so labelised, especially the ones which have ROXY written all over the front of your boobs. Miss Selfridge was on the list of must-haves for basic wear, and so was Salabianca - though the tops there look oh-so-fabulous and exotic. Daily visit to Ralph Lauren as well for Skinny Polos, this time in pink and green. M.A.C for my recent make-up fetish and I spent at least RM1000 on everything including the latest Antiquitease and Viva Glam palettes, kohl liner and eye shadow. I am officially in love with make up, you can do so many things with your face! Tried Stila and BeneFit but then didnt manage to get anything I like seeing as how most of the items were sold out. And yes, Pavilion rocked my socks, definitely, managed to finish the whole mall within 2 days. Ali bought me a pair of wedges as well and it was on sale for 70%! Oh wow oh wee. Tommy Hilfiger was a big hit with jeans too, needed a rugby polo but decided that it could stay out of my way cause I definitely do not like anything which is warm and long sleeved. Aaaah. Then there was Diva and Island Shop for earrings! Got myself a decent collection now, I must admit. The reductions at Diva was absurd though, one piece went from RM39 to RM6! Haha. I was lucky enough to get my hands on any one of those. Checked Coach out for the new sling bags but it was sold out, I was disappointed as hell cause Mummy was all ready to get me a new handbag, haha!
Nevermind, Heathrow Airport shall be the next destination on whoever's list to get me a cheap handbag. Word out is, Heathrow Airport is on sale on branded goods and it's way cheaper than getting them items in proper shops in malls! Aunty Jenon just recently got herself a Gucci tote which was on sale in KLCC and London for RM8000 but it was only RM5000 in Heathrow! How lucky can one person get. Due to the taxes which are deducted, imagine that.
Marc Jacobs was on sale as well in KLCC and the patchwork stam is for only RM4500, people! I wanted to get one, but then we didnt have enough time. Oh boo. Mummy and Daddy were too busy looking for furniture stuff for our new apartment. It's located right next to Nikko Hotel and is about 10 minutes walk away from KLCC, how convenient! Haha though I doubt we would ever walk though, we're such lazy asses plus we have loved ones at our disposal to come pick us up over there :D teehee.
Shoutout to Nisa and Nana - i miss you two already. We didnt get to spend enough time with each other but hopefully I will be back after Christmas. I need to spend New Years else where this year. Oh wait, I spent it in Perth last year. Haha. I forgot. But anyhoozers, it would be good spending our long lost times of New Years together though. We still need to catch up on shitloads of stuff and the rat at TTDI was cute! Lol. I really wanted to catch it, too bad Junior was being a total wuss :p No offense IDZAM. Hahaha I never call him by that name, he's adorable, yes.
The cigarettes in KL was amazing. I finally had my Fine Cuts again but as expected I smoked them out. I left my limited edition 3-pack Dunhill with Ali in his cute little Swift! Awwww. Poo. I want that back baby! Just the boxes, mind you. I dont need the fags because they were excruciatingly heavy. Then there was the Marlboro Fresh Mint - I forgot to get myself another limited edition fag pouch cause I gave it to Nisa. Oh well. There's always AFTER XMAS. Lol. Yes, still hoping Daddy will say yes and let me go because Ali has a house warming and I was looking forward to that trip instead of the recent one! It was good nonetheless having Daddy and Mummy to pay everything for me instead of thinking about saving money cause I might end up finding something which I like compared to another.
Pictures will be added when I do get the time to get some off the cameras.
Until then, enjoy the holidays while it lasts cause I'm definitely going to rock mine!

Officially Missing You.

2007-12-05T07:39:00.000-08:00

Ali Amirul Aliff
A big shoutout, I am already starting to miss you! It's been see, 3 days and counting until I know for sure that I'm going to meet you again.
Hahaha. The hubby is leaving soon, to bloody old-people's Perth for his Dad's convention. Thank God he aint going to study there just yet, and hey, it's a good thing I have a boyfriend who loves being around me every second around the clock.
Well, at least I'll be going to KL before that and after when he comes back. They're moving in to their new house when they come back! Woohoo. And I get to go to the house warming. Lol. Well, no, not something that any person who has got a boyfriend/girlfriend should be excited about especially when it comes to meeting their parents.
Well, that proved me wrong cause his family is wonderful. His sisters, Alia and Aisha are the two main girls in his life - no, I'm not jealous! And they too, are adorable! His mother is an angel, a very fair angel, if I must add. And his Dad? Well The Don's an exact replica, but his Dad's the real deal of a Godfather, unlike some people who claim to be but are not! *poke poke wink wink* Ok, I was joshing. Sorry babycakes.
Although Daddy has not confirmed tickets to KL yet, I'm sure I will work a way out on going, even if they wont go seeing as how they want to spend Christmas in Miri. I intend on going and I shall not give up, really. We were talking about it just now and hotels are a sure fast excuse for him not to let me and Mummy go just yet. He insists on staying at the Grand Millenium or formerly known as Regent because Pavilion and Lot 10 are a stone's throw away. I still wonder why Lot 10 is still his favourite place to shop when KL has so many other shopping joys to offer. I'm putting my bet on the Hour Glass because he can stay in there from the moment he wakes up with his hotel slippers on til the shop closes at 10PM. I love watches, dont get me wrong, but I just dont see the point of getting a new watch every single time you walk into a watch shop. Speaking of watches, there was a CK watch which I wanted to get for Shereen on her birthday but we ended up getting her the J.Lo Live fragrance instead. Oh bum. At least she liked it though, the girl loves her sweet scents and it honestly makes me drowsy as hell. Imagine waking up to the smell of a nastily sweet scent instead of my normal after shower tobacco in the loo smell! Okay, some would prefer the sweet and I like the smokey smell on me in the AMs - or PMs in my case of which is the only time I like to wake up.
Been starting up on the diet plans and it's excruciating. I try to keep myself busy by watching shitloads of DVDs which I've never watched but bought ages ago and it's working. I was tempted to steal someone's Maggi Mee a little while ago and I'm proud to announce that I did not touch it, not one bit. I remember a time when I was always hooked up on Maggi Mee during Ramadhan because I was too lazy to cook something up on the stoves. Baby used to tell me off because he said my cheeks were getting chubbier! I lost all the cheek-fat though. Damnation on the tempts of food! If none of you know, I do eat quite a whole lot myself. And I drink less water to make myself get fat - only because I want to grow my breasts out! Haha. And the good thing is, I never get stretch marks after I shed a few extra pounds! I've seen and I've heard of people losing tons of their boobies and gaining stretch marks instead right there, and it's disgusting! Strivectin works wonders though, for stretch marks, I had them on my hips and waists when I gain-lost weight for the past few years and just rub in a little bit of Strivectin - no more stretch marks, instantly! No, it does not conceal. It really really works. Apparently the product is designed for erasing fine lines and wrinkles for the older generation, but the younger tits can use it as well, for any sort of skin disorders.
I'm skipping from one topic to another now, am I not? When in the first place it should be about how much I miss him. He wasnt lying when he said I had the attention span of a squirrel!
Right, back to topic.
Baby love, I'll be seeing you again soon and for all you know Daddy might be a kindred spirit and release us from this cell by the end of this week! I am in need of retail therapy and I'd do a good job at it too, I've even got lists ready on what I need/want to get so I wont forget anything. Unlike the last time I was in KL when I totally splurged all my money on unwanted and unused clothes and forgot all about my makeup especially when they had an exclusive closed-members sale at KLCC with invitations only at 70% off on Bobbi Brown, Stila, Paul & Joe and MAC! Oh, the horror. I shall promise to spend my money and time wisely this time, xxx my heart and hope to die. A bit of a lie there, I think.
So there you have it, a little bit on what's going on in this delusional head of mine. Main thing is, I miss him like hell and I'm going to make sure I get to see him real soon! XOXO

The South Beach Diet

2007-12-03T18:26:00.000-08:00

This time of year is around, and fortunately I've got a little time on my hands to start working up a new diet - seeing as how I could never stick to one in the first place.

The South Beach Diet Description

The South Beach Diet by Dr Arthur S. Agatston depicts everything you need to know about the South Beach Diet Plan. As far as I'm concerned, the only diets I've ever tried are the ones which require me to eat NOTHING or consume only fluids. Apparently, these never work for long seeing as how I'm tempted to eat more junk after a long time of cutting loose, and there it goes again - unstable weight gain!
The South Beach Diet is different in ways that it teaches you a way of life where you rely on the right carbs and fats. Yes - fats make food yummier! This new way of eating allows you to live contently without eating the bad carbohydrates and fats. In contrast, when a person eats bad carbs and fats, they get hungry, causing them to eat more, which causes weight gain. In exchange for eating right, you become healthier and can enjoy an 8 to 13 pound weight loss in just two weeks.
This diet works in phases, the first for a specific timeframe, and the third phase for life. With this new approach, we can stop counting calories, stop weighing food portions and stop feeling as though we're deprived from eating good-tasting, satisfying food. We even get to eat three whole meals a day and two snacks with meal plans which is designed to be flexible and dont we all just love a bit of variety at any particular day.
Amazing results in a short amount of time - so they claim. Hips, thighs and stomach will be thinner, the number of scales will go down and all those overwhelming food cravings will be gone. Just imagine losing weight while still enjoying many of your favourite foods. With the diet, dine on mouth-watering foods like Chicken en Papillote, Shrimp Louis and even Chocolate Sponge cake, without the guilt and still losing that weight!

South Beach Diet Phases

There are basically three phases in the SB Diet. Normal sized portions in Phase 1, but all carbs are restricted! This is the strictest phase in the diet and will last for two weeks. It emphasizes lean meats, such as chicken, turkey, fish and shellfish. Low-Glycemic Index vegetable are allowed as well as low-fat cheese, nuts and eggs. Dieters should expect to lose somewhere between 8-12 pounds within this phase. In Phase 2, some of the banned food are slowly introduced while weight loss continues to around 1-2 pounds per week. This phase should remain on until all desired amount of weight is gained. Phase 3, on the other hand is for maintenance and should be followed for life. Should weight loss decrease, simply return to Phase 1!

South Beach Diet Recipes

Phase 1
Aggieland Zucchini

5-6 medium zucchini, sliced
1 medium onion, diced
2-3 tomatoes, diced
1 tsp garlic, minced
1 tsp black pepper
8 oz. Mozzarella cheese, grated

Lightly cook zucchini in a large skillet (no oil included) on medium heat. Add onions and brown lightly. Add tomatoes, garlic, pepper. Simmer 10 minutes on low heat with lid on pan. Pour into large baking dish. Bake at 350 degrees for 10 minutes. Top with cheese and bake 10 minutes more. Serve hot from oven.

Balsamic Portobello Mushrooms

1 shallot or red onion, diced
3 cups of portobello mushrooms
1 clove garlic
3 tbsp Balsamic vinegar
Spritz of olive oil
Thyme, basil, chives

Spritz non-stick frying pan with olive oil. Saute shallots/onions for 2 minutes. Add garlic and saute for another 1 minute. Add Portobello mushrooms, Balsamic vinegar, thyme and basil. Lower heat and cover pan. Cook for 7-12 minutes until mushrooms have turned a brownish colour and become flexible. If the pan gets dry, add a splash of water or broth.

Chicken Breasts with Tarragon Cream Sauce

4 boneless, skinless chicken breast halves
1 tbsp butter
1 tbsp olive oil
1/2 cup light or fat free cream
1 tbsp Dijon mustard
2 tsp chopped fresh tarragon or 3/4 tsp dried salt
Salt and pepper

Sprinkle chicken with salt and pepper. In a large skillet over medium heat, melt butter with olive oil. Brown chicken breasts on both sides. Reduce heat and cook with pan cover on for about 15 minutes until chicken is cooked through. Transfer chicken to a serving platter, tent with foil to keep warm. Add cream to skillet, scraping up brown bits. Stir in mustard and tarragon. Cook over medium heat, stirring constantly for 5 minutes until sauce thickens slightly. Season to taste with salt and pepper. Pour sauce over chicken.

Chocolate Popsicles

1.25 cup of milk
1 tbsp cocoa powder
3 packets of Splenda

Mix all the ingredients until smooth. Pour into popsicle moulds. Serves 4

Hot and Sour Soup

5 cups of canned non-salted chicken broth, undiluted
1/2 cup sliced fresh mushrooms
1 tsp minced fresh ginger
1 skinned and boned chicken breast half, cut into thin strips
1/3 cup canned bamboo shoots, cut into thin strips
1/3 cup rice vinegar
1/4 cup of low-sodium soy sauce
1/4 tsp hot sauce
1 egg white, lightly beaten
1/4 cup sliced green onions
1/4 cup fresh snow peas
1 tbsp of cornstarch
1/4 cup water

Combine chicken broth, fresh mushrooms and ginger in a saucepan then bring to boil. Add chicken breast, simmer without cover on for about 10 minutes. Add bamboo shoots and simmer for 5 minutes. Add vinegar, soy sauce, and hot sauce then bring to a boil. Drizzle egg white into the soup, stirring constantly. Stir in green onions and snow peas. Combine cornstarch and water, then stir into soup mixture. Bring to a boil for about one minute, stirring gently. Serve immediately.

Gulf Coast Shrimp and Vegetables

1 tbsp olive oil
1 large onion, cut into thin wedges
1 small red bell pepper, cored, seeded and cut into thin strips
2 cloves of garlic, minced
1/4 teaspoon salt
1 pound medium or large shrimp in shell, peeled and deveined
1 zucchini, cut into thin 2-inch-long strips
1 tbsp chopped fresh thyme or 1 tsp dried thyme
1/4 tsp crushed red pepper flakes

Heat the oil in a large non-stick skillet over medium-high heat. Add in onion, red pepper and garlic. Saute until limp, about 3 minutes. Sprinkle with salt, if desired. Push the onion mixture to the edges of the skillet. Add the shrimp and zucchini then sprinkle with thyme and red pepper flakes. Saute until the shrimp are opaque for 4-5 minutes. Toss to mix well. Serve immediately.

Phase 2
Chicken Pitas with Sauteed Onions and Apples

1 tbsp olive oil
1 pound skinless, boneless chicken breast cut into bite-size pieces
1/2 tsp salt
1/2 tsp cinnamon
1/2 tsp freshly ground black pepper
1 tbsp butter
2 cups thinly sliced onions
2 cups thinly sliced peeled apples
2 cloves garlic, minced
2 large pitas split and cut in half

Heat oil in a large non-stick skillet over medium-high heat. Sprinkle the chicken evenly with the salt, nutmeg, cinnamon and pepper. Add chicken to pan, saute for 7 minutes or until golden. Remove chicken from pan, make sure to keep warm. Melt butter in pan over medium heat. Add onions, cook for about 4 minutes or until tender, stirring frequently. Add apples and cook for 6 minutes or until golden, stirring frequently. Add garlic and cook for 30 seconds, stirring constantly. Return chicken to pan and cook for 2 minutes or until thoroughly heated, stirring frequently. Warm pitas in microwave for about 10 seconds. Arrange 1/2 cup of chicken mixture evenly on pita and roll up.

Quiche Lorraine

8 eggs
1/4 cup diced red pimentos or peppers
1 tsp dry or fresh parsley flakes
1 cup half-and-half
1 tsp salt
1/4 tsp black pepper
1/4 tsp ground nutmeg
1/8 tsp white pepper
1 tsp baking powder
12 oz. shredded swiss cheese
12 oz. cooked crisp turkey bacon, crumbled

Preheat oven on bake to 350 degrees. Mix eggs, half-and-half, pimentos and spices in a large bowl with a wire whip. Fold in cheese and turkey bacon. Pour into greased pan and bake for 40 minutes until golden brown.

Berry Vanilla Parfait

3 large strawberries
1/4 cup frozen blueberries
3/4 cup low-fat sugar free vanilla pudding
1/4 cup Uncle Sam cereal
1 tbsp fat-free cool whip

Layer strawberries cut up on the bottom of a glass and add 1/3 of the vanilla pudding on top, add the cereal and the 1/3 cup of the pudding on top of it. Add the frozen blueberries and remaining pudding. Top with cool whip.

For more food ideas, check out http://www.southbeach-diet-plan.com/food_list.html and get yourself cooking in the kitchen for excellent food which are carb-free! You can also purchase The South Beach Diet book by Dr Arthur, available at any book store nearby. I'm still working myself pass the 1st stage and as excruciating as it can be, somehow I feel it's going to work. No snacking at odd hours makes it tiring seeing as how I'm used to rummaging in the kitchen for extras, be it chips or ice cream. Good luck on those who are trying to lose weight!

Comeback

2007-12-01T21:18:00.000-08:00

Awwww. The poor baby is jealous. CG even took the effort writing about me. And I made number 2 to the list! Woohoo. Haha. Yes, famous, but for such a short while of fame, for what? Even Paris Hilton does not seek that sort of attention for 10 seconds of her measly life making money! Me? A Paris Hilton of Miri? Haha. I wish I had smaller boobs like hers *rolls eyes*. Oh and financial wise? Almost there, darling! Dont worry, I'm just not cheap enough to want cheap publicity. CG, get your facts right. I cant show off what I dont have, so I'm showing off right now what I do have.
You probably dont even have a boyfriend to start off with, otherwise you would not even mention about my boyfriend in your stupid column. If you're jealous, just tell the whole world that you are ugly enough to be jealous and let's get it done and over with. At least, of all things I have a decent boyfriend to show off. CG made two of my days already, were you expecting me to read it, though? Because I didnt. Haha. I can only imagine what you have typed out about me and with a little help from someone else as well because fortunately she read it. So please, why dont you post it up again so we can see what magic your fingers can work with?
CG, your not getting anything. AND I am still laughing, pretty much very loud at the thought of it. I am also STILL wondering how in tarnation do you look like, you filthy little bugger? I wonder what sort of things your parents taught you when you were a tot, maybe they didnt teach you anything but knocked you and your tiny head around on walls and cabinets only to drop you on the floor after that, eh? That's how mighty retarded you sound like.
By the way CG, my Daddy's bank account has nothing to do with you whatsoever. Who can blame losers for being jealous with what fortunate people have? Definitely not me. I have everything in the world, have it your way if you think that I'm being a spoiled brat. You cant even get to be Jenna Jameson's licker for all it's worth!
Honestly, grab a life, be it someone else's. You can even pretend to like mine and grab that too, be my guest. Obviously there is a stalker walking around Curtin viewing people's blogs anonymously and making a big scene of their lives. Here, you can become famous - I'll give you that much of publicity.
I also wonder, what sort of person would call a person she thinks annoying as hot? That's absurd. Now I'm thinking CG's a perverted guy, who has chick boobs. I can only imagine.

Have you sticked that in your juice box yet? Because this one is especially for you to stick it further up your ass with all the junk you already have up there.

Re: Curtin Goss-er

2007-12-01T10:40:00.000-08:00

Referring to Curtin Goss-er; that cracked me up! I should have read the blog earlier on when Baby Jee commented on my earlier post though. Too bad.
Honestly, to think there was a next Gossip Girl in Curtin put me in fits of laughter. CG wanted to be famous, but ended up deleting the blog instead. I thought you wanted to be famous CG? Oh well, let's leave that for another time, shall we? The truth is not so much of the truth seeing that everyone already knows that you took it down. I bet you're reading this right now, CG ;)
Thanks for the effort though, everyone on the list is laughing at you from top to bottom! What in hell was CG trying to do, dissing other people with anonymity but then was afraid that someone would find out about his/her identity? Coming from the Google search header on Curtin Goss, I bet it's a girl! Well, CG, I just hope you dont look like another frog or worse yet, if you look like Shrek's wife. I had such high hopes of seeing a beauty queen brave enough to set up a Gossip column on the everlasting lives of us Curtin students. I think I just got my hopes up cause I havent seen anyone worthy enough of being a beauty queen and pulling that sort of stunt off! Baby Jee, excluded though - she replied to the post well enough and I am proud of her (dont worry Jee, CG probably is just plain jealous, they get that sometimes, you know, when they are UNfortunate looking!) Lol. No one is trying to be the next Xia Xue by the way, because honestly, Xia Xue is a character and blogger of her own which no one can overcome - read that, CG.
Maybe your the one trying to be Xia Xue, too bad for you cause you probably dont have a life to start off with by attempting to pull a fast one like that! Yes, most of us read about XX's Seven Most Annoying Singapore bloggers, see. The only person who is a wannabe right now has got to be you, CG for posting up something on Curtin's Most Annoying Bloggers! Does your intelligence actually do its justice, knowing that you are only able to identify Curtin's Bloggers and not the ones in the whole of Malaysia? Oops, that may be a little bit tooooooooo (emphasizing on TOO) deep for you, I forgot. Let alone Malaysia, you cant even achieve to list Miri's Most Annoying Bloggers, ever! And 5? Hahaha. What a number, wooooh, I thought George Bush was about to kill another hands-on Islamic leader, right there.
So woe be upon you, I feel very sorry. Next time, think about dissing other people publicly and ACTUALLY acting up on it by staying anonymous and not taking down your column! Better yet, get a life. This is not America's Gossip Girl section - other people have better things to do compared to keeping up with other people's lives. You cant blame the Americans, they dont know a thing or two about privacy. Plus, Gossip Girl is pretty fictional dont you think? CG is fact and it's utter bollocks - the only way for CG to earn any publicity at all is to keep behind the screens and walla, cheapness at its best!

So stick that in your juice box, and suck it!